35 Yr. Old, Very Athletic Dancer/gymnast/aerialist (16 Hrs/week), No Kids, 5'4 110 Petite, Currently 32 A/AA - Pennsylvania

I have wanted breast implants since my early twenties and I am finally doing it! I was constantly teased as a teen/young adult and I did go through a phase where I embraced my flat-chested body, but it has come to a point where I just don't feel feminine or confident. I work so hard on my body, and I'm basically all muscle. I want to feel good about showing it off, and I feel that a small enhancement will balance that out. I by no means want large breasts, especially since I plan on returning to the same level of physical activity after the healing process.

I decided this past August but because of dance/work conflicts, I had to schedule my surgery for November, and now my surgery date is quickly approaching! I have to say I've been so excited, but am recently starting to feel a lot of anxiety about the size. I am still trying to decide between 300cc, 325cc, or 350cc moderate profile silicone implants. My doctor as well as many others that I've talked to all say that the one biggest regret that women have post-surgery is not going bigger. I really don't want big breasts though. A SMALL C would be my maximum size and I'm concerned that they will end up bigger than that and it will interfere with my athletic abilities. Originally I was set on 350cc but after reading a lot of reviews, looking at multiple pictures, and consulting Doctors on this site, I think that I am going to go with the 325s. I have another appointment next week. My mom was not able to go with me to my original consult, so basically the appointment is to put her at ease (she is scared about something going wrong during the actual procedure). I figured that I can try on the implants again, but it is so hard to tell because my doctor said they will look smaller once they are placed under the muscle. I plan on doing the rice sizers this weekend.

I'm so glad that I found this site. I have gotten so many great tips from reading reviews, pics, and asking the doctors questions. I just finished some shopping for post-op stuff today. I picked up some great front close cotton sports bras from Walmart, Bio Oil, Cocoa Butter w/Vitamin E, CVS TheraPeas ice packs, and Mederma (doc's recommendation). I am going to get my blood work done on Monday.

I am still trying to make plans for the first few days of my post-op. This is one of the things that is causing me the most anxiety right now. I live alone and do not have a significant other. I am having my surgery locally so the nice thing is I don't have to travel. My mom will take me and pick me up for the procedure but I need to find someone to stay with me overnight. I'm hoping one of my friends can do it. I also have 3 dogs; two Schnauzers and a Yorkie. If any of you are familiar with terriers then you know why I am concerned about this. They are very high energy and like to jump/lay on top of me. Also, my Yorkie cannot go up and down the stairs or get on the bed without assistance. I am already planning on sending him to my mom's for the first four days but she can't take all of them. She has two small dogs of her own so that would be way too much for her to handle. Does anyone have any suggestions as far as meal planning?

So that is my story. I'm 25 days out. I will continue to document my experience and I will also upload some pictures. I would love comments and feedback!

I'm exactly 14 days from my surgery date and I'm feeling pretty good. I've had some moments of extreme anxiety but for the most part I'm feeling really excited. I have a doctor's appointment on Friday and my mom is coming with me to look at my size options. I am almost 100% positive that I am gonna go with the 325cc. I did rice sizers in 350cc and they were too big for my liking. I think the 325cc will be perfect; not too big, not too small. I've got pretty much everything I need for post surgery, just a few things left to pick up like Arnica tablets, and juice to help with constipation. I also need to get some pajamas or loungewear that has front closure. I think I'm going to order these from Victoria's Secret, but I'm going to see if I can find some cheaper items at Kohl's or Target. I also want to look for a wedge pillow or something to sleep on. I've got all of my caretakers lined up, but am still a little concerned about my dogs. They are not going to be happy if they can't cuddle with me. My biggest concern right now is dance. It's casting time for our big show and normally I get called in around this time to start working big stunts. I'm just really hoping that my dance director will be understanding (I haven't told him yet, yikes!). We typically only have 2-3 private rehearsals before Christmas break. Company rehearsals don't start until the first weekend after New Year's, which is why I'm having the surgery now. So hopefully he won't give my part away to anyone else, especially since he knows I can keep up/easily catch up, but who knows, the dance world is a fickle beast. If he puts another girl with my partner of almost 8 years I will be devastated. Also, I hope I have a normal recovery and no issues so that I can return to my regular rehearsals in January otherwise I'm really screwed. I keep telling myself that if worse comes to worse I'll just take a year off from the big stuff, but that is so hard to accept, especially since I'm older and really don't know how many years I have left in me to perform this stuff. I finally have the courage to post some pre-op pics so here they are. I will update again after my appointment Friday.

Today I found some really great button front pajama sets on sale at Macy's. One set is a super soft cotton knit that feels like silk on the skin. I like these much better than the Victoria's Secret sets. The brand is Alfani and they have really nice prints. Much cheaper than VS too since they were on sale! One top is from Nautica and it ended up only being $6. It's a short sleeve button up top; I hate sleeping in long sleeves so I was really excited about finding it. I also got Arnica today and had my blood work done. Getting close!