New Tattoo and I Can't Stop Feeling Depressed and Lost. Help Me :(
Ugh, I don't know what the hell came over me. I...
just called my derm about pricing.. omg this can't be real
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Welcome to the community, I'm so glad that you found us and decided to share your personal story.
I've just read through your whole review and your comments and my heart goes out to you. I've once been where you are now, and I understand completely how hard this is for you — but I also know that the pain does go away over time, especially once you put your plan into action, whatever it is you decide to do.
I have to say, I also think that your tattoo is very nice, well placed and you don't look trashy at all, in fact, my first reaction to your photo was -- whoa, she's in fantastic shape and it's a shame she doesn't like her tattoo".
You mention that you can't wear certain things such as a tank top, and you feel bad about the money and have some worry about sun and removal — let's address some of those things to help put things into perspective.
I think most of us that have gone through this have felt the same way, guilty over the cost of removal and tattoos (remember it's only money), I and many others here, one person that comes to mind is mtenter decided to buy a whole new wardrobe in an effort to hide our ink and obsessively sulk about what we can't wear (even though that's in our own mind because we can wear whatever we please!) I spent an entire summer avoiding the gym, sulking, and more sulking, wearing clothes to hide my back ensuring that not even the slightest tip was showing...until one day as I was sitting on the hot beach melting in the sun I decided to rip off, and I mean I literally tore off my shirt and for the first time in months enjoyed the hot sun on my back...it was therapeutical! I sat there that day thinking, enough was enough! What am I doing?? I have a family who loves me, I'm healthy and strong, I'm a good person, why am I doing this to myself, and even worse...to my family!!! It was time to start living again, it's just a tattoo -- people all around me have them, and some are far worse than mine was...so why was I in hiding? I mean, I knew why...I hated my tattoo and myself for getting it and felt so ugly, but that was my perception so, therefore, my reality, not how others saw me! My constant state of self-loathing wasn't doing me any good and most certainly wasn't going to make the tattoo go away. Do you see where I'm going with this....you need to get yourself out of bed, feed yourself both with food and love and pick yourself up. My gosh girl, you have a killer body, seriously, don't stop going to the gym... I ended up gaining weight after a massive loss from lack of food and working out, and I swear my body hasn't been the same since...don't do that to yourself, you will regret that and missing out on family time, and life way more than your tattoo(s) trust me! My prescription to you, go have a healthy meal with your family, go for a walk out in nature, look at yourself in the mirror and see how beautiful you really are and tell yourself that!! Say it out loud! Lift that chin up and look at yourself and really appreciate who you are and then walk out of that room with confidence to wear whatever the heck you feel like wearing because you can! I also want you to look up a documentary movie called "The Happy Movie" it's very inspiring! Also, watch this: Tattoo Regret: Kathryn Schulz Shares Her Story of Tattoo Regret - Video
Now, should you decide to remove your tattoo, yes, you have to keep it out of the sun post treatment, no big deal...right. Here's an FAQ that covers this.
In your favor, your tattoo is all black and grey...easiest to remove...is this guaranteed, of course not, but your chances are really good. Here is some inspiration for you:
Regretting Tattoo Cover Up - Edmonton, AB
This user didn't remove his tattoo, but his review offers an inspirational view on tattoos and regret: Full Arm Tattoo, Major Regret, Now What to Do...? - Box Hill, Australia
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You're going to get through this and be stronger for it. Now go get ready for the weekend you have planned for you and your husband, don't let this ruin that!
Sending you lots of hugs. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.
Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. I am trying so hard, but can't seem to move past this or my other tattoos.. I am not saying they are not beautiful, they are just not me.. well 2 on me loved but all this nonsense in the last few mos is way too much now,, I'll post a pic of all the other one's. I want to remove all but 2 now so 2 colored ones on my stomach and my chest piece. The one on my chest the lady I spoke to at the other place said wow that is big maybe do half at a time.. no whole thing.. I think it looks bigger in the pic then in person. I think that is the route I will take.. but my one flower has green/yellow and pink (mix of white and red in it) they only do picasure.. do you think that is the best route to take? I called another place and they only do the ya 1060 and said they can't do color. I honestly only want to keep my birds. Also since I can't start till the beginning of Sept. can I tan it now in hopes of it fading it a little first.. maybe stay in sun till end of July and stop one month before I start treatments? I am really trying to come to terms with this but being there are parts I asked not to be put on my rose that ended up there and then asking for all grey shading and ending up with dark black just upsets me even more knowing it will be that much harder to remove.. or the fact that my one flower on my stomach is 5x the size I wanted.. this is all a huge mess.. first comes first this rose needs to be gone.. I would love if both my two flowers and my rose can come off together and I will live with my two birds as they are both on the top of my rib.. I will attach pics in a new post in a few. Please help.. is picasure right and why am I getting such high quotes.. I am really afraid to do the yad and this take 3 years. Right now I need to get myself together and and move on with my life. So question, you said you stopped eating, then lost a ton of weight. You gained it all back and then some ??
It's really unfortunate you want to remove your other tattoos as well, they are beautiful! But I get it, if they are not for you then you must do what makes you feel comfortable in your own skin. Just to be clear, I'm not an expert on lasers and tattoo removal I can only guide you towards where to find the information and share my personal experience with removal. When it comes to color tattoos, it's always best to have access to multiple lasers to get the job done. The PicoSure works awesome on purple and green but it's not the best laser for red or yellow ink. You should ask your clinic if they have the additional attachment for the PicoSure, it's called the Boost. Check out the following information about:
Is PicoSure Able To Fully Remove Tattoos? (photo)
PicoSure Laser for Quicker Tattoo Removal?
PicoSure: Your Essential Questions Answered Here
Does PicoSure Get Rid Of Red Ink?
Does PicoSure Get Rid Of Yellow Ink?
As for the cost, with any laser, the treatment costs varies depending on the size of your tattoo, your location (where you live) the clinics rates overall.
You should have multiple consultations before making your final decision -- ask lots of questions.
PicoSure: 7 Consultation Questions You Should Ask
Take your time, I understand that you want your tattoos gone as quickly as possible but you want the job done right and removal is a journey, so be prepared for that.
As for your question about my weight loss -- yes, I dropped a ton of weight, I was wearing my daughters pants, she was a size 1 or 2 ( I was an 8) ...and they were a bit loose. It was terrible, when I finally started to gain my weight back, it came back fast and furious, especially in my belly and it took me a long time to balance my weight, it just didn't want to leave my belly and I still have to be very careful. I don't know if it's related to my massive weight loss but I never had that issue before. I'm not trying to scare you just want to make it known that when you throw your body and mind off balance it can really have some ill effects, you have to be very careful when it comes to stress, it takes a terrible toll on your health. Please be mindful of your well-being and health, that's the most important thing.
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Not nice to hear about your regret.
However, it looks like good ink. Nice shading. Your artist is talented.