I Don't Know if I Can Wait!

My story is similar to the others in this forum. I developed early and hated the attention from boys and men from the start. I was thin into my mid-20s, but my breasts kept growing. Now, I'm in my early 30s and ready to finally have the small boobies I never had.

I'm 5'3" and weigh 125. I wearing bras that are 28G or 28H and am looking forward to never buying one of them again! I had a consultation with a PS and plan to see two more. The surgeon measured me as a 32G but he used an old-fashioned way to come to that size. He measured my rib cage a 27, then added 4 and went up to the nearest bra band size. I've read that that was the way bra manufacturer used to suggest sizing women but now recommend using the actual rib cage measurement. Anyhow, he still said I was a DDDD (or G) cup and said he would do a traditional inverted T reduction on me. He estimated a minimum 500cc removal from each breast with more on one to correct asymmetry. My breasts have been so big for so long that I didn't even know they were asymmetrical.

I liked the first surgeon - he has a good reputation in the area, and I felt comfortable with him but his support staff was disorganized and seemed a little flaky. They all had lots of work done though with my PS and were happy with their results so there is that. I'm going to consult with two other surgeons to see who I like most. I'm hoping I'll be approved by my insurance company, Aetna, for the procedure but will pay out of pocket for it if I must.

Anyhow, I'm excited. I have told a couple of close friends, my mother, my sisters, and of course, my live-in boyfriend. I anticipated hearing some criticism or having people try to talk me out of it, but everyone that knows (all 8 people) say they think it's a great idea. Now I know it's not in my head - that I'm not just being vain or overly critical of my body!

I'm hoping that my rounded shoulders will improve after surgery. Does anybody have any experience? Can't wait for your suggestions.

I'm not buying any more clothes (or bras) until after the surgery. I have so many shirts and dresses that are ill-fitting and that I don't wear because I hate how they look. It'll be like getting a new wardrobe. Luckily, it's already cold up here so I can wear layers as always and the change won't be so obvious when I return to work post-op.

What do you do with your old bras after surgery? I hate to throw them all away especially considering how much many was paid for them.

I went to another PS since I want to make sure I'm really comfortable with whomever I choose. This appointment was much better, the staff was very organized, and I like everything about the facility and doctor. It's a practice with 9 plastic surgeons and has a on-site surgery center. I initially wanted to consult with the only female surgeon but would have had to wait until the end of December to see her. At this point, I want to get things moving and don't want to wait anymore!

The PS I did see was very thorough, described in detail pre- and post-op procedures and even took more measurements than the first PS I saw. He showed me a book of some of his prior patients that included patients of all varying breast size and weights so was able to see his work on all types of bodies. There were a few that looked like they were near my size and the results were very nice. He told me surgery is out-patient, and he uses drains that are removed 24 hours after the procedure.

He took careful notes and documented thoroughly my back pain, headaches, shoulder grooves, etc. and will include the photos that were taken in the submittal to Aetna. The first PS I saw was surprised when I asked that they take photos of my shoulder grooves to include in the information for the insurance company which made me think they probably didn't have much success with getting cases approved. Anyhow, I have to wait another 3-4 weeks before getting an approval or denial from Aetna. I'm going to have it done either way but am really hoping it will be covered. I'm still hoping for mid-January since it's the perfect time to hibernate for a month in New England. I won't even have to feel guilty about not exercising post-op!

I was looking through some photos of me, and although I try to hide them, my boobs just look enormous in anything I wear. It's so frustrating wearing stuff that's frumpy just so I'm not drawing more attention to my chest. Blerg.