Can't Believe I'm Doing This Again!!! - New York, NY

Hi Everyone,
I just want to say that I've been addicted to this website for about 2 months now. I'm so happy I found it b/c it really helped me going through this process.

I had a rino about 7 years ago. I went to a "nose specialist" and wasn't happy with my results. He didn't address my main concern, which was/is my profile/projection, and I actually think that he GAVE me a bump on my nose that wasn't there before. I went back to visit him after the procedure but he just told me that it was nothing and that what he did was just fine.

My main concern is my profile/projection which is why all my pictures are of my profile. I'm a small girl and although my nose isn't 'big' the projection is too far and my bridge is too high to fit my face. I feel like it makes me look "serious" and it's not feminine at all. I have small lips and features and I feel my nose just doesn't fit.

So here I am again, going through everything again and I have to say, I'm just as nervous now as I was back then. I have to admit....as the day gets closer I'm starting to maybe second guess my decision. I know my nose isn't bad but I also know that when I see myself in pictures and in videos I hate what I see. So that's what's keeping me going with this but I can't help but feel that I'm going to get a bad result (even though my surgeon and I have dicussed my concerns and what my expectations are) b/c I maybe to picky with what I'm looking for.

I'm making another apointment to see my doctor before my surgery and am going to show him these pictures (AGAIN) b/c I just want to make sure that we're on the same page.

If anyone has any advice on how to overcome these crazy feelings I'm having as the day gets closer, I'd really appericate it. I know I've done this before but it's still nerve racking and it's surgery and things can always go wrong!

Thanks for reading! :)
PS: The photos attached are pictures that I've photoshopped myself and I think that both fit my face much better!

hi everyone,
today I woke up really, really nervous. my surgery is the day after tomorrow and I got all my medications and lotions to help me after everything is done. I've attached two more photos to show the bump and the projection better. I'm not going to lie, now that they day is almost here I'm going back and forth in my head and sometimes I get really excited and then I get really scared!!! I guess this is normal but I just wish it would stop.

Hi...today was my surgery and I'm home now relaxing ( as much as I can lol)! I don't feel any pain I'm just more tired. All I want to do I sleep. I've got bruising and swelling but it's nothing crazy. I'm gonna put some ice on it and that's it. Now I'm trying to make sure that I'm eating good bc I can't exercise and I'm a really active person and I want to give my body the right nutrition to help with the healing. All in all this experience wasn't as bad as I thought ( gosh I hope I didn't jinx myself)! I made it out to be worse than it actually was.

hi,
so i wasn't able to get a good nights sleep last night :( sleeping on my back and breathing through my mouth isn't very comfortable for me LOL but i'm managing. my bruising and swelling has gotten a little worse since yesterday but it's not so bad. I am nervous b/c i changed my bandage and notice that my tip is lifted alot and i'm hoping he didn't take too much off the bridge b/c that's something that we spoke about that i didn't want.

now I'm just relaxing and taking it slow. catching up on my tv shows on netflix and cable and trying to eat healthy so my body can heal :)

So I spoke to my surgeon and have to come in I'm Wsdnesday to remove the cast. I'm really excited but also scared. Now that the day is getting close I'm getting nervous that I won't look good or that my face will change and not in a good way :(

My bruising and swelling are almost gone so I'm happy about that. I feel so much better but sleeping on my back and breathing through my mouth are the worst lol! Can't wait to sleep on my side and stomach. And laughing hurts!!! So I can't watch some of my favorite shows but I guess it will be over soon so I'm just gonna have to deal.

tomorrow is the day that i go to get my cast off!!! i'm so nervous about seeing my new self. i'm just afraid that it won't look good or make me look like me just better. i guess i will find out tomorrow. the bruising and swelling is almost gone so that's good since i plan to go back to work on Monday. i'm just relaxing and taking it real easy (truthfully, i'm a very active person so i'm getting a little bored since i can't do that things that i usually do when i have time to myself). i hope i can sleep good tonight! :)

So today is the day that I got my cast off. I have mixed emotions about my new nose. I can see the difference and what was done but I'm so swollen that I have to wait about how I feel about it. My breathing is a little difficult but I think it's because I'm so stuffy and I'm trying to clean out my nose ( so gross ) so hopefully that will help. My tip is super swollen and I hope it will go down the right amount soon but I know it could take up to a year for the final result to show. My tip is also super numb lol! Every time I touch it it just feels so weird lol! I'm just so glad that it doesn't look like a completely different nose and look forward to seeing the change as they days go by. I have a follow up with my surgeon at the end of January so ill taker more pics then to do a comparison!

hi everyone,
so sorry it took me awhile to come back with an update. holidays with my family are crazy (I come from a big family) Happy New Year to everyone! :)

so my nose is still swollen and hard to the touch (on the right side lol..so weird I know) but overall I'm doing great. it's really weird b/c I'm afraid to clean out my nose in fear that i'll remove a stitch or something so my breathing has been a little difficult. when I do get the nerve to just stick a q-tip in there I'm really careful and once I do it my breathing becomes way better so I guess I just have to suck it up and just clean it out carefully.

so far I've visited family and NO ONE has noticed any change!!!! its great b/c I didn't want a completely different nose...just for the profile to be more feminine and I think that's what my surgeon was able to give me.

so that's it really. I go back jan 22nd for my follow up but so far to good. I will say that my nostrils are little different but honestly they never were the same even before the surgery and its not a big different so it doesn't bother me a bit. I'm just wondering if I'm still swollen (I'm sure I am) and can't wait for the end result to be here...patience has never been my strong suit lol! :)

Hi everyone,
so sorry for not being able to update sooner or as much. I guess you can say I've been really lucky b/c everything seems to be going great! I have my follow up appointment next week. I'm still a little swollen and my right side is still numb but my left side if gotten most of the feeling back (which is so strange!)

I've attached more pics....I hope everyone has had a wonderful holiday...now it's just back to work for me. Speaking of work, a co-worker saw me the first week I went back to work and I was still a little bruised. He wasn't able to tell any difference in my appearance other then he thought I bumped into something b/c I had a small bruise under my eye. When I told him it was from getting a nose job be looked at me and said "there's no way...I would never guess in a million years you had your nose done!"...he was impressed so much that he asked me for my doctors info b/c his daughter was looking to get a nose job too! :)

I'm not gonna lie, I still feel like it looks a little bulbous (especially the tip) but I'm thinking that it's pretty much still swollen and I know that that takes times to heal and go away so I guess it's still time to keep playing the waiting game!!!

:)

here are two more pics!!!