Mom of 5 kids, time to lift and tuck!

I know breasts aren't perfectly identical, but my areolas are significantly different sizes and shapes. It's been a rocky recovery and I can't help but feel so defeated and stupid for even going through with these procedures. My incisions have all spit multiple sutures. I just have a suture pulled from my areola last week so now there is a hole that will scar there on to of the typical lift scars. My TT incision is just finally closing and I'm at 6 weeks. I spit sutures underneath each breast too and those are closing as well. Praying I don't have any more sutures or staples come to the surface. Also worried that even if I were to do a scar revision in a year...:what kind of suture will my body even tolerate?? I'm easy going. I don't expect perfection. I'm ok with a gnarly tummy tuck scar, I'm even ok with breast lift scars, but I'm super bummed about my areolas.

Tonight my husband changed the dressings on tummy tuck and I then asked him to help me change the tape on my breasts.

I took a Norco about an hour before we stared and I think that helped with the pain. Changing the gauze wasn't as bad as it was the first few times.

When we started pulling off tape my husband noticed the puss in the incision under my breast. I'm trying to stay strong mentally, but there's a part of me that just wants to go to sleep and wake up in 6 weeks when (I hope) I'm all healed.

I go back to see my Plastic Surgeon's nurses Friday and I assume they will take a look at my breasts and see if they can pull any spitting sutures from that area along with my tummy. I know I will be fine when this is all over, but my body has decided to just make me anxious and panic. I'm experiencing tachycardia all day long and it's draining my energy.

Regardless of all of this, I'm thin. I'm tiny! I have a waist that I've never had! So I thank Dr. Harris for that! I'm just super annoyed with my body and its wonky way of healing. Can't wait until it's all over my sutures have all dissolved!!!

Y'all, packing the holes in my TT incision is crazy! I am so thankful my husband will do it, because I can't even watch. I'm admittedly very queasy when it comes to any blood or wound....so this is not surprising at all. I couldn't even pack my belly button for a week because I was so grossed out. So imagine my horror when my incision started opening. As my sweet husband started pulling that gauze out....I thought I was going to faint. I was like a kid being dragged into the doctor's office for a shot. I was suddenly 6 years old again and telling my husband of 14 years that I just can't do it. You can laugh, because I'm laughing at myself too. I'm laying on my bed and my husband brings a pillow and places it towards my face and i say, mid-sobs, "are you going to suffocate me?!" Hahaha! Obviously he was not, although I wouldn't blame him because I was acting silly. The pillow blocked my view and gave me something to squeeze! We finally got my dressings all changed and I was able to stop blubbering and talking crazy!! My wounds are actually nice and red without that yucky pus. This means the wet dressings are really helping me heal. I believe it's called granulating tissue formation!! The spitting sutures sucks, but aside from that I am SO thrilled with my new body. I don't even care if my incision scar is a little wide or wonky. Even as my husband cares for my wounds he just keeps staring at my stomach telling me how tiny I am. How thin I look. How flat my stomach is! He's correct! I know at 3 weeks post op I'm still swollen but I can't imagine getting any smaller! I think I will disappear! And my breasts? I couldn't be happier. They're gorgeous. Exactly what I wanted and just keep getting better. Can't wait for dressing changes tomorrow morning! Not! ????