Finally ready to explant. 37 yrs old, 18 years of implants, NZ

Hi everyone, I have been reading through the amazing reviews on here and am overjoyed to feel like I am not alone! You are so inspiring..thank you! Here is my crazy story..I took a long time to learn my lesson!! I was 19 years old I got my first set of implants( 325cc over the muscle) I had a 1.5 year old daughter and weaned her the same week I went into surgery ( basically wasn't producing any milk at that point so it was time). I was a very late bloomer in the bust department ( small frame too at that time 5ft 3" and 48 kg) but to my relief ended up with a lovely small C cup breasts which I had for a short time before falling pregnant at 17 and very quickly becoming a DD by the time I was 3 months pregnant!!! This left me with awful livid, deep red stretch marks over my entire breasts, I was devastated I was only a teenager, had only just got boobs and now I was never going to be able to wear a bikini. After a year of breast feeding they had literally turned into empty wrinkled D cup bags but with a B cup filling, my skin had stretched so much and the skin was so damaged it couldn't shrink back again. The surgeon told me that the best thing I could do was to fill the space so implants went in but I had too much excess skin and not enough breast tissue and they tore away from the chest wall, freely moved with obvious ripples and edges within 3 years. I replaced these with 400 cc textured teardrops over the muscle and had a lift to try and hold them in place- I said to the surgeon do I have to replace them? Can't we just cut of the excess skin even if I end up with no boobs? What about under the muscle to hide the the edges? Was told "no you can't go under the muscle after going over and it would be awful without an implant you would have terrible scarring, you can't do that" The day after the surgery I had to go back into surgery as left one had rotated, within three months I was back into surgery as the right then rotated, then the left rotated again I had to just live with them like that. By The time I was able to actually afford to replace them 10 years later they were both horribly kinked and out of shape there were rippled and dents AWFUL! During that 10 year period I developed a myriad of health issues none of which I ever considered could be linked to my implants.This time (2012)I went to a surgeon in Thailand with a great rep , he had done several friends and he did a fantastic job of replacing my implants ( turned out one was RUPTURED???? In hindsight Possibly for several years judging by health issues ) with 450cc mentor silicone under the muscle and they finally looked decent. Sadly I quickly developed capsular contracture on my right breast but instead of a revision I want them out!! I also have chronic fatigue, constant colds and sinus issues, shitty immune system, joint pain, random allergic reactions to an unknown source , chemical sensitivity ( according to doctors) sore shoulders, back and neck always along with breast pain in right breast..finally I am sick of being sick and tired of spending hard earned money on these ridiculous breasts..I want them out and I just want a healthy body again and small boobs again( albeit scarred). I dont tend to tell anyone about this because I'm so embarrassed! I am researching doctors, am emailing and making consult appointments so the journey to explant has begun..thanks for reading!

Today I received my 1st consultation ,well as much of a consultation as I can do via email sending photos etc..I live a long way from the surgeons that I have been looking at using so I'm getting as much info as possible before I fly up to see them. His thoughts were to do the explant by local anaesthetic and then do the lift in 2-3 months once they had settled he felt it would be beneficial to get a good result and let me gives me time to decide if I want to put in smaller implants instead. (I don't want that but I do want the breast lift to have a good result.. I'm Sick of breast surgery this will be number 6) He also didn't think that the capsule removal was necessary but he would be happy to do it if I wanted that...which I do.
I am very nervous especially about having the explant done by local anaesthetic.
I would be interested to hear about others experiences regarding this and about two procedures.. First explant then mastopexy later so I imagine I'll be doing a lot of reading tonight!