My Mommy Makeover Journey -Phoenix, AZ

Here is my story: 9 years ago I had a baby boy, 10lbs 4oz. I had him at home ( yes, on purpose ;)
Anyhow, to make a long story short...I was gigantic with the pregnancy. I gained about 90lbs. I was very lazy during my pregnancy. I hardly ever exercised and I ate fast food daily. So it's to be expected that I would gain so much weight. I look back and I wished I had been more ambitious as I am now about health and fitness. Ya' live and ya' learn I suppose. So after having my huge baby boy, I lost all the weight with proper diet and a fitness routine. I had a baby girl 3 years later. Much healthier pregnancy. 8lbs, 13 oz. (drug free birth, yeah I'm proud) I only gained 25lbs that time around :) So here I am today...with two amazing kids, and my body scarred with stretch marks, and an incredible amount of extra skin. (I breastfed both kids for about 13 months each) I finally made the decision about two years ago to diligently save up for the mommy makeover I had been yearning for. Once I had a substantial amount of money, I met with several plastic surgeons within the past 6months. I finally decided on Dr. Meger. Now, here I am with a surgery date for September 9th, 2013. I'm very anxious, not so much scared of pain etc. but just being put to sleep for the surgery. I've never had a surgery, and I've never had to take strong pain pills-so those things worry me. I hope that I will be able to deal with the pain, and I hope that my results become the reality I've been dreaming of.

So I haven't really been on here for a while..and you think I would be on here like a man man since my surgery is so close, Sept. 9th!!!! My birthday just passed, yep the big 31 ;) I spent like two weeks preparing for my party. Mainly cleaning up the backyard, and preparing foods-drinks-games etc. It went well and I had a lot of fun. But now, since the party has been over I realize I need to get my act together and start preparing for a much more serious event, MY MOMMY MAKEOVER AHHHH! But I find myself waking up just to want to go back to sleep again. I feel tired, and overwhelmed, and I guess depressed. My hubby and I went and looked at model homes yesterday because we would like to start saving up for our dream home. Throughout the whole experience I was in love with many of the homes we saw, but it got me thinking of just how guilty and vain I feel about my Mommy Makeover. I have read other people's reviews saying almost the same exact words. I guess this must be just another natural emotion to have when it comes to spending money on ourselves. I was thinking this money I have saved and worked hard for could go towards this new house instead of a mommy makeover. I mentioned it to my hubby and said, "Maybe I should just wait it out and do it another time." But my hubby was so great to me. He basically told me, that If I do that then it will always be a ...well I'll just wait it out after this or that...and then I'll be 80 thinking dang it..why didn't I just get those knockers ;) I guess it comes down to priorities. And you know what? I realize I never put myself first for anything, pretty much ever. I'm always looking out for my children, my hubby, my family, my friends, even strangers. I'm sick of feeling ugly. I'm sick of feeling flabby. I'm sick of feeling like I'm not worth anything. This isn't normal. I know in my heart that I should do this. I know that this will help my confidence, even if it does seem a bit vain. I want to look as youthful as I feel. It reminds me of this quote I heard " The best changes often start as single, simple thoughts. Think big, and discover how to make your dreams real." and here it is, my dream of having a mommy makeover is becoming reality as of next month...and I made that happen. I thought about it...I created a plan. I tackled that plan and succeeded. And now..it's a matter of just waiting for the big day. And you what else? even if it sounds corny..this mommy makeover has driven me to want to go even further...and push myself more than I ever imagined. I hope it does the same for you, readers :) best wishes.

I was 230lbs and now I'm 135. I would realistically like to be about 125 before surgery..I will be posting some more without clothing tonight..but I want to use my hubby's camera cause mine doesn't focus well. Stay tuned ;)