Wanted original bulbous nose but a bit smaller and natural

You guys deserve an update… the nose has come down to a perfect degree, I’d say the swelling has let up about 98%, the tip isn’t pointy as it was before, it’s definitely got more definition to it now but still very much Africanoid coded, it’s impossible to press down on the tip ( but I don’t mind it’s a small price to pay for my designer nose), I get compliments on my nose from people of all backgrounds, to be honest sometimes it makes me feel like ”they know I had work done” but I bought it so it’s my nose! overall I’M IN LOVEEEE & the experience was absolutely anxiety triggering but it was all worth it… I’d do it again!!! I’m so proud of myself for doing me this favor… ladies/fellas please book that surgery, it’s a risk, be sure to take as much time as you need to think it through, find your surgeon & buy you some hair, some tatas, some cheeks or a new nose… ???? I’m so happy with my results (so far, hopefully forever more.)

I was going to wait til 18 months to post this update but I couldn’t wait anymore. I had to get it off my chest.
The tip of my nose is still stiff & hard, still a bit upturned & pointy in a way that it’s obvious I’d gotten a nose job to my family. I had gotten this nose job in secrecy & figured they wouldn’t be able to tell since I hadn’t seen them in a while… comes thanksgiving & my heart sunk when my whole family pointed out that my nose is different. “It’s so pointy?” they asked. I came up with all types of excuses for that. I don’t know if they bought it. ????

I was really hoping this nose job would be more conservative but I guess it’s not conservative enough. I’ve dissociated from reality & hope there’s still a chance my nose will drop a bit in the next 6-9 months of healing… if it could drop even just a little bit I’ll take it. I just did not want to keep these thoughts to myself any longer…