Consultation - Phase I

I had my consultation May 16th in Wellesley, MA. i had previously had a doctor online help me with photo editing to give me an idea of a realistic goal. The only problem i didnt know i had until i saw the surgeon that day, is that i didnt know exactly what i didnt like about my nose. I just knew i didnt like it, for one reason or another. The way i see it, its just too big for my face, to wide, too long, too pointy at the end. I thought i didnt like the way it expanded when i smiled. I just knew i wanted a change... the change ive been researching for 5+ years. I know what i do like about others peoples noses, but its way harder to pinpoint your own self!

So in the appointment, the first thing the surgeon said when he walks in was ,"What are you doing here, your nose is fine". Which honestly gave me a confidence boost, but also caught me off guard. He asked me what i didnt like about my nose, and as i stated previously, i gave him a million reasons and he kind of just laughed it off. He was open and honest about what he was willing, and was not willing to do. He told me the honest truth.. That anything he does will not change the width when i smile. He will not adjust the nostrils unless it was to even them out. He would do a hump reduction, as well as tip refinement. He did not do a mock of up his own, but did show me similar- ish noses that he has done which was helpful.

I left the appointment, still eager, but a little more apprehensive about if i should proceed. The next few days, i sat in front of the mirror a whole bunch. Took a million pictures from the most horrendous angles. Looked at myself and reflected.

What i appreciate the most, was him telling me what he will not change, because that helped me to self reflect. Do i even mind the width of my nose? is that really what i dont like? Turns out after two weeks of looking at myself, its not! That is a piece of who i am. That is my smile.

His reasoning is he didnt want to do any drastic changes. At first i thought for the money i should be able to. but how would i even feel if i completely didnt recognize myself? i can imagine a state of shock.

So after considering what our goals were, that is to adjust the hump, refine the tip, and a slight deprojection, i called his office to schedule. One month later, i am one week away.
His coordinator was amazing. The first few days after initially asking to book, i was a little confused at the 'what comes next', so i called back to make sure she was on it (which she was). She explained she was just getting a few dates that the hospital has available. a few short and anxious days later, i got a call, confirmed a date that worked for us, and she gave me the low down. Since i have been trying to avoid thinking about it (as if) because when i do i get butterflies. The few times i overthought it and tried to talk myself out, i took a picture of myself and was reminded that this IS something that would give me hella confidence. 
His admin is a rockstar. She got me on the books, sent me my breakdown for the costs and literally did not short of hype me up, which is exactly what i needed. Never used the words i felt, like nervous, or anxious, but all positive, upbeat words & tone. (Thanks Kate!) 
So now im down to one week out... I made a list of common supplies all the youtube videos encouraged, and checked it twice. Now its just a matter of getting the house in order & readying myself! five days to go!