Huge Coloured Regret I Want to Erase but Feel Hopeless - Paris, France

Hi I am Jeremy from France and I have a calf tattoo that I regret so much: it was made 3 mounths ago by a famous artist I thought talented. I am not an impulsive person usually but I now realize that I decided Too Quick. I have a flower lotus that I have made inked in thailand 5 years ago and I allways found it "Too Alone" so I décided to ad a layer and a "golden buddha" head in a japanese style. So I looked for an artist in France. I found someone who seemed understand my project and we designed the drawing together. The problem is that I didn't expext so much darkness a layer like that! Now I hate it everyday I Wake up in the morning, I dont eat and dont work out anymore : I am sad and often cry . I used to be a positive and self-confident person and now I am making my family and my girlfriend sad... I had an appointment with a Medical center in Paris which have the picosure : the problem : it is colour full and big! the woman told me that a complete removal is impossible for me because Of the red ink but a cover Would be possible. She told it Would be done in two parts each mounths for a total Of 900 $ a mounth! She also told me that They dont use "cooler" during the process and that it Would be very painfull and difficult to walk normally during healing process.. I dont Know What to do because my tattoo is even not finished . If I begin the journey I fear to fail and regret even More . I post Some pictures Of This terrible mistake on my leg.

Hello my journey begin: I had my first session today for the Whole leg , I put numbing cream and the pain was bearable : it took 30 minutes and the doctor was very professional . Now its burning so much, I just want to sleep and eat. I Will post photos soon.

there are some photos ater 20 days of picosure first session,
the 15 days of healing were quite difficult, the leg swollen and with a lot of scabs, the blisters were huge on the flower. It was difficult to walk normally and do sport during 2 weeks.
My tattoo is really less dark but not very fade. So I don't know if I will continue because the colours are bright. So maybe I will keep it like that because I want to be able to my boxing training. fortunately I got a wonderfull family and friends who support me. It is just a tattoo, I got the choice to continue like that during 1 year or to do other tattoos around.