A not so happy story....

I know I suddenly disappeared of the face of the Earth, but ever since stuff started going wrong for me, it's been difficult opening this site and seeing other people having it easy and being happy with their surgeries. Everything started going very wrong 9 days after my breast reduction surgery, where my breasts suddenly felt really sore and the pain was unbearable. The doctor told me it was just a nerve end that had been touched during the surgery, which is when I posted on here - both to you, ladies and surgeons and got no replies at all. Last Monday, I went in to get my stitches removed and the stitches around my right nipple had popped open and had a very ugly appearance. Of course, my surgeon tried to mask his mistake by not making much of it and putting me through inhumane amounts of pain, squeezing the breast to get all of the pus out. Long story short, his raw, painful methods weren't working, so I was set to have another surgery 2 days ago, on Thursday, and I did. As of now I have 3 drain tubes hanging from my right breast and I am in constant pain. I have an infected, inflamed breast, that may need another surgery and I am on a constant emotional rollercoaster. Now, with his usual "care", it's the weekend and they're closed for some weekend fun and I am left hoping that maybe it's healing and maybe the infection is not as bad as it was. It's taken a toll on my mood, it's taken a toll on my relationship. I am not ready to say yet that I wish I never got it done, but I can't tell you enough - how scary it is - not knowing if and when I will be OK again. Sincerely, broken after my surgery.

Has anyone had this feeling that the stitches are pulling under the plasters? I can't even move, all the area around my new nipple is impossible to touch, because it feels like a stabbing, sharp pain. It doesn't feel right. It's the worst pain I've ever felt in my life and it only appeared yesterday after I went in to get my breasts cleaned and re-bandaged. Any opinions???

thanks in advance, I'm freaking out! xx

Just came back from my visit to the doctor's. Got my bandages removed, and he said everything is healing as quickly as it possibly could and that they're taking the stitches out next Monday and I can return to my normal routine then. Yay!

Haven't been able to take a picture of the breasts, where you can see the scars, as I still have some plasters over the breasts until at least Monday, but here are some pictures in the bra the doctor told me I have to wear for the next 3 weeks or so. Sorry for my weird shape, I have been super bloated last couple of days and feel like a balloon.

Although it's only been a week, I am already over the moon about the results. I feel normal. I have people notice my face before they look at my boobs, which has never happened before. All my clothes are way too baggy and I feel a lot more feminine, as my frame seems more proportional. I honestly cannot wait until I can hit the gym and get in shape again, because I finally can now! I feel like I have reclaimed my life by undergoing this surgery, and I am no longer emotionally, mentally and physically a slave to what life's given me. I feel empowered and I feel alive... for the first time in a very long time. Words can't describe all the good this surgery has done for me already... My vocal chords are opening up again, because my diaphragm is not being squished constantly, I can actually sing in tune again, which I've missed so much. I am wearing a bra, and I don't feel the straps digging into my shoulders or my boobs dragging my neck down.

Also, it's quite an amazing feeling to go into an underwear store and see bras that are WAAY too big for me. Usually I had the choice between two to three ugly grandma style bras that they had, but which were also not quite my size, only the closest I can get. No more of that!

The sports bra I am wearing now is a D-cup, but when the swelling goes down I'll be a full C-cup, which is exactly what I asked for. Happy.

To make my week even better, my lovely boyfriend proposed. Although not quite sure how I feel about it, we both know it's going to be a long engagement, as I feel way too young to get married, but it's still an amazing feeling, as he is the most amazing man I have ever met, always there for me too.

So here's to a new life, one where I am my own boss! Yay!

Hope all of you are doing well on your preparations and recoveries, and for anyone who is unsure -- If you think you probably want to do the surgery, do it! The pain is so minimal, and the benefits are so amazing!

x