32 Year Old Mother of Five. Im Not Looking for Perfection I Just Want to Be Comfortable in my Own Skin. - Princeton, NJ

I was definitely NOT botched by my PS but I truly need a BA revision. My MM experience has been more of an emotional experience then physical. Physically I've healed from my surgery without any complications and for that I'm extremely thankful but to come to this place where I'm unhappy with something that wasn't even the main thing I was unhappy with in the beginning and knowing the only way I can fix what's wrong is by going under the knife again and paying more money has me stressed out. My biggest insecurity was my stomach having the extra stretched marked skin and I wanted it gone!! Second on list was my extremely deflated boobs they looked like to small elbows however it was something I could have lived with. I remember Dr. Adam asking me the order of what I wanted to change the most. My stomach was #1 and my breast were #2. Aside from the stretch marks left on my stomach and hips I'm very happy with my tummy tuck. My TT scar is a little on the darker side but I know it has a combination to do with my dark skin and will lighten up more over the next year. One itty bitty thing I don't like about my TT is the little budge skin on the right side but I'm hoping over time of working out that will flatten up more. Now my breast implant I love them but have more hate for them. In clothes my chest area is full. I went from barely an A to a very full C cup. My implants are saline under the breast I'm going to say high profile but I'm not sure on the profile. (Will confirm) Coming to my PS I wasn't very educated on what how and why when it came to the BA. My PS originally suggested I get saline over the muscle during our first consultation but at my pre-op appt. I changed my mind and decided on silicone and to have the implant placed under the muscle. During my pre-op appt. I felt completely rushed. Some may say it was a sign but I tried to stay positive in-spite of the fear I felt that day. I tried to be understanding and said I came on a very busy day and put all my trust in my PS. My biggest advice to myself for next time would be don't leave until I feel comfortable and feel all my questions have been answered. Moving on to surgery day my PS had brought the wrong implants and after he looked through his paperwork he then had to have someone bring the correct implants. The size of the implant was a few CC's more then I wanted but not more that it would make a huge difference. This made me so nervous before my surgery it made me think that the PS did not review my case before the surgery and that he didn't care enough to get it right. I really wanted the surgery, I had taken the days off, I paid everything so no matter how fearful I felt there was no going back. I was extremely happy that I woke up from surgery and to be honest the pain was bearable and my healing was exactly like the books. I thank God I had no infections, swelling wasn't crazy (I still swell now), I can feel little by little feeling returning new my incision and belly button. After a month I started to notice my left implant was dropping very low creating a bubble looking increase. My left nipple is pointing north and it looks like I have two completely different breast they both have two completely different shapes in every aspect. My scars under my breast are also very large and lumpy not like my tummy tuck incision. I started wondering if during my procedure if my PS rush my breast and didn't give it as much attention as my TT. You know you start thinking all times of things. During my second post appt. I addressed my implant bottoming out.At this time he mentioned that the cut on the fold was made bigger on my left breast. He wanted the implant to drop evenly with my right breast since my left breast stood a little higher and was a bit smaller to begin with and if you look at my pre-op pic my PS is definitely correct but maybe he made the cut too big. I also dont like how my implants become deformed whenever I put strain on my arms. My last complaint is how my right implant feels like half of it is in my armpit. I told my PS I would need a revision but his response was let's see how things look when I come back for my next appt which is June 22th . I'm hoping during this appt I can really sit and discuss all of my concerns with my PS. My biggest fear is that I have the revision done by my current PS and it comes out messed up again. I really want to believe that he can fix my BA but also that he cares. I don't like feeling like just another patient. My BA was done for my husband and I to enjoy. Having my BA done was a really important thing for me and now I don't even want my husband to see my naked again back to my insecure ways. So I'm hoping to have some light shed next month. Pleas share your input on how bad you think my implant looks or if you've had a similar experience I would love to hear it. Thank you everyone for reading my super long post. At the end of the day being healthy is the most important

At work I go in the bathroom to massage the girls. I'm starting to wonder if anyone notices how long I'm in here for LOL. I feel like the massages have really been helping, my right breast has been slower than the left one in dropping but I'm starting to see some progress which is making me really happy. I've been secretly worried I would have uneven breast which happens but I would want it to be as unnoticeable as possible.

I hope everyone else is healing well and having a great day :)

I hope you ladies don't mind me venting on here. I can't really vent any where else. My marriage is struggling so bad. I've been married 11 years together 12 its been rocky from the beginning. There has been multiple betrayal even some abuse in the past but as many times as we've separated we've always got back together. I'm certain it's been because of the kids still being so young and you know you want to do what's best to keep your family together. I'm just so tired and I feel so trapped. He's a good father but the trust in our relationship has been severely damaged and I just don't see how it can be repaired. I hope everyone is having a better evening then me. I'm sure my night could be worse o just feel so down and discouraged. Life is not easy.