Boobs Beyond my Years - New Zealand, NZ

Hey guys

So it's been 11 months since my surgery, how time flies!

Bra shopping is still.. a mission. i won't say depressing, because no matter how unsuccessful I still don't leave the store in tears like I did pre-op. I can try on 8 bras and only fit 1, and I am a 12D or 10DD but sometimes even they are too small. If they are, it's because it's a stupid brand that runs smaller than usual so I just ignore it.

I am more open with people now about my surgery, it's easier to tell people who did not know me pre-op, like my workmates, since I started my current job two weeks post-op. They don't know what I looked like before so it doesn't phase them, even the boys!

Sometimes I find I have to tell people, because I am 25 and I am dressing my age, or even younger, because I have never been able to! So it's easier to say to people "I had my boobs done, and I am bloody making the most of it!".

I got married in April and in 90% of the photos I love my shape, but I have to admit there are a few that make me wish I had gone smaller. But that's life!

The other day I bought a lot of dresses online from tobi.com for a big work conference in the USA and I was showing my workmate, who knows about my surgery. He says "Yeah, you're not going to be able to wear that, your boobs are too big". And that was a trigger. He knows how I feel about them, and the back story, and has thus far been really understanding. I was like ya know what, if I had tiny boobs you wouldn't say "You can't wear that, your boobs are too small". If I was overweight, you wouldn't say "You're too fat to wear that"... so what gives you the right to make that comment about my body!?!?!

So yes, I am still a little bit sensitive about having big boobs I guess. But people don't stare any more, unless I'm wearing a dress that shows them off. Attached a couple of pictures of dresses I have worn this year for special occasions, with no bra. One dress was for my hens night and one for a big work party. Also attached pictures of my wedding day- was going to go braless but ended up wearing a strapless bra at the dressmakers recommendation- WOW! Who'd have thought!? It was comfortable enough, didn't slip down, and more importantly, I was able to find one in my size!

I'll start off by saying that yes, sometimes I still wish they were smaller. i average a 32D/DD depending on the brand and fit. That doesn't bother me, nor does how they look in underwear or when I'm not wearing anything at all.
However, sometimes when I try on clothes I am still disappointed by how they fit. But no one is perfect, and most women dislike something about themselves, and no one fits all clothes perfectly so I'm willing to accept it!

Here are a few pics of the girls almost 5 months post-op. Scarring is good, soft, definitely fading quickly. The girls are the same size, but just slightly different in positioning that doesn't bother me at all.

How time flies!

I am definitely a bit lop-sided still, but firstly I want to say that it doesn't bother me in the slightest. but also, in another 3 months, they might have settled even more. even though my healing has been so easy, I think I overlook certain healing facts, like the fact I might still be healing, adjusting and changing.

I have all feeling, though in some places less than others. My horizontal scar on righty, on the outer side, get's itchy if I am exercising from the underwire rubbing. My scars are very purple, but I expected that as I scar easily and I think after 12 months they will be very different.

My nipples are still pudgy, but it doesn't bother me. I don't really intend to go braless in public, and at least now I can wear those funny little stick on bras without a care in the world if I need to!

I haven't seen my surgeon, as I haven't needed to. I considered emailing him about recommendations for scarring and then I thought hey, why waste his time. We all know that time is of the essence, and I could probably get some cocoa butter or vitamin E cream which will aid with scarring but it's very low on my priority list right now!

Exercising is very easy, I enjoy working out, I enjoy seeing myself in the mirror both clothed and unclothed. In fact, alot of time I prefer looking at myself unclothed, as it really alerts me to the changes I have been through. My body looks proportioned, and I like to see it!

It is odd to me that none of my new workmates (I'm not sure if I mentioned that I started a new job 2 weeks post-op...) know about my surgery. When i had interviews, pre-op, I was very careful to not draw attention to the girls because I knew then that it would be somewhat apparent when I actually started. Strangely, the topic of breast surgery and particularly reductions has come up at work and I do my best to seem knowledgeable (and justified by having worked in health insurance) but not TOO knowledgeable. I haven't told anyone at work, though I have not kept it at secret at all. In saying that, my in-laws still don't know and probably won't ever.

Sleeping is alot more comfortable, I don't have to sleep in a bra, can wear cute nighties and lingerie, and my breasts don't flop over to the side. it's brilliant. I can get changed at the gym infront of other ladies and I don't want to cry with shame.

I stand tall, I don't pull my blazer tight across my chest, I wear heels with pride and don't feel like I'm promoting the girls.

I can't count the ways in which I am happier. I'm sure it's obvious to my partner, though we don't talk about it. Last time we spoke, he was happy with how happy I was, happy with how much more confident I am and happy that it hasn't made me more shallow in other ways, presumably!

I might take an updated photo in coming days, though i doubt much has changed... Can't be sure though, unless i compare photos!