I have never had big boobs, and then what I did...
I have never had big boobs, and then what I did have... my kids sucked the life out of! In 17 days im going to have 500cc HP silicone implants under the muscle. Very excited, but I did a Q & A on this website, and of course talked to my dr... but i wanted side boob and high cleavage. But have broad girl shoulders.... i want my cake, and want to eat it too. But i cant have the side and top boob apparently at the same time. Because of the implant diameter. So, i have come to terms with this and am excited for the high cleavage. I think anything will be better than what ive got going on now. So heres to a full D cup!
3 Days until surgery
Only 3 more days until the newbies are installed! Pre-op tomorrow! Im very nervous about the surgery and recovery part of it all. So again I am set with 500cc round high profile memory gel under the muscle. So heres to a good surgery and big ol tatas!
One more day! And high blood pressure!
One day left until surgery! I went to my pre op this morning and got all marked up for Thursday. However, I had really high blood pressure, not just nervous high but hypertension II- 169/112 kind of high. So I am not going to take my stimulant medication or drink any caffeine tomorrow. And obviously not the day of the surgery either. My Dr. said they would not give me anesthesia if I dont have normal blood pressure. Im only 29!! How is this a problem already?? Soooo worried now that I wont get my operation, because of high blood pressure. So wish me luck on bringing it down. Any tips???
Boobies are officially installed!
21 Jul 2016
Day of treatment
Short and sweet post.
They are in, wrapped very tight, and im exhausted. This pain is no joke, but already worth it. I will get to see them for the first time tm! Good night!
And here they are!
Just got out of the bandages and into a medical bra. So much relief in the bra!
Day 3 Post Op
Finally able to move around. Still uncomfortable and theres still a lot of pressure, but its sooo much better now. Im totally tantalized by the ladies!
Dropping? Weird boob....
Im 5 days post op, and one of my boobs is lower and smaller. The other is very swollen and high still. Oh, and parts of both boobs are numb..... anyways, they still look great, but im unsure on whats happening in this phase to both of them.
Over the weird boob phase
I was initially freaking out because my right implant was hard. But I think that it was the medical bra; it sucked! My PS gave me a medical bra that was meant for someone bigger around than me. SHe said it was to accommodate the large implants. However, it was not supporting me what-so-ever. Making my muscles work too hard. So I went down to good ol' VS and got a really good (and wireless) sports bra 34DD!!! And strapped these puppies up high and tight! OMG they feel 1000x better! And my muscle has now started loosing up and my implant is beginning to do its thing :) Oh, and I am back at work! Im so over being trapped inside my house!
Wow- getting used to these big boobies
Wow- getting used to these babies takes some practice! The other day I put my arm down by my side and freaked out a little.... because something touched my arm- it was my side boob!! LOL! I also accidentally picked up one of my 45lbs kids- oops.... but it was purely maternal instinct! I was watching one of my girls struggle, and naturally I picked her up so she could reach. And ouch... but slowly getting over that one still. 10lbs and no more- they mean it! For sure. Left boob is moving along nicely- the right one is still a bit hard and more sore. But better everyday. I get my steri strips off tomorrow!! Cant wait- they look so nasty, its gross. I will spare details. Ick. Still strapped up in a lame sports bra all high and tight. No sleeping on sides still- which sucks. But overall moving along nicely. 2nd post-op tm, i will update after.
Just a silly video my husband took of me to show me what the ladies look like when i push my chest out.
Alien Boob & Steri Strips
Thank god my strips are gone, they were starting to look nasty. Anyways, my skin is sealed back together, and I can barely see the glue. My PS asked me today if my breasts felt like apart of me yet. And I said no they are still very alien like. She told me that it takes the brain about 5-6 weeks to remap so that the "alien" feeling goes away. And reassured me that this would not last forever. But all else was looking good. I am start massages today- push in up and over 10x each boob 2x a day. I think thats manageable. She said dont push down, because gravity would take are of that naturally :)
My First Hate Comments
Wow, I received my first hateful comment last night, and I probably didnt handle it the best way either. I stooped down to the level of the user that left the comment, and fired back very abruptly. And I wasnt very nice about it either. But I was very caught off guard, as this is a support forum, correct? I had another user leave me a very aggressive and judgmental comment about how they felt about my experience and size of my implants. I am personally using this website to convey my experience and journey. To read and chat with other and answer questions; to be involved! We are all here for the same purpose, to connect through our journeys. Support each other through the process. It is not to look through profile to pass judgement. We are not here to try and make anyone feel lesser of a person for their personal choices. Why do we as women feel we need to make harsh judgement on each other and put each other down?? Please take your negativity elsewhere- NO ONE NEEDS YOU TO BE JUDGMENTAL! So, moral of this post is- this is a support forum and and A**HOLE FREE ZONE. If you feel as if you cant do that- then maybe this is not a good website for you. Maybe there is another for all the negative nancies out there.
