Nervous...two Days Til Surgery and Counting - Panama City, FL

I have a blood clot. At 11 days post op I woke up with cramping in my left leg. I called my surgeon and they told me to come in. My surgeon is on vacation so his partner looked at me. I had no other symptoms so he said to keep an eye on it and if I started having any other symptoms or the pain worsened to go to the ER immediately. By 15 days post op the pain was excruciating at night time. I contacted my general physician that morning and they got me right in. He gave me a script for muscle relaxers and sent me to get a Doppler scan on my leg just to be safe. The scan revealed a clot in my leg. A scan of my lungs shows no pulmonary emboli. I'm on shots and pills anticoagulants. Scared and worried and wishing I hadn't done this to myself. Also having severe itching. Nothing helps it. Pretty miserable tonight. Don't know if all this was worth it at this point.

The doctor took out one of my drains yesterday...the one that was irritating and painful so it's not such a tradgedy to have the other one still in. I'm sure in a few days, I will be sick of it though also. I go back to the doctor in four days and they are hoping to be able to take the drain out by then. I'm trying to be patient so I don't get a seroma. I really don't want one. The drain that was left in is draining like crazy and both drain holes are leaking now...the one that still has the drain in it is actually draining more. Starting to feel more like a human being again. I keep forgetting to ask my doc when it's ok to stand up straight. Looks like, from reading on here, th eopinions vary widely from doctor to doctor. So, I'm still walking slightly hunched and my back is killing me.

Been really depressed tonight. I feel alone and I'm is of the drains. I want panties and real clothes. I'm ready for my life back. I know it's only 6 days post op but I'm looking ahead at the long recovery in front of me. I thought I was going to skip the post op blues. I guess not.