10 weeks out and tummy is bigger than ever :(

Sigh. Things were going so well until the doctor told me that I could start exercising normally again. Well, I did just that and blew up like a balloon!! So back to modified exercise - Zumba ok, walking moderately ok, pilates out (too hard on the core). So back with the infamous binder and ibuprofen. Hopefully that will help!

I just need to vent a little today. Last week, my PS gave me the ok to walk gently up to a max of 3 miles per day, which I have been doing. He also suggested that once I lose my last 15 pounds or so, my MM will really look great. So I've been eating well and walking everyday. The only thing that I could really do better in is my water intake. I love drinking water, but I get pissed (pun intended) when I have to pee every half hour and go through a roll of toilet paper every other day!! Aaaarrrggghhh! Between the water and the walking, my tummy swells up like a balloon. I'm still wearing my binder most of the time, even when I walk. I think it's become like Linus' security blanket. So this morning, after my walk, I look at my stomach and I just want to scream. II felt like a model for Modern Maternity. I think what set me off was when I was putting the binder back on, and one of the velcro wraps just popped back off like it was saying, "You gotta be kidding me, sister!! You expect me to hold all that?"

So I had my first sobbing attack. There were days that I was a little down (like most of us have all had). I didn't even sob this hard when my boob was neon pink. Maybe I had a delayed depression reaction or something, but boy, could I use a prozac, xanax, or something. Maybe a nice pinot noir will help tonight. I sure hope so because I don't like feeling this way. It makes me feel like a whiny little weakling.

Ok, thank you for letting me get that out. Whew! Ok. Back to some laundry and making dinner for my boys. Talk to you all soon!!

Yay! Almost 6 weeks to the day, I got the ok to let the CG go and can start increasing walk time and mileage! Whoo hoo! My CG is still my friend, though, especially during the times swell hell rears its ugly head. I will have to have a minor revision on the left "girl", though. Although almost all of the pigment has returned (about 98%), there is an open area that just won't close. It is still healing and has some fatty deposits in it. Once that clears up, my PS will surgically close it. A good ending, especially saying goodbye to the neon pink areas!

I've attached a few new photos. I know that I don't look completely flat (I still swell a lot), I have a little more weight to lose, and I don't have a waistline (never really have), but I know that the difference is tremendous. When you can go from a 16 pants down to a 10 or 12, there is no way I can complain. Plus my PS says that I won't see closer results until the 3 month mark and that it could take up to a year to see final results, but changes will be seen week by week.

Hope all of you on the flat side are doing well and best wishes to those coming up!!