Had 3 Beautiful Babies, VSG in 3/2007 and Lost 92lbs, Been Wanting to Get Outta my Fat Suit Already for Years!! - Pasadena, CA

I know I will be pleased with my TT and BL Auto Augmentation results. Going in with an open mind that everything won't be perfect. But that this body will be better than it is today! It's time to take care of me! I have a SUPER SUPPORTIVE husband and I can't imagine being happier. This tummy has never seen the light of day. And I live in Hawaii!!!!

I had my pre-op appointment with my PCP. Everything went well. My doctor is super stoked at my numbers. I've always struggled to keep my B12, Iron and D levels up. But for some reason(hint hint), somehow(wink wink) I was able to buckle down on myself and keep myself on a strict regimen. Ummmmmmmm helllllllooooooooooo!! It's because there's a PRIZE at the end. A Mommy Makeover! She applauded me on my weight loss as well. I weighed in at 144.6 this morning.

Last night I found myself starting to cry in the shower. A heavy cocktail of mixed emotions came right through me. I even started a letter to my husband in case anything should go wrong. We met in 2010 and married in 2011 so we are still in the Honeymooners stage. In my letter I try my bestest to explain what it feels like to always be HEAVY. I was the token little fat kid. The youngest of 3 who got called names growing up. Comments about how pretty my face is from aunts and uncles as they tiptoe around the fact that I was a fatso. I was the pretty face in the family. After having my 3 children and dealing with thyroid issues and just SICK AND TIRED of trying every crappy diet out there, I sought out weight loss surgery. In 2007 I had the VSG done by Dr. Cirangle in San Fran when I was at my heaviest of 221 lbs. So although I weighed in at 144 today, I've got extra saggy skin issues. I don't need to explain that one here. LOL My explanation in my letter to hubby is not how I want to look perfect or be someone I am not but more of how I'm still on a journey of myself that I started before him and I ever even met. If in the quest of my journey I should happen to die(my biggest fear for this elective surgery), it was for myself. No, I don't feel selfish for wanting to do this. I absolutely NEED to do this. LOL

So we leave on a flight in 11 days to have my surgery done. We are flying from Hawaii to California. Surgery is in 13 days. I'm a________ wreck(please insert any special word in that space, my favorite has been one that starts with F)! I have never in my life have felt this many emotions running through me all at once. And I've been through ALOT in my life. Divorce, 3 natural childbirths, numerous tattoos and 3 other surgeries. I've never felt this CRAZY ASS OBSESSED before! Lining everything up for the kids(we will be away for 3 long weeks), the cat, the house, the bills, my two jobs, my husbands business, taxes, calling the credit card companies, holding our mail,,,,,,,,,so many things to do! Making sure I bring my supplies, order the electric recliner, the car rental. Not to mention this is something that I have wanted for 8 years. I've been to numerous consultations, wondered for so many years how I would even afford it, felt like I was being selfish for wanting to spend money on ME, something always came up. You gals know. The FAT COW BALL of emotions that are going through you in the few weeks leading up to your surgery date. Gulp! It's almost here!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I've also been fantasizing about finally getting some new clothes where I don't have to hid my spare tire/gut/roll...........I will finally be able to let my husband 'spoon' me without worrying that his arm and hand will graze my hanging flap of tummy. It's my 'icky' spot. I didn't even mention my BL! It's my tummy that bothers me the most.