Country girl ready for Hollywood shape

So my job here in DE is sending me back home to VA. The position i opted for here was a contract term but the company did not renew, thankfully i can get my old spot back in the office back home. field work was great here and i enjoyed my time in the area, made some friends and hanging in Philly, AC was a blast. But my relocating has put a hold on a few things. I was actually planning on taking some classes in Wilmington come fall. Well, I guess everything happens for a reason. Back to VA.... As for surgery, I will plan to reschedule for sometime next year when I'm able to take two weeks off. My bf will be happy I'm coming home. I'm not sad....it'll still happen.

Bloodwork came back fine, so I'm cleared, paid in full and scared as hellll! The reviews I read all say the first 3-4 days are awfully painful.

I'm confused about size. I don't want a huge ass, just some natural roundness, my main concern is my mid section. My waist and fat around my hip bones and lower back are what I need most. But I'm told if I tell the doc not to put a lot of fat in my bottom it will be flat and worse. What is a good amount of cc's for a natural behind?

My appt for bloodwork and physical are next week. My biggest fear is that the slightest warning comes back and I won't be able to have surgery. I want that shape badly but not at the cost of risking my life.

My boyfriend is still on a roller coaster. Supportive but then there are signs that jealously and insecurities will kick in. He's kinda possessive when it comes to low cut tops that show a lot of cleavage, always asking me to pull my tanks up or "cover up" but at the same time makes positive comments about "being bikini ready" for our trip in the fall.

I'm also having baby urges...like wanting to have a baby within a year or two. Unsure if this will be a waste if so. The girl in the dr. Office had a child after lipo and she bounced back beautifully.

I'm really all over the place. But if I get the green light from the lab work and physician I'm still going thru with it.

I guess this emotional roller coaster is normal when approaching any major change in life. *sigh*