28 Tummy Tuck and Breast Implants. - Phoenix, AZ

I didn't want to do this but I need support. I'm freaking out like crazy, reading all the horror stories. What if something goes terribly wrong. I know I'm ready, I've been wanting this since after my son. I've researched and gone to multiple consultations. I'm ready but fearful of there being complications. I quit smoking and really cut back on drinking. I know I'm ready.

Today is the day i hand over $12,400 for new boobs and new stomach. Still freaking the hell out. My ps last consult, said I was in a gray area for the tt cause I don't have very much loose skin. Btw I've gained about 10 lbs and feel extra shitty. My double chin is in my way as I write this from my phone. Anywho, I can't believe I let myself gain this much weight. I've always been skinny, but skinny fat. Now I'm just fat. I seriously go to the gym 2 to 3 times per week. For about an hour. My eating hasn't changed, I actually think i eat way better than in my early 20's. Ugh my ass is huge!!!! Enough of my rant, I'm just freaking out. No courage yet to post pictures but I know I should considering I haven't seen someone like me on here. And my ps said my scar might end up a little higher. I'm going to ask him again if he's sure about that considering I'm fatter now. No, seriously. And to be honest I don't want my boobs to be a d. I want a full c. I work with conservative people and don't want to look like I'm leaving my job to join the girls at the strip club down the street. Ugh. I'll update you all later on the pre op appt. Bye.

Pre op started great. Then my doc gave me the bad news. The surgery center screwed up and i have to reschedule for the 25th. Ughhhg. I lose five days of healing. I can't take anymore time off from work. Anyways, got my antibiotics and pain pills prescription. I will be doing my blood work next week, which he's running a nicotine test. I let him know the truth that i don't want to die and have completely stopped smoking. Oh also, I lowered the amount of cc ' s to 421. I really don't want [RS bleep] boobs. He reassured me of my scar and stated that he would go as low as possible. He's confident that the scar will be hidden. He is also confident that my healing will be quick but he's not god so pffft what does he know, lol. Over all I feel much better about this whole thing. Now for the anesthesiologist I know his name but not his background which i will find out cause I'm crazy that way. Oh, no aspirin and I'm good on continuing my laser hair removal. And I think that's it.