Ba March 18th Getting Excited It's Really Happening

I am starting to sleep a little better some of the pressure on my back has subsided. Thanks to the help from my boyfriend rubbing it every night and every morning. I can lay slightly on my side not for to long though. I get sore when I use my arms to much. I feel like they have begun to move a little. The upper breast is a little softer. I have started getting a slight rash under my right breast near the incision. I put a little cortisone cream on it. It's so itchy. I go back to my ps. on Thursday to get my stiches out. When I saw him at my one week post he made me very upset when I expressed my dislike for my breasts as of that point. He began to insult me by saying " do you remember what your breasts looked like when you came to me" he also said " your breasts were horrible". I didn't know how to react cause I have rely on him for the next year to get me through this. So I will probably wait till Thursday to talk to him about my rash unless it gets really bad. I went to the mall and tried on bra's I am a 36 dd I was so shocked since I feel I look pretty small. The circumference of my breasts is large but the distance coming out seems so small. I hope that changes. I've tried on some outfits and two bathing suits and I will say I loved how my breasts looked. I hope the shape gets better, that's going to take time. Until next time. Happy healing.

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It feels like it's been a month. I'm so bored, tired and unsure. I can't say it was worth it yet. I don't like how my breast look right now but I know it's not the end result so I just don't look at them. They feel really strange. Touching them makes my stomach bubble. I have had alot of burning on them. I read that's a good thing though. I really thought I would do so much better than I'm doing. I'm nervous about returning to work tomorrow. ( light duty ) I have no energy. The good thing is I don't have to wear a bra or strap or anything. I've noticed they have softened a little on the top. I've been feeling pretty down and out. Anyone have that part. I want to be happy this is what I wanted my whole life.