I Want my Life Back -Plainfield, IL

All my life I have not been able to do things that other people have been able to do becuse of my large breasts. IN school they had to take me out of gym becasue of them. At the age of 14 my right was twice as big as the left which caused concern. I was often called Doly parton. Over the years I have struggled with self esteam problems so bad that when i was younger i restorted to eatiing disorders and self injury. Now over the last ten years this burden has given me constiant pain. bulging discs in my neck and back. Pain all the time. Unable to horseback ride anymore wear certian clothing live a normal life. I have been wanting a reduction for over ten years but am so scared that i have not had it done. I finally got private health insurance. went to a few doctors over the last few months. All told me it medically needed to be done. Even after loosing 30 pounds. I was at 250 i am now at 218 after three months. I got all my dr notes together in a week and a half and it was submited and the insurance company accepted it right away. The doctors office called to tell me that it was the fastest they ever saw it go through and they were shocked that i had it approved first time around. Of course I had my Chiros lettter my massage therapist my pain specilast and my original doctors note. This all helped alot. What scared me even more is that they said they may have to skin graft the nipples. Totally remove them. They have not had to do that in along time. Which makes me more nervous. At my apt on Friday she said she is going to try to avoid that which helps. Then on top of that they said that i can not get a pain pump. Since I have been on Norcos narcotics for so long my body is use to them so they do not work the way they should. They said if i went to the other hospital i would get the pain pump and a free bra i said ok but that apt was taken as we spoke. I could not wait till Jan because then my new policy went into affect and I have already met my deductible. They told me I can pay for the pain pump it will be 250 but i do not have 250 I barley had the 6 dollars for the medication they are giving me for the surgery. I was so thankful thats all it was for the five prescriptions. Since this whole new obama thing my scrips have gone from 20 dollars to 40 cents each. To top everything off they said I needed clearence from my dr. To be put under which scares me. So i said ok. So I went in. They said nothing about blood work. So they did blood work. They did a cbc which i just had done six months ago and it was fine and a bmb. then they wanted to do a ekg and I said no it was just done two months ago when we started the diet pills. They wanted me to hang around a hour till the other drs office opend to ask them if i nedded it. I told them it was not on the script i doubted i needed one. If I did i would come back and get 0ne. Tured out the nurse did not come in till 12 and they saw no reason for me to need one. Then they said that they were worried because my fasting glucose level was high.. I told them that i did not FAST because i was not told do. I was told to do anything so had a starbucks coffee on the way in and a brownie as comfort food because i got my period early becasue they made me stop taking my birth control. SO they want me to do a lab test that will cost me 150 to check my sugar count . My insurance does not cover blood work and will not this next go around. so I said no. In six months we can do another full cbc and see where we are and I will fast for that one. so All tests came back normal so I am cleared for surgery the day afte Christmas. talk about nerve racking. I am working all the way up to the morning of. I have no money saved up i am basicaly self employed and if my boss finds out what is really going on i know she will replace me. So I asked for a week off when I think i will need to. See I am a pet sitter /trainer and a nanny on the side. Since i was not planning this for months... i had nothign saved up. I also have not been really able to work due to my injuries. I also have a torn labrum in my right shoulder from a petsmart accident. they ended up settling and I basically got nothing when i should have gotten 50 thousand. My case went on for three years and I just got tired of the pain and closed it. I have had surgery in the past .I was seven first day of first grade and my finger got slammed in the bathroom door i almost lost it. I rember waking up during surgery and then being very sick and throwing up after. my sisters been the same way to... So I dont know if its normal to be this nervous and scared... and not to know what to expect after.. so I really could use some help and support. I already have high anxiety and its already now higher with everything else going on. Im sorry for my ramble... Melissa

I am starting to get nervous. Who am i kidding. I have been nervous from the start. I have been wanting this for years yet this is happening all very fast. I went from thinking it would be a few months to less than a week and we are going. The good thing is i did stop taking my phentermine two weeks before. I also have been allowing myself comfort food. I went off my diet. I cleaned my whole room the other day which with my back injury was not the best idea but i wanted to make sure everything was ready. I want to make things as easy as possible. I already picked up my medications and found out that I will be able to get a pain pump. No idea how i pulled that one off. Put the manager agreed to bill my insurance and if its denied we will have my pain spec send in a letter. Worst comes to worst i have to pay 250 out of pocket. Im still worried about taking time off of work but i need to worry about getting better. I got many herbs to boost my immune system and have arnica. I have been using herbal supplements for about a year now. They have helped me out alot. I also got my therapy massage and will some how be getting it the week after as well. My back injury and neck injury will still take a few weeks to heal and since my body will be on guard we need to be careful. Tom I have to be there at 9:45 my surgery is at 11:15. I will be working all the way up to 9:15 I have three petsits to do. Good to stay busy but not being able to eat drink will be hard. They are also going to give me a patch so i dont get sick. Main concern still is going under but as i have herd they make you feel very very safe. I have already stocked up on jello and instant carnation drinks and oatmeal to make sure i eat. I will not have my one day care dog since she jumps on me and my family will watch the husky. I know I will feel better but im still scared. Im not sure if i should add a before pic of what my breasts look like or not? So yup its Christmas day and this is i think going to be the best present.

Everyone was great at the center. it did take time to get me back because there were so many people there. then they wanted a urine sample. Not eating or drinking for over 12 hours ect it was kinda hard to do so.. lol. then they put me on fluids. The dr came in and marked me along with the anist which was very nice. Before i knew it was being taken to the room for surgery. They talked me through everything witch really helped out alot. Ms sullivan the anisti was so nice. I was looking for her when i got in the room. Being put on the table was hard and them starting to strap me down because im claustrophobic and then them putting the mask on my face. I remember looking at ms sullivan as she told me she was putting the sleeping stuff in my iv. That was the last thing i rememberd was looking at her. Then I woke up to them telling me to to relax i guess i was freaking out and to put my arms over my chest. I was in so much pain they gave me something through the iv. Then right away i had to go the bathroom. Unfourtunally i had already wet myself a bit embarrasing... I had to use a bed pan at first. Then they took me to recovery and carl my fiancee was able to come in right away. I did not see the dr after surgery but he did tell me no skin graft was needed which explained why my nipples hurt so bad. I was also under alot less then they expected maybe a hour and a half instead of four. So then they gave me something to drink and eat so i could take a pain pill. Then they showed us how to drain the pups very easy. I was still in a bit of pain. So glad they gave me the pain pump. I got up to go to the bathroom a few times. the ride home was the worst all the bumps everything hurt. I only got two hours of sleep could not sleep well. You also can not sleep all th way on your back. I do notice a diffrence already but cant wait till my post opt visit. was supposed to be tom but since i have the pain pump it will be monday. I now have my mind set on letting people help me. Drinking lot of fluids and watching all 7 seasons of burn notice if i stay awake