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18 Year Old Who Made the Dumbest Mistake - Rochester, NY
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This really is the dumbest thing i have ever done...
kphommalaSeptember 24, 2016
This really is the dumbest thing i have ever done in my life. I really can't believe I went through with it. I got a spontaneous mandala tattoo that I haven't given much thought to and got it done in a really small area just because it was next to my college and didn't bother researching other places. I was set on getting it done at that tattoo shop because it was 25% off for Fredonia students. (I'm from upstate New York) I immediately hated it but was too afraid to tell the artist because she was very sweet and wanted me to like it even though you could see it in her face that she wasn't proud of it either. I knew she messed up in the middle of it because of the face she did and I knew I fucked up. I don't know why I went through with this. I really hate myself for allowing this to happen. I can't believe I got a bad mandala tattoo done at a newly opened shop with artists who don't have a lot of experience. I wasn't thinking at all and just wanted tattoos but now I'm certain I will not be getting any more tattoos in the future. My mom is very against tattoos and will be very pissed when she finds out. Worst part is, I used her money and I can't believe I did this. I really do hate myself as a person right now and I realized after that it wasn't right to do that. I have been self loathing for a while. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror because I don't even know who I am anymore. This wasn't even the design I wanted. I gave her a picture of what I wanted and she didn't give it to me but this is a lesson learned and I realize that I could have prevented this very easily and just walked out the shop. no one to blame but myself and I have never hated anyone more than myself. When the tattoo artist said she would shade it, I didn't know she was just gonna color it in. I should have seen all of the red flags. She was inexperienced, shop just opened, there was no consultation and it was an unprofessional environment. I wish I walked out. I really fucked up bad and now I have to live with the regret until I could get the treatments. My mom will never forgive me and it sucks but it is my fault and I don't expect pity from anyone. I could barely focus in class anymore and I feel so behind. I can barely eat and this situation has affected me mentally and emotionally. I feel like I am losing my mind and I really can't believe this is happening. Im gonna try and go in for a consultation with picosecond laser treatment at a hospital in Rochester. Right now, I am home and they aren't opened on weekends. I'm gonna have to transfer schools to be closer to home so I could get the treatments and I really hope I could get a job. this is gonna be one long painful journey. If you're also young, please don't do something as stupid as I did. I really wish I found this site before my tattoo appointment. think before you ink.
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Discovered two possible areas for the treatments
kphommalaSeptember 25, 2016
My school is two hours away from home (Rochester) which was the picosecond laser and seems like the best laser to get rid of the dense black ink on my forearm. I have also discovered a place in Buffalo called Southgate which is a lot closer to my school and will be calling both areas for more information to see what is the best fit. I am really nervous and afraid i'll never get this tattoo off but i'm still hopeful. i really hope the ink isn't that deep and i hope that since it's done by an amateur it'll be a little bit easier to take out. i'm afraid of the pricing because i've been told it's a lot of black ink and it's kind of big. But it could be worse..at least there's only black ink and at least i didn't lose my arm. i'm trying to stay positive but it's so hard living with this regret.
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September 25, 2016
Try to find a picoway instead of picosure because it hits black Ink way better and your skin won't lose pigment! Good luck sweetheart if you need advice or to talk feel free to message me!!
September 26, 2016
thank you! i found a place in albany that uses the picoway but that is roughly about a 3 hour drive from my hometown. If i don't see the results i want i'll definitely make the trip
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Consultation
kphommalaSeptember 26, 2016
I have called the number for Southgate but there was no answer so i called the number for UR medicine and they told me that the minimum is $200 per treatment and the lady on the phone told me i should wait at least a month for the tattoo to heal. I haven't scheduled a consultation with them yet but after a month i will eventually do that. I'll still be researching other areas but each place i come across has the same laser (picosure)
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September 30, 2016
Hi I haven't ever commented on anyone's blog here before but yours really called out to me. Firstly although I know it doesn't help, your tattoo is actually nice. It will get lighter as it heals (this takes at least a month). Also I think you may be experiencing "tattoo shock". This happens because you realise that you have just changed the appearance of your body (in your case your arm) and you can't just clean it off. Suddenly the arm you have looked at your whole life is different. You will get used to it. Remember that no one else really cares what is on your arm (it's not offensive or badly done) and most wont even notice it. Tattoos are much more common place these days and they don't have the same kind of connotations that they used to. Generally the people who will notice your tattoo are ones who like them. I have 9 tattoos myself and I have gone through this "shock" with all of them. I have had the sleepless nights and the feeling sick to my stomach etc and then I suddenly realise that I don't feel that way anymore. If you do still feel this way in a couple of months time, then you know you have a solution (even though it is an expensive and long process). I have one tattoo that I am going to start removal on next year - I made the decision to remove a couple of months back and since then the tattoo hasn't bothered me - it's like I know it isn't going to be there forever and really a couple of years is nothing compared to the rest of my life). Remember you are more than your tattoo. Life really doesn't change just because you have a drawing on your arm. Your friends are still your friends, your family will still love you - even if your Mum may be a bit mad at you for a while - you still get to do all the things you enjoyed before, now you are just doing it with a bit or artwork on your arm. Don't keep beating yourself up about your decision. You made it, it's done. You haven't hurt anyone, and the world will keep turning. Do your research on removal, don't rush into it, give your skin time to heal before you start lasering it and you will end up with a much better result. And who knows, if you take a breath and just wait a bit, you may even grow to like what you see. Best of luck and I will check in to see how you are getting on.
December 18, 2016
Whoa. What a thoughtful and insightful message. Thank you for this. I went through an initial shock as well and thought I was the only one. Good to know it happens even well after your first tattoo. Thanks!
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Almost 2 years ago (I was 17) I got my tattoo and regretted it so bad, blaming myself as I am at fault and now I spent so much money in removal and I just hope it gets better. I learned to live with it, I am in treatment since February 2016 and I try to not let it ruin my days, but from time to time... there's just this massive depression hitting me...
So, if you want to talk with someone going through the same [RS bleep] as you, I am here. I talked to people but no one understands as they don't go through this....