35 Years Old, 5'5" 135lbs, athletic, 2 Kids, BF both 1yr+, - New Haven, CT

I literally cannot believe that I am finally going through with this. I have been thinking about having a breast augmentation since I was about 16 or 17 years old, and I've gone through so many stages.... As a teen I feel like I was always waiting to wake up one day and finally have the grown up boobs I'd been dreaming about.......but it never happened. What I did have, though, was nice. Perky, round, and nicely shaped. I wore a 34B, but it wasn't totally filled out. I grew to love them and eventually decided that I didn't need an augmentation. Fast forward two decades and two kids later, both of whom I breastfed for about a year and a half....... During my second pregnancy and while I was nursing my youngest daughter, my breasts got up to a DD in size. When I finally weaned her it took quite a while for me to stop producing milk, and when the milk dried up, my boobs shriveled up with it. I was quite honestly shocked. Following my first daughter I hadn't noticed such a drastic reduction in volume, though my breasts hadn't gotten as large with the first pregnancy/nursing. I just sort of feel now like my boobs left and never even said goodbye.....I'm just left with these sad, droopy looking, deflated non boobies. Boo. I'm an active person, and I exercise regularly. I felt disappointed that I worked so hard to get my body back after having children, but I still didn't feel confident naked. In fact, I find myself feeling embarrassed about my breasts, and I feel uncomfortable when my husband touches them now. I think the augmentation will allow me to feel like myself again, and to feel sexy and confident in my own skin. I'm excited and terrified, quite honestly. The only surgery I've ever had is the c-section with my second pregnancy.

I have my first consultation with Dr. Richard Restifo in New Haven, CT tomorrow at 3:30. This site has been a blessing, I've learned a lot.

I think that going in, I'm leaning toward submuscular silicone implants. I don't think i have enough tissue to cover going over the muscle, and I would like a more natural look. I am really interested in seeing what the doctor recommends for me and I'm open to suggestion.

Here are some of my wish boobs

I had my consult today, and I really liked Dr. Restifo. He was very warm and kind, as well as being knowledgeable and forthcoming with tons of info. I was sort of bummed that I didn't get to try any sizers on today, because they use Vectra to do 3D imaging at your pre-op appointment to land on a final size. Based upon my anatomy and my measurements, we discussed doing textured round silicone implants under the muscle with an inframammary incision. Based upon the pictures that I showed him, he was estimating that we would start around 450cc and either go up or down from there based upon what I thought about how those looked. When I was holding the sample sientra implant in the office, to get a feel for what they would feel like I was surpised at how heavy it was, but it was a 485cc implant. Holy moly. That's definitely too big for me. I literally cannot imagine boobs, so anything will probably feel huge initially. Until the boob greed sits in ;)

I am going to call back tomorrow and book the procedure date. I'm hoping to schedule it for January 5th, because that's the first time my husband will be able to take some time off and my family can come help with the kiddos while I recover. Strangely enough, that is actually my anniversary too, so maybe my anniversary and my boobiversary will be the same :) Happy anniversary to us!!! I'm getting excited, but I swear I'm going to need like an entire bottle of Xanax on the day of surgery, because I was seriously SO nervous, just for the consult. Eeeeeek!!!