My Journey. I Have Always Been Dissatisfied With My Proportions - Richmond, VA

I have always been small chested and unsatisfied with my proportions. I am very hippy and unbalanced due to my small breast size and I have always said that one day I would get implants. Since my teens I have been a small A cup, but when I got pregnant several years ago, my breast really grew and I fell in love with having larger breasts. Once my twins were born and I started to breast feed, I was a D cup. After I stopped breast feeding and lost the 70 pounds I had gained, I was left with a little saggy skin and very little tissue. I was actually smaller than I was BEFORE pregnancy.

I have spent the past year doing research and looking into the risks and benefits of implants. The more research I did, the more I wanted them. This website was really helpful to me in making my decision as well. I was referred to my doctor by a friend who had gotten beautful results from him several years ago. I went to my consultation appointment in July and then scheduled my surgery for August 31.

I really struggled with deciding on the right size of implant. I did not want ANYONE to know that I had gotten the surgery so I was really scared of going too big. I did the rice test and liked the look of 360 cc. As crazy as it sounds, I wanted people to be used to seeing me with bigger breasts so I actually wore my rice inside a D cup bra for about a month before my surgery. Its not that I care what people think, I just dont think anyone will understand my reasons for getting the surgery and frankly its not their business. I dont feel like I owe anyone an explanation.

At my pre-op, I tried on several different sizes and actually liked to look of the 390 cc implants. The number scared me but my PS explained that 30 cc is not that much. He also told me that he did not recommend going over 400 cc for my body size and type. I felt that I ought to make it worth my while and go for a size that be bigger but still natural for my body. So I decided on the 390 cc saline implant under the muscle. I should mention here that I am 5'6, 140 pounds and a 36A cup bra. I am very bottom heavy and curvy. I wear a size 6/8 pants.

My surgery was 5 days ago. I took off work for several days and my husband took off to take care of me and the kids. I was VERY nervous about the surgery and was worried about post op pain, blues, bad results, etc. I just didnt know what to expect. I went in at 7:30 am Friday morning where they made me change into a gown and they started my IV. I just kept thinking that I was crazy for doing this and I kept laughing about it. But I remembered my reasons for my decision and the support from my husband helped a lot. Once they took me back to the OR, I was given something in my IV and I was out. I woke up in the recovery room really sore and cold. My arms hurt more than anything else. Not sure why. The ride home was rough. We had an hour to drive I had left my pain meds at home. When I got home, I took 2 demerol and went to sleep. After waking up serveral hours later, I was surprised at how good I felt. Over the whole recovery process, that was the only time I have taken the demerol. I just havent needed it. Friday and Saturday I spent the day laying around and watching TV and sleeping. By Sunday, the soreness was letting up but my back was starting to really hurt from sleeping on my back every night. I was also really wanting a shower, but had been told by my PS not to shower or bathe. My husband washed my hair in the sink and helped me take a sponge bath. That helped me feel a lot better. I have had EXTREMELY oily skin on my face since the surgery. I was wiping my face with alcohol swabs it was so bad. It is still pretty oily.

My first post op appointment was yesterday and my PS took off my tape so I could really see the results. They look amazing but they are sitting VERY high up on my chest. I am hoping that they will drop quite a bit and fluff. They also look a little smaller than I thought they would look but I happy with the implant size. My PS said everything looked good and gave me the go ahead to take a shower. I still have to sleep on my back and I cannot wear a bra that will rub the incision site. I really dont need to wear a bra right now anyway so i bought some camisoles to wear until I get the green light to wear a bra.

I went back to work today, and it was some what difficult. Opening and closing doors and just normal activity really wore me out and made me sore. Even though its only been 5 days I;m ready to feel normal again. Its hard not to rush the recovery process. Anyway, my plan is to update weekly and to post pictures of my progress. Other peoples reviews on this site was so helpful to me in making my decision so I'm hoping by telling my story and I can help out someone else. :)