This is my Year! Taking my Body Back!!!! Full TT, BL/BA with Silicone - North Carolina, NC

I had my first son at 18 my second at 24. Boys were 9 and 8.4 lbs and both breast fed. I am a nurse and through crazy work schedules, a subsequent divorce and single mom stress, I have had many weight fluctuations over the past 16 years! In 2011, I got a second chance at love with the man I was meant to be with and life is good again!
In this past year alone I have lost 20 lbs through diet and exercise, and the once awful loose skin is made even worse. I have significant stretch marks around my abdomen and breasts are deflated C cup. I've always had and appreciated my full "trunk" and have no interest in appearing anything less than curvy!
I always wanted the excess skin removed from my tummy but wanted to be 100% sure there were no more children planned so after years of discussion my hubby and I are both ready for this exciting change! I am fortunate to know several people who have had procedures done and with my nursing background and previous experience, I have entered this journey with a decent amount of general knowledge about what to expect and what it takes to get there.
I am planning a full TT with BL and silicone implants (315ccish). I would love a little lipo in the outer thighs (saddlebag) but may wait on that a bit. I've looked at thousands of pictures (not exaggerating even a little bit) and really worked hard to try to find results that are similar in appearance to my pre baby body/or similar to my natural breast shape. I'm not sure I'll have the guts to post pics yet, I'm sure after my surgery will be a different story!

So, I'm about 2.5 weeks out from the big day and I cannot comprehend how you're expected to tolerate this anticipation!!! Between research and dreams at night, I've seen more boobies than (insert 80's rock band front man here).
I told my mom this week which was amazing! She and my dad are both conservative Christians (no, I'm not a preachers daughter) so I wasn't quite sure what her response would be. She was so encouraging and surprised that I was worried to tell her! This is awesome ALSO because she's offered to help out however she can thus alleviating my sweet hubby of all the literal and figurative heavy lifting : ). The woman not so encouraging, was my best friend of 20 years. A NOT religious, NOT conservative girl who felt at liberty to tell me all the reasons she thought I should second guess this decision. Ouch. That stung. I will move past it and luckily there is a big enough support system around me that her absence, though noticed, isn't crucial. Hey, if your bestie can't be honest who can...I guess?
So, I'm not a huge social media fan due to my overwhelming disgust of this generations, "hey, pay attention to me" mantra. While I feel I am behaving similarly here, I have to say that RS is an amazing outlet. I find it refreshing that strangers from around the world can reach out and support one another. I enjoy reading both the informative and the 'just venting' posts. There is so much physically and mentally that goes into the decision for cosmetic surgery, it's nice to see how each person approaches it!
This post is completely unuseful (which is not a real word I think) but it is saving my amazing husband from having to hear another rant from me. So if you're listening out there ladies, thank you. Even if you're not, it feels better just saying it! Good luck to all having surgeries soon!!