Explant: Biggest Fear... - Oklahoma City

In 1985 i got double lumen silicone in saline implants my freshman year of college. I really didn't know what I was doing but luckily my mom researched for me and I had one of the best plastic surgeons in town. I weighed 95 lbs. at 5'4", and wore a AAA, but I'm sure if I had waited til I grew up a bit and gained to a normal weight I would have had decent breasts. But I got them and really liked them for the most part, except I was a shy kinda girl and was always trying to hide them in big blousy tops! So I've had these pretty nice breasts longer than I havent, but have really wanted them out for years since they are just in the way, uncomfortable and now as I am older, I feel it makes me look a lot heavier and matronly. My most recent mammogram revealed capsular contractions in both sides and probable leakage. I also learned that all the years I've been having mammograms (over 10) the saline part was never there. They said it probably leaked out long ago. I really don't want to replace them. I feel like I just want to have my own body back, even if it's a bit saggy, at least there's not something else to cause problems in another ten years. My biggest fear: how my husband will handle it! We have been very happily married for 25 years, has only known me with these beautiful breasts that he has always loved! He is not a shallow kind of guy AT ALL, has been the rock that's gotten me through the worst parts of my life. But every time I talk about explant and not putting anything back in he says "I really don't think your going to be happy with small boobies." I have shown him pics from the website how many women fluff up, and I also have the option of Brava+AFT which he likes the idea of, but I am really afraid he won't find me sexy anymore :( I have had initial appt. with PS and she said I have very little breast tissue and I will probably have a scoop out of the top of my breast. She suggested a benelli lift and the fat transfer, but I didn't get cost info for that part yet. My next appt is Wednesday and I have many questions ready, thanks to all your stories.

After many weeks of confusion about which path to take, after second opinion with another PS, I feel blessed to have made a decision to just explant and wait on lift or fat transfer. Giving my body time to recover and really see what I have to work with on a lift just feels right for me, even though if I decide on a lift, it will mean a second surgery. My husband has gotten more involved and went with me to two appt. with the two different PSs, and I'm really happy he understands the whole process a lot more now. He's become very supportive! My surgery is scheduled for this Thursday April 9, I will have drains for up to a week, and a compression garment. I'm preparing for the worst, then maybe it won't be as bad as I think, lol!! Thank you for all of your honesty in your own journeys, it helps immeasurably to know what to expect through every step!

Three hour surgery, implants were not exactly ruptured but oozing silicone out from the plastic bag disintegrating, if you put pressure on it! Also capsules had so much calcium in them they were hard like bone or eggshell on the inside! I never felt th to be that hard, except the contracted side, so happy to have that disgusting stuff out! Had some pain today even on percoset, not expecting that after reading so many posts about very little or no pain, but they were very adhered to rib cage, so that's probably why. Drains uncomfortable as expected, but putting out fluid so that's great! I have a very tight ace bandage on and of course I look flat as a pancake, can't take a peek til Sunday, I'll post more pics of results soon! Thank you for all the prayers and kind words, it has blessed my day!