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Soul Searching and Weighing my Options (And Resources!) -Sacramento, CA
ORIGINAL POST
I rambled on in my profile about all the thoughts,...
2bnaturalOctober 18, 2013
$4,000
I rambled on in my profile about all the thoughts, fears, frustrations etc that I am feeling in trying to make a decision to do something or keep avoiding it.
The more I read the more fearful I got. All the "what if's", the cost, the magnitude of procedure, recovery, results.
I guess I have a bit of shame about having done it in the first place in a way. Not something I want everyone to know. I want them to be real! But I was ashamed to have super small breasts before. I'm ashamed to have these big bulbous hard things sticking out of my clothes at 56. People seem to think they look nice over all, but it' just feels unnatural.
My boyfriend of over 7 years has never even had a conversation with me about them one way or other. As far as I know he doesn't acknowledge they exist. I scheduled an appointment with my doctor of 23 years ago and I told him I was going to Sacramento for a doctors and he didn't even ask what for! (he's not a bad guy, just a little too laid back and disconnected). So I don't feel comfortable asking for his support really.
POST CONSULTATION:
So I was feeling pretty confused. Still am. But I had my consultation with my doctor yesterday. He made me feel a bit more at ease over all.
His opinion is that things are much different from when I had them put in. The chance of capsular contracture is minimal now. So if I wanted to remove them and scar tissue and capsule and all, replace them with (if i did, I'd prefer smaller) new ones, the result would be good - most likely.
If I want to just remove them I would be quite flat chested, but my skin elasticity is still good and maybe a little more natural breast than at 29. Maybe? I forgot to ask about scarring and all. I hated having my nipples cut into before and had to have one reopened to "unfold" implant that wasn't dropping on it's own. It never has been quite right all these years since and then it just got hard. Geeze! give a girl a break!
He also assured me that I would be able to resume work in a reasonable time. Maybe 2 or even less weeks for my most physical job, and the other I could return sooner if I was careful.
He is going to send me pricing for options. Said he would give me a discount for being a former patient. I am sure I will still have a hard time justifying spending money on any of the options! It seems crazy to pay to do this to my body and then pay to undo it and cause all this damage to myself. I look at people who get unattractive or massive tattooing, pierce body parts with gauges that disfigure themselves and I don't get it. This feels similar.
He also assured me there is no real danger of illness from them being in if I want to just live with them as is.
So a lot to think about.
The more I read the more fearful I got. All the "what if's", the cost, the magnitude of procedure, recovery, results.
I guess I have a bit of shame about having done it in the first place in a way. Not something I want everyone to know. I want them to be real! But I was ashamed to have super small breasts before. I'm ashamed to have these big bulbous hard things sticking out of my clothes at 56. People seem to think they look nice over all, but it' just feels unnatural.
My boyfriend of over 7 years has never even had a conversation with me about them one way or other. As far as I know he doesn't acknowledge they exist. I scheduled an appointment with my doctor of 23 years ago and I told him I was going to Sacramento for a doctors and he didn't even ask what for! (he's not a bad guy, just a little too laid back and disconnected). So I don't feel comfortable asking for his support really.
POST CONSULTATION:
So I was feeling pretty confused. Still am. But I had my consultation with my doctor yesterday. He made me feel a bit more at ease over all.
His opinion is that things are much different from when I had them put in. The chance of capsular contracture is minimal now. So if I wanted to remove them and scar tissue and capsule and all, replace them with (if i did, I'd prefer smaller) new ones, the result would be good - most likely.
If I want to just remove them I would be quite flat chested, but my skin elasticity is still good and maybe a little more natural breast than at 29. Maybe? I forgot to ask about scarring and all. I hated having my nipples cut into before and had to have one reopened to "unfold" implant that wasn't dropping on it's own. It never has been quite right all these years since and then it just got hard. Geeze! give a girl a break!
He also assured me that I would be able to resume work in a reasonable time. Maybe 2 or even less weeks for my most physical job, and the other I could return sooner if I was careful.
