Out with the New, In with the Old - Orange County, CA

Like many of you ladies, I got the implants to feel secure and more feminine with myself. I was barely filling a 34B cup and felt that I was not proportioned with the rest of my body (5”6” 135-40 pounds). BOY WOULD THIS CHANGE 3 ½ YEARS POST BA. Since the early age of 15, I had always been obsessed with having this procedure done. Both my sisters (older and younger) always had nice-full natural breast which further confirmed my decision to one day get them done. After months of research and saving, I found the perfect docter in San Diego. Dr. Pousti was amazing and his staff beyond the meaning of great customer service. I was well informed of the procedure and decided to go through with it in August 2009. I remember waking up from the operation and thinking “ Ohhh SH**.” I had wanted a full C cup but ended up with Ds because I have a rib cage that sticks out. I knew since the very beginning that I was unhappy but because of my pride and to avoid the “ I told you so” speech from my mom, I sucked it up and told myself I would like them.

Fast forward 3 ½ years and I still feel the same way I felt when I looked down at them immediately after my surgery. I’ve been fortunate not to have had any medical issues, like some have experienced, but I just hate the feeling of plastic in me. Worst of all I hate it when I hug my niece and feel as if a plastic hard ball separates us. I admit my breast look nice and that they feel soft and natural, but I just can’t stand having them in my body. I hate going to the gym and seeing my plastic perfect set of breast bouncing awkwardly in the mirror. I find that I cover myself up more than ever before because I get the paranoia feeling that A- people know their fake or B- people are just staring. I feel heavy up top and completely miss proportioned with the rest of my body. I get neck pains and my posture is like “Quasimodo.” Of course I’m afraid of what my breast will look like after removing my 510 cc water balloons but I hate to feel the way I do. I want my little babies back and I’m saddened that it took this lesson to understand what my family and friends were warning me about. Anyway operation “explanation” is well underway. Ladies if there is any advice, suggestions, or kind words you’d like to share please I’m open to all? ****will post pre-pics soon

I went to my 4th consultation today and so far so good. I met with Dr. Chong, whom I found through @WantMyLittlesBack thank you much! She was sweet and was really imformative. She truely put me at ease and made me feel confortable with my decision. So far I have gotten great response from all the doctors I've been to with the exception of one (Long Beach Dr) who straight out told me I would look deformed. Never something you want to hear but I'm glad he didn't sugar coat the possible negative outcomes. Anyway I think Dr. Chong will be the doctor to perform the procedure. She said I will not need any drains and will leave the capsules in. She mentioned that because I'm young (24), no children and I have good skin tissue I should not have any problems. However I'm preparing for the worst just in case. Have not set the date but I'm thinking it will be set for June.

So excited. Not nervous. Totally calm and looking forward for tomorrow. After months of wait my explant surgery is finally here. I'm mentally prepaid for the worst, because I have been completely encouraged by all you brave ladies who have been courageous enough to do it. I will have an update- maybe a pic- after my surgery. Wish me luck!