40 w/ 2 Kids via c-section = Mommy Makeover Time: TT, BL and BA Raleigh, NC

Today the pain and swelling was finally at a minimum. I actually felt rather normal. I stopped taking pain pills after 24 hours and it seems it took that long to not feel irritated and angry at the world.

The steri tape has begun to each a bit and I hope an I go for my 1 week post op they give me fresh tape. I tried on several outfits today that finally looked normal instead of like I was going to bust a seam or a nipple.

I think this is finally the right decision for my body and mind.

I am 48 hours out from my explant and mastopexy. I took drugs for 24 hours and then stopped so I could actually be awake for a evening out with friends.

I am way smaller and tried on a button up top that I had to buy bigger in order to close and now it buttons perfectly with no pulling or fear of wardrobe malfunction. And this is with malt swelling...so it will only get better!

I am a bit sad at losing what was such a huge part of my life. I mean when you have huge breast from the teen years to your 40's, it's a big part of ones life. But I am have come to the realization that I still have a whole other half of life to live and can no longer let my breast get the best of me.

I am thankful for a wonderful doctor who has listened to me for the last two years and was able to work with me. I am probably not the best patient they have ever had but I will always give my honest opinion and be happy to recommend this practice.

So last year I had an update to me breast lift/reduction, along with a bbl. The BBL has healed nicely and I am in love with my booty and still surprised when it sometimes gets in the way of some of my old clothing. Not in a bad way...just a new way.

But my breast...while they look fine, they are still way to bog for my liking. So today I had a visit with my doctor and after looking over my healing from a small area lipo revision, we discussed my breast options. Basically my options are a smaller implant or a total implant removal. Sadly, because I have such a massive amount of my own breast tissue, a smaller implant isn't going to do a thing for me besides give me some upper pole fullness. Which I can probably get from a good push up. But the clincher for me...was him having me weigh what would make me feel better 90% of the time. And the truth is, I want breast that are more proportioned to my waist and body. I want to fit into tops without having to tailor them. I do not want to put on two jog bras in order to hold them down to run. I don't want to look 10 pounds heavier than I am because of my breast.

I guess I needed to do this in order to realize I am more than my breast...and bigger IS NOT always better. I am scheduled to have my implants removed in July.