--Awake Breast Augmentation and skin only TT. My journey to myself.

I guessed on the cost, bc I don't know what it is yet. I am 35 year old mother of 5, ages 13, 11, 8, 6, and 3. I'm 5'8 and weight 130 lbs. 5 babies have left stretched lower tummy and my barely A boobs are pretty sad. They would stretch to a large C when breast-feeding, then shrivel up after!

I've gotten my body as far as I can back to where it needs to be on my own, but I need help with the rest. I have a consultation scheduled on Oct 24th with one of the best PS here in the Kansas City area. I want a mini TT, cause some if the scars on here are scary, and the recovery looks brutal, but we will see. I have so many questions.

I'm struggling with the whole is this healthy for my body vs do I want to look like this for the rest of my life thing, you know? The guilt of the $ and recovery time. I do not know anyone personally who has done this, and my friends and family will prob not be too supportive. They think I look good, but they don't see me naked and wearing padded bras and tucking my skin under my pants!

My hubby is supportive, but I can tell he would love for me to look better. He said whatever makes me feel better about myself. I hope I can feel closer to making a decision after my consult. Any supportive word by those who went through this??

The PS office called,I think it was one of their customer care specialists, but she was so sweet! Everyone so far whom I have spoken to are so nice and have great positive energy, which I need! She answered some of my questions, any said that anyone pretty much who have had children are going to need a full TT vs a mini because the muscles have separated and a mini does not stitch together the muscles. She explained a bit about saline vs silicone, and I am leaning towards the silicone, bc I want soft and natural looking breasts! Not hard [RS bleep] star boobies!

She gave me a price quote of $11,000, and said the surgery would last 4 hours and I would go home the same day. I'm feeling more excited now that this seems more of a reality. I'm actually feeling less terrified and guilty and more empowered, like, yes, I CAN do this for myself, and it is ok!

Next week will answer many more questions and Dr Quinn can tell by my body what would work best. I asked if the scar would be high or low, but she said everyone is different, and he could answer that for me. I'm hoping my long torso will help me out! Any ideas why some have high visible scars while others are more in the bikini area?

I'm so grateful for this site, it has helped me make this a reality and not a crazy dream. I'm posting my dream boobs pic bc I'm getting ideas! I don't want too big, just fill up what I have and it would be so nice for my husband to get more than a handful (barely) for once!