Downsized from 450cc to 220cc and feeling like a normal human being again. 5'1 and @115lb

I've had a couple messages to see pics from my revision. If you compare the last pics I posted from 3 months post op 1st surgery above to now you can see how crazy big they were to how they looked now. I feel much more normal and not freak like anymore. I still have perky round breasts without them looking like giant cantaloupes on my chest and my body feels more proportionate.

It's been a few months since my revision and I hope others can learn from my experience as they look into getting a BA, downsizing, explanting, etc. I had my BA done in August 2013. I got 450cc's silicone on both sides. I am not a tall girl or a very big girl. This size was totally wrong for me. I felt like my doctor got it wrong by letting me think they would look natural or good on me...they didn't! They looked like giant grapefruits on my chest, the scars were awful, and the healing felt like forever. I was always aware of them...you will read some peoples comments about not even feeling they had them after a few months...I always felt them there sitting on my chest like heavy bowling balls. I went through over a year with them in, hoping they would shrink, losing weight to see if they would shrink, gaining weight because they didn't shrink and I thought at least I can just tell people I was fat. I wanted my BA to be un-noticeable to anyone else but me...but it's kind of hard to hide 450's on a 5'1 short person who was only a 34 flat B before. In Dec. I decided I had to have them changed...either total explant or go much much smaller. I was afraid after having such large implants that once removed, I would look totally concave and even flatter than when I started this whole thing...so I ended up doing an exchange and got 1/2 the size and went down to 220cc silicone. I chose a doctor in La Jolla, CA who was amazing, was able to downsize me perfectly, and improved my original scars by 100%. I had horribly thick ugly scars and now it's just a very thin line that's hidden just right in the crease under my breasts. She did something called a Neopocket to place the new implant in. Overall it was a great success...I still feel I could have gone smaller but I feel normal and myself again so I'm super thankful for that. I recommend anyone petite looking to go larger, remember they will settle after time, spread out and completely change how you look in clothes. Don't get swayed by peoples stories of boob greed and think you have to go Large just because you are spending so much money on this procedure. Get the size you want to live with for the rest of your life, know that you always have a hidden worry that something bad could potentially happen to them, and make sure you are going to be ok with that. I didn't need to do this to feel better about myself, it actually did the opposite, I changed and didn't like who I was once I got them. I feel more normal now that I have downsized by 1/2 the size, I look more normal and proportionate to the rest of my body. I will probably post pictures of my revision in the next month or so. I wanted to share my story in case it can help someone who is trying to make the right decision for themselves. Be true to yourself if you really are going to get your BA done and make sure you are comfortable with the size you choose, not comparing your boobs to others, but decided what's best for your body and shape. Good luck on your journey! Mine continues...

Here are a couple new pics. Feeling ok about my boobs...still feel a bit too big but trying to get over it. When I wear clothes it seems fine. They are feeling more balanced and squishy and all that so overall I'm pretty happy. I just have to get used to the new me and start excercising, myb that will help!!!