38-Year-Old Mom of 2... Full Mommy Makeover - Pleasanton, CA

Quick update tonight... I remembered a member saying "everyone just drops off... Lol, should we be concerned?" Haha, I guess I just want to make sure to check in... Tomorrow is 10 weeks! I don't wear my binder anymore, I stopped 3 days ago, things seem pretty much healing up. My core is really weak, my biggest concern is getting back to Crossfit. I know that many people think it's dangerous, but in reality I am pretty comfortable modifying my workout... I just am going to have to take it slowly and make sure to listen to my body... Really, getting back to an exercise routine is the last piece that needs to happen before I feel "recovered". I thought it was going to be easy, that my fitness level would buffer recovery, and I am sure it has! BUT the road back to fitness is going to take a while, and it's no joke...
For those considering getting this done... It really is a lot to consider... You have to realize that muscle repair is going to challenge you in ways you never expected. My abs still feel funny, the feel right but weak... And that is weird for sure!

I finally feel like ive turned the corner. I have energy, there's no pain. I am not exercising or pushing it, but I can finally feel there's been change, and stability.
My belly button has a Spitting Stitch... Which I guess is my body trying to decide whether to desolve or push out a suture. It happened right after the belly button incident above... A round fluid filled bubble... I watched it for some time, then went in and had it drained. Its sort of just hanging out now... Still there, but much less bubbled. I guess it could stay that way for another month, it doesn't hurt, never really did...
That was the most interesting development in the last week... My boobs are sofenting, scars are healing, pain is dissipating...
Still wearing my binder for a lot of the day. I sleep without it on, that's about all I want to try at this point :) maybe in a week I'll get some spanx... Who knew I would have problems with giving this binder up!!

Sucked. Plain and simple.
I'm still not sure what happened... All of a sudden it was like I was back on day 6. I couldn't sleep with all the pain, I couldn't lay on my side...
I have a couple of hypotheses. The first being the Monday I totally overdid it... And although I wasn't swollen I just burnt my body out and it took a lot of time to recover.
But also, I am beginning to get back feeling in my lower belly, below my belly button. At first I would have sworn that the ab repair was all above the belly button, like the tightest corset binding the upper abs together... Well on Day 22 it was super clear that the binding went all the way to the lower abs, they were intense... But the upper part that previously caused me pain was chill at that point. My lower tummy is also starting to itch off and on so I sort of think that it's been feeling this way for a while but I couldn't feel it.... And now that it's come "online" I had to get used to what cinched lower abs feel like too...
Uhhh... I really freaked out last week... I think what is hard is dreading any thought of a set back. The littlest thing can just get your mind racing...
And then being back to intense pain and discomfort really was unsettling. I questioned all my symptoms, I was hypervigilent about everything. And it's hard to know when to freak out and when to relax. I did some "prescribing the symptoms" where I was relaxed and I asked myself "how much can I freak out now..." Don't do it when you are freaking out, just when you are calm... It draws attention to how much you actually control your feelings and emotions. Other than that I just sort of had to ride through it.
Today has been better. I am completely pain free! I am swollen, but it's not painful. I have this scab by my belly button that looks painful but I think is fine...
Monday's are "Mama Mondays" where I have the kids all day (I work the other four). I've done them, but today I've been way more careful about them... Trying to cut the activities to a minimum, will see how this goes after today.
Also, the doctor says I can start wearing my binders for only 12 hours, which is freaking me out. Those binders are like my shell to the outside world. I'm not sure if I will do that this week... Maybe.