38H to 38C~Surgery Date 5/30/12 Life Changing! ~Southwest Pennsylvania~

I am a 35 year old wife and mother of two great kids. I have had large breasts since puberty...I was a large C cup by the time I was 16 years old. After 2 pregnancies..and my weight going up and down through out the years my breasts are now at a 38E. I am 5'7, and am currently 200 lbs. Ive always been a "voluptuous" girl..I feel most comfortable at a size 12-14. Recently I really got on track about losing some weight. Started eating right, even joined the gym for the first time in my life. I fell in love with Zumba! It was only then that my breasts "were in the way". All these years I always said that I would much rather get a tummy tuck than a breast reduction. Then one day..my mind changed. I started doing some research on it, and found out that my insurance would possibly pay for it!

I think I'm starting to have the normal panic/nervous/excited feelings that everyone goes through prior to surgery. Will they be to small, will the scars be bad, will my nipples be even? But then I think about all the cute bras and shirts, and bathing suits I will finally be able to buy. Tube Tops, spaghetti strap dresses!! I could go on and on. Recently while looking at our recent vacation pictures, I couldn't help but realize how much "bigger" my boobs make me look. I'm not a tiny girl by any means...a size 14..but they make the top part of my body look at least 2-3 sizes larger than I am. Does this make sense? But then I also wonder...will my new set of boobs make my bottom half look larger? I know this is normal to have all these things swirling around in my head..right?

My mom, who lives in California will be coming to stay during my recovery. Im thankful for that. Iv'e explained to my kids (ages 13 and 10) what I'm doing..and they are both so scared for me. Bless their hearts! But my husband and I have both reassured them. They know how much happier Mom will be afterwards.

So, now the waiting game. My surgeons office told me to expect my packet in the mail within 2 weeks. Im also starting to compile a list of things I will need during my recovery. I plan to go back to work 11 days post op..hoping it will be enough time.

Doing lots and lots of research..I guess my correct "size" I currently am is a 38F. Yikes!