Mixto SX Laser Horrible Results

I am feeling alone and don't want to face the world. What a disaster this laser procedure has been. I have put my life on hold as I struggle to find a cure to this HORRIBLE BOUT OF ACNE that has taken over my face. I don't know this skin! My skin is incredibly oily and new painful zits appear to errupt daily. I have been on antibiotics (Doxycycline) and androgen blockers (Spirolactone) for the oiliness for one month now but have yet to see any improvements with the acne/oiliness. I am losing hope that my face will ever display any benefits of this laser--let alone recover from the damage the procedure has done to my skin. People stare with winces at my bumpy, scarred skin that looks to be streaked with dirt from the melasma spreading. I stay locked away in my condo--avoiding friends and outings and even hiding from my own family. The experience has been a terrible blow and pardon me for seeming so petty--but I literally cry so many times a day just thinking about what I lost: my life! It's sad to think that I only went through with this laser to feel more confident about having the wedding of my dreams. I wanted to feel pretty and now I am anything but. I SHOULD HAVE BEEN WARNED THAT THE LASER COULD CAUSE BREAKOUTS AND SCARRING! I should never even been accepted due to the melasma I had and the fact that it could worsen. What I am facing is absolutely traumatizing. I rely on Xanax just so I could leave the house because I am extremely self-conscious and make-up can't hide it. Feeling so desperate. When does it get better?

It's been one month since my last review and almost 2 months since my Mixto procedure--- I still regret having it everyday. My face literally breaks out in painful acne every single day and it's ALL OVER my face--even in places I never used to break out. Some nights I can't even sleep because the cysts on my chin hurt so bad. I have not noticed positive results yet. Also, the melasma has gone crazy! It looks like I have irregular streaks of dirt smeared all over my face. I got Microdermabrasion 2 days ago hoping it would even out the texture and unclog the pores that were muddled with peeled skin...but it didn't help much. The esthetician had to do a lot of extractions which is basically just popping all of the new zits with gloves on. I asked for something to help the acne and I was prescribed an antibiotic. Hope it woks wonders. I am depressed that I even have to deal with acne again and relayed how much it has "sucked" since having the mixto. Her reply: "oh well, I guess you are just one of the unlucky ones--Sometimes the laser can bring on acne." Thanks for telling me NOW. :(

Still breaking out like crazy...skin texture feels like sandpaper and still hurts & both eye areas are still painfully tender.
Worse--the melasma that bothered me--and was initially whited out by the laser is now back with a vengeance. My face is a MESS!!! I don't want to leave the house anymore...this is so depressing.