Downsized from 450cc to 220cc and feeling like a normal human being again. 5'1 and @115lb

I am a bit nervous posting on her but reading other peoples stories, seeing pictures, it's been very helpful so I thought I would give it a try. I am 35, 5'1, 113 lbs, and currently unable to fill out my old 34 B's without it leaving a empty gap at the top. I have nursed 2 children, both for just over a year, and am now left with 2 deflated breasts. I have always wanted larger boobs but just couldn't get myself to do it. Worried about being judged, didn't feel bad about my breasts (before kids) and couldn't find enough reasons to just do it. Now, I'm done with having kids and tired of looking at my sad and non feminine flat chest. I had my first consultation a few weeks ago and loved the Doctor I met. I was there almost 2 hours and he answered all my questions and concerned, tried on sizes, and sent me home with lots of information to look at as well. I am still up and down on size...I am scheduled for 450cc moderate plus silicone gel implants right now...a little intimidated by the number but when they are on they seem to balance my body just fine. I don't want to look like I have enormous fake boobs though so I am going again a week before to resize once more just in case I should go down to 425cc. Worried about not being able to carry my little ones for a while after too...anyone have an experience with a 3 year old and how soon you were able to carry them?? Here are some before pics...can't wait and also a bit nervous for my new pics!

I had my last visit with the PS before my surgery and still undecided whether to go 425cc moderate plus silicone or 450cc. Not too much of a difference but I don't want that little bit to push me over the edge of looking too fake...but also don't want it to end up thinking I should of got that little extra...we will see. I can decide the day of so at least that's good. Trying to keep busy and hoping the days fly by before the 3rd!! Lots to do to get ready...maybe I'll even exercise! Hoping my kids will be ok if I'm out of commission for a few days.

I can't stop reading everyone's BA stories...every one is so different and it's interesting to hear about people going through the same thought process as myself. Just finished a little vacation so that was nice to make the says go by faster. 9 more days!! Lots to do with family, work, and getting stuff for me before next wed.! Wishing I would have exercised more...oh we'll. I'm happy with my weight, just wish I would have toned up. I think I will try and do yoga this week...I can't wait till next wed.!!! Wondering if I should be nervous about going under...hoping my pec major muscle doesn't get totally messed up from being over stretched! I was talking to a massage friend and she was saying how getting a BA can mess up the muscles that are being affected...muscles that get over stretched use other muscles to compensate causing all kinds of pains in the body, lack of range of motion with arm movement, things like that. Anyone having problems with full range of motion with your arms??