He is going to send me pricing for options. Said he would give me a discount for being a former patient. I am sure I will still have a hard time justifying spending money on any of the options! It seems crazy to pay to do this to my body and then pay to undo it and cause all this damage to myself. I look at people who get unattractive or massive tattooing, pierce body parts with gauges that disfigure themselves and I don't get it. This feels similar.
He also assured me there is no real danger of illness from them being in if I want to just live with them as is.
So a lot to think about.
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Thinking seriously about it now.....
2bnaturalNovember 4, 2013
Thanks so much to all of you ladies for sharing and for this site! This site is such a godsend! You all look fantastic when you go back to yourselves. With each woman I watch go through this I am so amazed at what I learn. Especially that real boobs are so much more attractive! And that so many women share my experiences. This support is great. I thought I'd just go back into denial and not really consider it, but I'm getting more excited about the prospect each day! I never thought I'd spend so much time looking at boobs on the internet and at first it felt a little weird. But it is actually so fantastic to share this way. Thank you all so much!
I'm involved with a woman's organization called "See Jane Do" and I've so wished there was something or someone like this out there to mentor and support all of us through this. I would like to share it with them to share with the world! But I'm chicken to admit it about myself! But I want women to feel great about who they are naturally. Maybe the woman who does "Misrepresentation" would want to take it on!? Until I found this site I felt very alone and ashamed. It seemed me and all the women I know with implants live in denial and complacency and ignorance, and some of us in fear. Don't have to any more! Thank you all again.
I'm involved with a woman's organization called "See Jane Do" and I've so wished there was something or someone like this out there to mentor and support all of us through this. I would like to share it with them to share with the world! But I'm chicken to admit it about myself! But I want women to feel great about who they are naturally. Maybe the woman who does "Misrepresentation" would want to take it on!? Until I found this site I felt very alone and ashamed. It seemed me and all the women I know with implants live in denial and complacency and ignorance, and some of us in fear. Don't have to any more! Thank you all again.
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UPDATED FROM 2bnatural
It helps to see my own picture...
2bnaturalNovember 4, 2013
those thing got to go! especially that right one, hard over sized unbalanced, unnatural. Representing some false sense of how a woman "should" look. And not even doing a very good job of that!
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November 7, 2013
Hi, I'm going through the same journey as yourself and I too feel quite alone in this journey. I think its normal to think am I doing the right thing or not. I'm around the same age as you too...almost, and I can't bare the thought of going through this again. My problem is what to say to everyone as no one knows. I am going to try to get falsies to disguise that they have been removed. The thinkg I keep coming up against is durgeons who are messing with my head....trying to convince me to have replacement...Arggggh so frustrating. Infact on my most recent consultation the nurse in the room bust out laughing when I said removal and NO replacement. She said "you are joking aren't you" and when I said no, her face said it all!! She asked me how I would cope...I was ready to shout at her....I was bubbling with annoyance...boy oh boy this is such a difficult journey. Have you decided for certain yours are not going to be replaced. I am 99.999999% certain...its just finding a surgeon. Good luck. xxxx
November 8, 2013
No replacements for me. My doctor was very neutral about it. And supportive of whatever my decission. So was his assistant. You must be around my age....who else would know the word "falsies" ;) I am feeling better and better about it all the time. Can't wait to get them out really. And got a quote today of only $3400. Still a lot but doable. I'd either talk to the doctor and nurse and let them know you need them to support you or you need to find another doctor. That doesn't sound right!
November 8, 2013
...have you arranged a date yet. I am having a second consultation.[RS bleep]
November 13, 2013
no. still in denial a bit, and a bit overwhelmed with life in general. Work to much and all. But thinking more and more about it and kind of want to have it done this winter.
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Thank you so much for starting your story here in the breast implant removal community. It is a great group of caring and supportive women, so you've come to the right place to get feedback and support.
Best of luck with whatever you choose. Please keep us posted on your process!