2 Weeks PO today!
Now i am totally starting to understand when i see everyone saying time flies. Because it has been. Started my massages, but I keep forgetting to do them. Oops. Im still getting a lot of pain twinges/ zingers. Out of no where some part of one or both boobs shoots random pain. Ive got more feeling back but still having more numbness on the left side than right. But feeling good though! Im soooooo freaking over the whole sports brathing! Ugh, its had to rock a racerback everyday in business professional attire. I just want to wear a regular bra again! Ohhhhh and Ive been shopping around browsing for bras in a 34DD.... and what is with all the beige and thick straps and 4 hook clasps on the back?? All the cute ones are a D and under.... wth. Im going to keep shopping around. Maybe Nordstrom Rack is not a good place to find cute bras.
Before, 1 wk & 2 wk compare pics
Before and after pics! And scar care cream im going to try.
500cc = 4.5lbs each boob.... I think not!
Soooo..... Ms Fatty McFat Pants over here- just reporting a new update. Uggggh- so obviously my boobs dont weigh 4.5lbs each. Combined they weigh roughly 2lbs. So what is the other 7 lbs from, you might ask. And I shall answer.... Whataburger and booze :-/ Having the restrictions of not lifting over 10 lbs and dont lift your arms over your head and dont over exert yourself while in recovery; has really added up... in pounds! And lets not pretend that I usually have a healthy diet or exercise, but dang all this sloth like motion is really taking a toll on my mid section. Ever since my BA- 3 weeks ago today I have added 2lbs of boobs and 7 lbs in fat! Arg- Im sooooo freaking over the sports bra and im over the restrictions! Im ready to be back to normal. Active and not limited in motion or range. Im over the recovery part (except im not fully recovered yet- meh) Just feeling a bit frustrated today.
Boobies in a bra
Pics of the ladies in a bra, a heavily padded bra at that.
4 Weeks Post Op
They feel like mine now! And Ive taken the girls out for the evening twice now! And turns out that I am stacked lol. Even though I am still using a padded push up bra... I know I should still be in the sports bra 100%, around the clock still. But I cant! Im just soooo over the sports bra. Plus I wanted to show them off a bit. Not to worry though, I put them back in their cage when we got home.
Well, I love the way my boobs look when naked! I think they are perfect... then I put a shirt on.... and wish they were bigger, still. I feel terrible complaining about that. But I still have some drop and fluff to go still. So hoping that will help me feel less jealous of all you 550-650cc ladies.
Healing is going great! I have zero complaints about the healing. I have no pain, and the random pain twinges are rare to non existent anymore. Feeling really good overall. Still have a numb left nipple... hopefully that will come back to life in the near future. Using some scar gel from Ulta, and I guess it works? Too early to tell at this point. Still transitioning from wound to scar.
Smoking hot..... or just smoking
Ahhhhh! So, I had to quit smoking in order to have my surgery. So I quit, and I knew then that 7th time was a charm!! And I wasnt going to start back up and ruin my healing by constricting blood flow to my healing wounds. I think in a sense I kept telling myself "just make it to 6months PO and you can light up again". But I started to actually enjoy being a non smoker- and totally nicotine free at that too! Everyone was like you did such a good job quitting and cold turkey at that. Which I was proud of myself too. Id been a pack a day smoker for 13 years.
And just like that it has all burned down in flames (yes pun intended). Im not even sure as to how- but I started (and have been continuing to smoke) like 2 weeks ago! And I hate it!! I didnt pay over 6k to just crap all over my nice new assets. But thats exactly what I am doing. I am not letting my body heal and if I dont quit again- Im going to ruin all of it. I went through the whole process of quitting (suffering through the quitting), spent the money, endured that pain. All of for nothing :-(
So I am setting a quit date (you know what I am talking about if you are a reformed smoker) of Sunday the 4th (tempted to push it till after the holiday- but thats the nicotine talking again) And I am going to quit FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL. Number 8 will be the last.
I endured years of crappy boobs, waited forever to have my work done. And I am not going to suffer through years to come of bad boobs over cigarettes. No ma'am. That aint happenin.
So wish me luck and drop a encouraging line if you can relate.
Oh and please ask me about my non smoking progress (I need accountability)
5 Week Progress Report
Things are settling nicely! I need to remember to take pics at the same angle so i can get better side by side comparisons. So for week six I should have a good line up.
Anyways, Im feeling good about everything not too much of an update. Just busy busy bee. Will report if anything changes!
The fluff is here, the drop and fluff! 6 weeks post op and Im dropping and fluffing away! Well, little miss righty has been a bit stubborn from the beginning, as left has always been my favorite, until about two nights ago. I went to sleep, and when I woke up righty dropped! Just like that overnight- almost. And my boobs are starting to even out. And are starting to look more natural than the first few weeks that they are all the way up in your throat.
