35 Years Old, 3 Kids, 17 Year Old Breast Implant Removal. Salt Lake City, UT

Hello I have been inspired by many of you to finally take the plunge and have my 17 year old breast implants removed. I got my breast implants the second I turned 18 years old. In high school it was always the idea I had in my head; that when I turned 18, I was going to do it. The courage to go through with this decision came from the support and enthuseastic urging of my boyfriend at the time. (Who later turned out to be a drunken, chauvinist bar-hopping douche.)
I remember sitting in the waiting room and having a mini panic attack waiting for the nurse to take me back to surgery. I was thinking, "Oh my god am I really going to go through with this? Do I really need them? I guess no turning back now." My boyfriend was sitting beside me and I didn't want to disappoint him by changing my mind. Eerything was paid for and the appointment was set. So I did it. When I woke up I was in excruciating pain and it was fuzzy but I remember the nurse asking me if I'd like her to call me a cab instead of have my boyfriend drive me home. I guess he was there to pick me up and he was drunk and reeked of booze. I remember even in my delirious state being kind of embarrassed and just wanting to get home so badly that I let the loser drive me home. That should have given me my first clue about the guy, and how much his opinion really mattered. But it was too late, they had already been put in.
I have always felt they were too big, but thought, well that's what everyone wants right? The bigger the better. So even though I didn't like them much I made the best of them and then got used to them. The years passed and I got a job working at Hooters for a very long time, had a series of failed relationships and a hard partying lifestyle. I found attracted a lot of men with these breasts but usually a certain type of man. The douchebag type.
Around age 23 I began having a lot of joint pain I began getting sick very easily and taking a long time to recover. I have a lot of brain fog and don't remember things the way that I used to . Now I don't know if all of this is due to the implants or not but aside from the physical ailments I have been suffering over the years, I have still been wishing I could sleep on my stomach, and buy tops that I didn't have to alter. I am always on a diet because I try to stay 10 pounds under my natural weight to compensate for the 10 pounds that the breast implants added to my frame. I've had three children now and they are still ok looking but starting to sag over the implant a little. I just want them out. I have to admit I am a little nervous because now that I am having them removed, I have to rethink who I am now. For 17 years I've been the girl with the big boobs. The girl that a guy takes out to make his ex girlfriend jealous, and the girl that nobody takes seriously. Except for now I'm a mom, I have a real job and a mortgage and a loving supportive man in my life now who only wants to see me happy. Not to mention I'm not 18 anymore, I'm 35. I feel like I look ridiculous with these things and I hate that they draw so much attention and the way they immediately paint a portrait of the person I'm supposed to be. A girl who depends on her sexuality, and the approval of others? A nearly middle-aged woman who can't handle not being the center of attention in every room she enters? No that's not me. Not anymore. I've grown attached to these implants and there's a part of me that's afraid of how I'm going to feel with them out and sad to see them go, but I think I'm finally ready to say goodbye. I'm hoping it will also usher in a new beginning for me. I would love nothing more than to share my journey with all you ladies here, the way I've gotten so much out of being allowed to share in yours. Wish me luck!

I had my pre-op today I made my deposit and surgery is scheduled for the 16th! Bye bye implants. I'm really nervous about the outcome, but happy to see them go. Would anyone like to share their latest post-op pictures to keep me motivated?? Thinking about the initial deflation kind of gets me down...

One week and I'm getting kind of nervous. Will I be okay with my smaller boobs? Will they look deformed and uneven? It's just so nerve wracking but I know it has to be done.