1 month post-op!

Hello - new here. Everyone's stories and pics have been extremely helpful, so thank you ladies!

I'm tall - 5'11'' and 140 lbs. I've wanted to get bigger boobs since college, and am finally going through with it next week! So excited! Right now, I barely fill out a 34/36A cup. I am not unhappy with my current breasts, I actually really like them and think they're beautiful. But I'd love to feel more feminine and fill out lingerie bras, swimsuits, etc.
My PS does only silicone, textured anatomical implants, and exclusively transaxillary incision. I guess this is what has had the best results for him in the past. So this is what we're going with. I absolutely love all the before/after pics on his website, the look of the teardrop implant really appeals to me and looks very natural.

I originally said I wanted 250-275cc after the first two consultations and now after reading everyone's testimonies I'm afraid I'm going too small? I really hope I don't regret it and I am debating telling him to go bigger the morning of surgery. Is that a bad idea?
What I want: I'm tall but I have a petite frame/rib cage. I want to look completely natural, I really really want to avoid the "fake" look (i.e. no big circular bags sitting on my chest) which is why I like the teardrop shape. I want to be a 34C, but so inconspicuous that when anyone sees me, no one would immediately wonder "did she get a boob job?" I wear padded bras currently and I'm thinking that when I'm clothed, not much a difference will be noticed.
But overall, I was afraid of going too big and said 275cc and now I'm wondering if that's a mistake. I feel so conflicted. The fear is paying this money, going through this experience, and not seeing much of a difference when it's all over. But I don't want to go too big for my body and feel like it looks too fake/too barbie doll. Has anyone else done the same and had regrets? Please take a look at my current pics and let me know thoughts or advice on size. Any comments are greatly appreciated.

Hi everyone! Thanks so much for the comments/advice on my size. I ended up telling the PS to do whatever he wants and that I trust him. As long as I don't have the noticeable "fake" look, I'm happy.
He told me he did 285cc in the left breast and 320cc in the right since they were slightly uneven to start - these are silicone gel, anatomical shape, under the muscle, incision thru the armpit. I'm a little worried that such a huge difference in the CC's will make them super uneven after the swelling goes down?! They look the same now though. I also have pretty bad bruising!! A little worried, but hopefully it will go away soon.
Operation was fine, I was pretty scared. Didn't see my PS until after I had received the initial anasthesia dose. I barely remember seeing him, but he drew on my chest and the only thing I could say was "Not too big, OK?" And he said "OK. Not too big." Then I was out like a light.
I stayed the night in hospital and the sweet nurses checked my blood pressure and drains every 2 hours or so. I had to share a room with a lady getting surgery on her throat from smoking. She didn't speak English and I'm still learning French so I was happy to practice with her. The most awkward part was peeing in a bedpan in bed. It's a weird feeling to try and pee laying down in bed, so unnatural. Hated being in the hospital.
I was released this morning and my boyfriend picked me up. I hobbled down the street hunched over, and any sort of movement is complete hell. It HURTS, oh dear holy hell it hurts. I expected it, but not this much. Feels like two heavy shotput balls strapped to my chest. My BF had some leftover vicodin so I'm taking that for the pain. The meds I were prescribed are basically Tylenol, need something heavier than that for the first day or two!
Kinda gross, but still no BM. I haven't gone in 3 days... starting to wonder if I should buy laxatives. Anyone else had this issue?
Finally: BOOB GREED. I was so concerned about going too big and now I feel they are a little small. Even when my boyfriend first saw them, he blurted out "they don't look very big at all" and immediately realized his mistake and tried to cover it up. But I agree, and now the thought is in my head forever. Too small. And they look like pointy torpedo cones with the tape on.
Oh yeah - so no showering for 6 days, the tape stays on for 6 days. Doc told me absolutely no massages, no touching them, no nothing. It's funny to see how different people have diff advice from doctors telling them to massage, etc. Guess it's different for everyone.
Here are my post-op pics - let me know any thoughts! Much appreciated. :)

I honestly underestimated how much this would hurt. It also doesn't help that I'm all taped up very tightly, and will be for 4 more days. I see other girls post-op pics after a day or two and they're in a comfy sports bra and I'm hating the fact that I'm in this tape, I move around like a mummy. It takes me 10 minutes to wiggle out of bed like a worm, getting up and down anywhere is exhausting. I expected it would be painful, but I was thinking like a 5 or 6 out of 10 on the pain scale... I'd say I'm at an 8 or 9. Just so ready for this to be over. The painkillers help somewhat, but it's still excruciating. Perhaps I have a lower pain threshold than I thought, or maybe my PS was rough with my breasts during the surgery (see the bruises).
Depression: After 3 days of sitting around on the couch watching TV, the depression has started to set in. The questions like - "why did I do this to myself?" or "did I really just get breast implants?" I know these feelings will pass with each day, but it's hard not to cry when sitting around like a worthless blob. Plus not being able to wash my upper body/armpits for a week makes me feel gross, smelly, and dirty. The only thing that has helped me through this is my amazing boyfriend. He has done everything from A to Z - cooking, cleaning, fluffing pillows, washing my hair, I mean everything. I am so grateful for that, because I can barely pull down my shorts to pee. When I read reviews of other women who get a BA and they have kids to take care of, or trying to do this on their own, or going back to work after 2 days, I am amazed! I can't imagine that. What strength!
The other thing that helps is reading everyone else's experiences with the pain, so thanks again for that. I'll admit I'm just sitting here having a pity party for myself when I should be happy that I went through it. But I just wanted to take a few minutes to vent, and I do feel better now :)