Lets talk bra and cup size. A few weeks ago I was measured at a 34 band size, and figured that will stay the same. I was also measured at a DD cup, putting me in a 34DD. So, I headed over to the Victoria Secret Outlet. All their bras were $19.99! So I bought 5 :o)
However now that the fluff is in full force, I might be exchanging some of those (as luck would have it, all sales are final at the outlet- poo.) Because Im not really fitting in the bras I bought last week. I really dont want to have a nip slip. And I feel like im always going to fall out of the cup, and im constantly readjusting. So I think I need to get remeasured on the cup size. I think the fluff is graduating me into a DDD. Which I am not complaining about! I just dont feel like my breasts are that big when looking at me. Without clothes they look crazy good, but then they almost disappear when I put a shirt on. Maybe this is all in my head... i dont know.
Jumping up and down is a lot of fun now! And I feel my boobs just jiggling away when I walk. This is great! I have not ever experienced this before- as I have always been small in the boob department. But these new big ones of mine sure are a whole lot of fun!
Anyways, Im feeling pretty good overall. The bras are a smidgen uncomfortable wear the underwire sits on my incisions. And the numbness has yet to differ. (update pics to come!)
6 weeks post op pics !
I need to take better progress pics. Im going to try and not rush through taking (like these, were taken in the morning when i was already running late to work lol) but this is where i am visually.
Here are some more pics of my 6 weeks post op. I think i was able to get better angles to show how everything is stacking up.
They have become so much more soft and i can move them around a lot more. But there still a little resistance. Ive never really felt big natural boobs, so this is how i would imagine that they might feel? I dunno lol.
15 Sep 2016
2 months post
Woot woot! Its already been 8 weeks since my BA. And I swear I love them more and more every day! I have no regrets at this time. They have just been d&f-ing so nicely. I have no real complaints right now. Im still getting morning boob on the right. And sometimes the bra underwire gets a little uncomfortable, and i have to readjust (makes me wonder, are men this self aware of their constant readjusting and just dont care, lol. Who knows.) The hubby is sometimes embarrassing because he is so darn handsy ALL OF THE TIME! I mean hello dude, we are at the grocery store, it might be a tad inappropriate. Lol, I wanted bigger boobs so he could enjoy them, so this is life now. But we are both more than thrilled with the results. Anyways, not too much else to report at the moment. Will update again soon!
Is it weird?
20 Sep 2016
2 months post
Is it weird I get just as excited to post boobie pics, as I am to send them to my hubby? Ps, they are the same pics lol! He's totally ok with it. Anywho.... just want to post some pics!
Post Op Weight Gain
26 Sep 2016
2 months post
I gained 12 lbs post op. I was hoping that I would have lost some by now. Its been 9 weeks, and nothing. Still holding on to it all, meh. At first I just figured it was because I was on the -don't lift over 10 lbs restriction for the first few weeks. And due to the fact I laid in bed resting for 5 days. Well, these things combined- and possibly my age, have left me.... well, feeling a bit unhappy with myself. As anyone else experience this type of post BA weight gain?
Questions, Lessons, and 3 month update
11 Oct 2016
3 months post
My new additions will be turning 3 months this Thursday!
In the last three months we have come a long way. The dropping is done, and I am couldn't be more thrilled with where they landed. The fluff is still in effect, but I believe is winding down now. Or at least I hope so! Because I fluffed straight into a DDD! Which is perfect for me, because I wanted big ol' boobies! I have no more pain, discomfort; although my left nipple still is completely numb. I have said goodbye to the hope that sensation will be restored. Dead left nippie it is for me. But on the bright side my right nipple is doing great, with full sensation.
They do look more natural now, opposed to 1-2 months ago; but because I chose the HP implant, I don't think they will never look like they were naturally mine- like born with these. But again, I perfectly ok with this.
Which this leads me to my next thought...
To tell or not to tell?
For example, the other night I was at a bar with the hubby and a there were a lot of other people outside where we were at. I was standing up talking, and out of no where a chick was like "Wow! You've got some huge boobs!" (in a loud, drunk 24 yr old excited kind of voice). And suddenly everyone got quite, and turned to and checked out my boobs. I was wearing a regular fitted, crew neck tshirt, nothing revealing at all. But I believe because I was standing, and she was sitting, they may have been more noticeable to her from the angle. But I was definitely caught off guard with this sudden attention (stares and glares- from both genders) And I kind of choked a little. And then with a little fear in my eyes, and not knowing what to say I then uttered out "well thank you! They are new".... awkward silence..... then everyone kinda shrugged their shoulders and moved on and back to their conversations. Later on, I had 2 other girls come to me and say they were thinking about getting theirs done, and wanted to know all about the process. I talked to them for a little while about it, and mentioned RealSelf as a phenomenal resource to use as well.
So I think lesson learned here was, nobody criticized me, or judged me (out loud). However, slightly embarrassing, but I quite possibly could have been able to help 2 other girls out with fulfilling their goals of a BA.
Obviously no one is perfect, and instead of pretending like I was born with amazing tits, I opted to tell the truth. No need to make others hate on themselves, because I might be too proud to admit that I too, am not perfect. So, this is why I stand on the "tellers" side.
Anyways! All is going good. I will keep you posted! Pics to follow :-)