30 Y/o, Breast Augmentation W/Silicone Implants and Lift 10 Years Ago - *Removed!* - Newport Beach, CA

I had my follow up appointment today and had my stitches removed. Overall, I'm feeling really great and am back to pretty much normal activity, except I'm still a little careful with heavy lifting. Each day keeps getting better and I am feeling SO great having natural breasts! They appear to be filling out nicely. There is a small depression under my left breast (very minimally under my right breast too), which my surgeon said that sometimes is caused by shrinkage of the breast tissue from the breast implants. However, he said it should fill out over time. I am going to start using Ylang Ylang essential oil to help tone and tighten my breast tissue, as well as Rose Hip Seed oil to help with the scars. I was advised that Ylang Ylang is often used for women after breast feeding to help tighten the breast tissue.. so we'll see how it works! I am also going to continue wearing a sports bra for a few more weeks to help with compression.. and probably continue wearing it often for a few months. This has been a wonderful healing process. There were definitely a lot of emotions that came up the first few days after my surgery. I was able to really be present with the emotions and accept whatever came up, without rejecting them.. and I have been able to come to a place of love for myself and the journey I have gone through with this experience. This is quite an act of courage.. and I am SO PROUD of ALL of you who also decide to make this decision. I am just so elated to have my natural breasts again! I love them so much and am SO happy! I look forward to their continued healing and fullest expression of their natural beauty!

I went in for a followup appt today to have my drains pulled out. It wasn't the most pleasant experience.. but overall wasn't too bad. I feel MUCH more comfortable now without the drains. I also got a more comfy sports bra to wear. Looking forward to better sleep tonight. Still a bit emotional today and get a bit teary eyed when I allow myself to feel into the emotions. But I am still SO happy with my decision. It feels amazing to hold my breasts in my hand and to feel so natural again. I took a shower for the first time since surgery and really allowed myself to take in the reflection of my "new" self in the mirror. Can still be a little surprising, but I'm learning to love my new self :). It really does feel great.

Thank you to all of you who have responded to my posts. It truly is helping me in my healing process and feels great to be so supported. I hope you all find the support and encouragement you need along your journey

Feeling pretty exhausted today. I think mostly from my body healing and repairing itself.. along with the lack of sound sleep the past 2 nights is catching up on me. I've been sleeping propped up on pillows due to the drains, which isn't the most comfortable position. Not too much pain.. some soreness around the drain and incision sites, but overall feeling pretty good. Haven't taken any pain medication today. I'm more into allowing my body to heal without the use of prescription meds. Took my wrap and bra off today to let my breasts "free" for a bit. Which felt wonderful :). I took some pictures of what my breasts look like today. Their appearance today reminds me of why I made the decision to have the breasts implants in the first place. The sagginess is quite noticeable. Although I know my breasts will perk up and fill in a bit over time. There was a moment today where I cried feeling ashamed about what I've done to my beautiful breasts. All the "trauma" they have gone through just because I wanted them to "look" a certain way. Now I have permanent scars as a reminder of this journey I went through... lessons in self-love, self-acceptance, and self-forgiveness. I'm still happy with my decision. Just feeling sadness, guilt, and shame coming up.. which I know is all part of the healing process. So I'm learning to be present with these emotions today, and accept what is coming up. Feeling the emotional grief as my physical body is healing