Breast Reduction 19 Years Old. Lets Do This! - Phoenix, AZ
Hey there! I am scheduled to get a breast...
hey there! I am scheduled to get a breast reduction on december 15th, 2011. only four more days! AH!
So to start off.. I've never really liked boobs to begin with. Back when I was 15 I had B's and would constantly wear sports bras to squish them down. dont ask me why... im just weird I guess haha. then 16 came around and I grew C's. I didnt totallly mind them because I could still push them down, plus not gonna lie at times the attention wasnt half bad. BUT THENNN. Then they grew to full C's, then grew to D's, and then grew to DD's in a span of a year and a half. Im 5'10, 130 pounds, and now currently wear a 32E. AH... my worst nightmare. All my friends think they're fine as they are and "blah blah this is what we all want dont just cut them off thats ridiculous youre crazy blah blahh." and all i can tell them is hey what is good for you.. doesnt necessarily mean that it is good for me. I feel gross walking around and they shake and bounce in all directions and guys stare and all i can think is "ew you dont know me! dont look at me like that!" haha but what can ya do..
I basically decided i would rather live my entire life with scars.. than with huge boobs that I never really wanted in the first place. Once all is said and done, Im hoping to be around a small C/ full B. With living in Arizona, I just want to be able to throw on a shirt or tank top, without feeling the need to throw on a jacket. Im sure you ladies get where im coming from. I feel top heavy, and boobs just really arent my style.
Yet at times I cant help to second guess.. maybe my friends are right.. maybe I shouldnt do this.. can I live with the scars? do I realllly want to have small boobs.. I mean big boobs are really all I've ever known. However I just think of alll the countless reasons why I want them to be much smaller. My back hurts ALL the time, they make me look bigger, I cant really get them any smaller by loosing weight because I already have a thin frame, I cant workout anymore, I feel uncomfortable, I hate wearing swimsuits, shopping isnt fun, my bras are incredible expensive, just ughhh. who wants that?!
I looked into getting a breast reduction when I was 18, however decided to wait a year just in case they grew bigger.. which, of course, they did. I saw two different doctors over the summer and decided the second one was gonna be my surgeon. All we had to do was wait for insurance... and then finally after two months of waiting, my insurance company decided to cover 80% of my surgery. YAY! Good enough for me!
So I've had my date set, and now I am just a nervous wreck waiting these last four days. The mere thought of surgery just scares me half to death. AHHH I mean.. someone is literally going to be cutting me open. What kinda crazy person would agree to that? hahaa.. I guess me!
Well anyways, that is pretty much my story in a nutshell!
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Well... only 6 more hours until i have to be at...
Soo I guess next time I post on here, ill have small boobs! so crazy. anyways, goodnight now :)
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Thank you so much for sharing your story here on RealSelf. Yeah, a lot of women would be envious of your proportions, but your perception of yourself and your comfort is what matters! I hope the surgery was a huge success! Please come back and let us know how it went!
Okay so today is day 2 post op. Thursday I was a...
Today is the day I get to shower though! Im SO nervous for this first look. Okay wish me luck! Oh gosh. Bye now :)
As for the having doubts about the scars stuff, i have watched a looooot of videos on youtube and read blogs and everything to pass the time and kind of get more prepared and there are definately more people whose scars faded amazingly than those that haven't. A lot of people recommended Gold Bond Ultimate Healing lotion because after a couple weeks you will have to massage them and rub them to get them to take shape and everything so you can use that lotion to help with not only the scarring but when your skin gets dry and irritated from all of the bandages.
Don't be worried about surgery! They do this seriously EVERY DAY. Think of the time you had to wait, thats cause your surgeon was doing other peoples! I'm sure that everything will turn out great! Also, since yours is so close, you may want to think about taking pictures or doing anything that you want to do if you may want to look back on them. Since you say that this is what you're used to and everything maybe if you have issues with them late you will be able to look back and see why you did it in the first place.
Good luck!
As far as being scared, your words are very helpful. Im seriously such a scardy-cat when it comes to blood and stitches and all that. I mean you're right, doctors definitely do this every day, thanks for your reassurance! I have taken pictures actually! haha I am so SO excited to see the difference. My main hope is that I dont look in mirror for the first time and think "wow I look like frankenstein." But then again, they will be sooo much smaller, so YAY
I agree with you about the stitches and stuff but i think that the best thing you can do is go into it with an open mind and dont focus too much on the temporary things. Just be focused on how amazing you will feel after its all said and done!
Im so thankful for this site and i love that were in the same situation! I hope you come on here and update how you're doing. Ill keep you in my thoughts. :)