Can't Make Up Mind - San Antonio, TX

I dont know ,I feel kind of scared but after having 8 kids ,all grown up .I breast fed all of them .Now i feel its time for me to feel good about myself ,but like i mention I feel selfish about it too but at same time would i like to look normal .any advise?It makes me feel embarresd about myself when i always have to wear patted bras I also dont know financialy how much it will cost me .