Flat Belly Dreams - New York, NY

since I posted. Sorry guys, but I've been working my ass off trying to: A) pay off this sx. And B) buying all these effin clothes now that I'm smaller! Jesus help me! Between Haute Look, Bluefly, Gilt, and Nordstrom, I am so out of control. But enough about that. I've been happy for the most part but recently I've noticed a remarkable abdominal 'pouch' as well as consistent muscle spasms in my abs. My weight has not gone up but my belly has? Wtf. At the same time I noticed my abs being consistently tight. I'm thinking my muscles are beginning to contract because I am so used to holding them in and they haven't been stretched. Just raising my arms upwards creates a pulling in my abs so before I panic, I will incorporate stretching to my routine. Other than that I'm happy. No regrets guys. Happy healing.

Since I posted an update. I hate when members just leave us flat post sx and I never want to be one of those people. So... its been a fabulous summer. I can't remember when I've felt this happy, fulfilled and content, consistently. Not just for a day, a week, or a moment. I've been feeling "like giving away a million bucks" since the day I got over the post surgical pain of my TT. It has little to do with the many compliments I receive. I can never receive another compliment and it wouldn't make a difference. I can't help but stop and stare when I look into the mirror. I have cried more times than I can count after receiving clothes ordered online and having them actually fit me and look Great!. I am in awe so much of the time. I still think like a fat girl. I'm amazed when I fit into a size 10 dress or a medium blouse. While I never considered my marriage as mundane, boring, lacking, or in trouble, it is literally brand new. My husband has never been neglectful, I've never felt ignored. But I feel like a newlywed. He cannot keep his hands off me. Sometimes it's a pain in the ass. My son's friends are so amazed that it embarrasses him. (lol) Just like Dr. S told me, after having a TT, women are motivated to loose, or maintain. And it's not just a money thing. Fortunately for me I had already begun to loose weight while making smoothies with my nutribullet and have now graduated to a vitamix. I'v lost about 13 pounds post sx. I have spent way too much money on new clothes but you only live once. updated pics to come!

that's what life has been for me thus far. I've been working like crazy, doing OT and agency work to pay off this loan quick fast and in a hurry! I'm sure many of my sistas out there understand my hustle. Well I've been really happy since I had my sx. I told my husband just the other day that I am happier now then I can remember being in years. It's not so much that I was unhappy, It's just that I am enjoying life every single day. For example, I went out last weekend to a party my son gave, all his college friends and their friends were there. And while they remembered my face and couldn't quite place where the knew me from, they were floored when I told them who I was. They absolutely could not believe I was my kids' mother. My son told me that 2 of his acquaintances came to him to say how surprised they were when they met his mother and he simply could not handle their praise. (LOL) He literally told them to please stop, just stop talking. (He's a boy and I'm his mom) I was on fire that day. I wore a simple black halter dress and a pair of banging gladiator sandals. Couldn't tell me nothin'! I had an awesome time. Since I had my sx, my breasts seem much larger, they are however, the same size they've always been D cups. Only now instead of a 36, I need a 34 (at least with VS bras). I wear shades all the time when I'm out, when I work in the city, I wear them on the train and it is absolutely amazing what a pair of nice boobs can do. For example, I was coming up the stairs at a subway station, there was a train in that was just closing, I wasn't going to make a run for it not wanting to be embarrassed if the doors closed. Would you believe the conductor saw me as he was closing the doors, motioned to me if I wanted to get on, and literally opened the doors back up for me. Well goddam I was on top of the world after that ish. I am having fun! I love wearing my shades and peeping guys reaction to me. I'm loving it!
On another note my Dr. is on vacation and his office cxld my last appt. which pissed me off since I can't see him tip August. But I will be getting my lymphatic massages in the mean time. His office sells a cream and silicone strips called New Gel. I did my research and found them cheaper on amazon. My mons is still a little swollen and I can't go more than 3 hours without some sort of binder or CG. I still sleep with my binder but its actually too big so I'm ordering a new one as well as a stage 2 Isavella stage 2. I got a large stage 1 but its getting too big so I'll order a medium. BTW I went to a spa last week for a scrub and massage and it was awesome! I've lost about 5 lbs since the sx. still juicing and of course eating smaller portions after the MR. Keeping up with my water intake. I drink nothing else (unless its alcohol LOL).
Wanted to keep my peoples updated so I will include new pic. Hope everyone is feeling as good as I am and if not do what you have to do to get there. Until next time...