Dissapointing day

I've wanted a br for a very long time, in fact when I announced my pregnancy in 2000 I said guess what - I'm this much closer to getting a br. Well, 12 years later and now its time. Have had lots of problems with my shoulders and neck since probably before 2000. I seriously considered br in 2001-2. Saw a few drs, had PT, injections, and taken anti-inflammatories. Mild relief, but still have symptoms which get worse depending on activity - long drives, carrying stuff on my shoulders, excessive computer time, etc. With changes in jobs, etc, it was just never the right time. I decided to really look into it again a few months ago - my daughters bat mitzvah is in June and I want to have this done and some healing completed by January so I can dress shop. The other reason I've always put this off is to lose weight. Well I have and then I have regained, etc. So I was thankful that wasn't a requirement.

I saw the surgeon in early August, got approved 9-14, had my medical clearance appt 9-25, and my pre-op today. I'm scheduled for 10/5. I'm going to definitely take off a week, and then work the 2nd week from home as I can. Will play it by ear and see how I feel.

I asked a bunch of questions today, and am a bit anxious by some of the answers based on what I have read here. For instance he said he would take about 900 g, I think that was total or maybe in each? i can't remember. And then I asked how long the procedure would be and he said 1 1/2 hrs. It seems that most, if not all, of you how much longer surgeries. Is that because he is sloppy? I asked about lipo, but I didn't write down his answer so i don't remember (but thats not going to make/break my decision anyway). And I asked about the post-surgical bra thing. He said I'd be in the surgical bra for 48 hrs and then switch to a sports bra. I asked about size for that, and he suggested waiting until after surgery to get those so I know what size. I'm just ordering / getting a few different sizes so I have something to at least change into. I can shower after 48 hrs so I am happy about that.

He did take his time and answer my questions today, saw my list and I actually think got a laugh out of the fact that I had a typed list but said many people ask much more. He didn't examine me but said he would do the drawings the day of surgery. The one thing I found interesting was his explanation of the procedure he uses and how a "keyhole" drawing becomes the anchor when the surgery is complete. Anyway, it was in reference to a paper/research he had done.

So hopefully things will go smoothly. I'm concerned about the size (which we haven't spent that much time on but he seemed in line with what I was thinking. I will reiterate as he is drawing that I want to be small and not have these big round things), abut the length of surgery (I'm glad it will be on the shorter side, but will it all be ok), and just the general recovery and feelings that many of you have experienced during the initial few weeks after.

So a few more details - I'm 48 yo, 5'7, 215 lbs (the heaviest I've been, embarrassed about it, hoping that my stomach will not stick out too much further than my boobs, and am hoping to get down to 165 once again) and a 40GG. I believe our joint goal is large C, small D.

I got the surgeon from a friend who had used him and was very happy with him. Her neighbor's friend also used him. So he was recommended.

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