38yrs old, Removing implants after 18 months - cant wait!

So let me tell you my story....
I had my BA in February 2014 and really thought that it was something I wanted/needed/deserved after breastfeeding my 4 kids and getting to a point in my life where it was possible for me to fulfil my 'dream' of getting the boobs I'd always wanted. I should have listened to myself and the silent alarm bells that were ringing leading up to the operation - I wasn't excited, more nervous, I was having nightmares about the operation and i even told my husband - but we both put it down to pre-op nerves and pushed it to the back of my mind.
I had 295cc silicone partial unders and the result looks perfect - they look natural and fit my frame (I'm 130lbs and 5'4 tall) and I couldn't have asked for a better aesthetic result.
After I woke up from my BA I cried - in fact I cried for about 3 months because of how the new boobs felt, how they made me feel, how worried I'd suddenly become about the potential health issues that could happen because of the silicone implants (I had a modest 295cc and went from a UK A cup to a C cup) , and how they just felt so heavy and so alien in my body. Then there was the issue of the numbness. To be fair, my left boob is 100% back to normal sensation, my right boob there is still 1/3 numb

ah, the right boob - this has been the major source of pain and discomfort for me over the last 10 months or so and doesn't seem to get any better with each passing day. At my 3 month check up with my PS he told me that it was down to nerve regeneration and that I'd feel better both physically and emotionally sooner rather than later, and while I do feel less emotional about the implants, physically I am just so tired of the pain. It's a pain that aches my right boob, it hurts when I lay down, it hurts when I work out at the gym.....not constantly but I have noticed it more and more and to be honest I don't want this any more
At my 3 month check my PS was great - he listened and we talked about how I felt as well as the physical recovery, and his advice was to return Towards the end of this year and we would review and discuss how things were going and what our next plan of action would be.
So here I am, feeling tired of the ill health and the stress and the discomfort and the pain - I have developed IBS and frequently get back and neck pain since getting the implants. I called my Ps 3 weeks ago and scheduled an appointment for January 14th.
I think my best option is to have an explant, and as I'd have had them for about a year I'm hoping that I might be lucky and return to how I was before the BA. I honestly don't care for these toxic bags to be in me for any longer and my husband is totally supporting me in this decision. (Although he does love the boobs, he loves me more!)
I feel a little bit scared about what the outcome will be, and I'm worried that I'll still be left with the pain and numbness - has anyone had any experience of these things going after explant?
I think the one thing that is spurring me on is that I will then be in control of my health, I won't have to have any more elective surgery, I will be able to concentrate on the things that matter - my kids, my family, my hobbies- I will be able to exercise without feeling top heavy (still feels weird when I run!) and I will just be me again...flat chested but with the body that carried and nurtured my four amazing children and I guess that's enough. I just need to courage to go through with booking the explant and then doing it.....

Last night I had a heart to heart with my husband and asked him how he really felt about the removal ( if that's what I decided to do) and he said that although from a mans perspective they are perfect and that they fit my frame perfectly, he loved my boobs before the op and would love them after too....ultimately he said that he wants me to go in to the consultation with an open mind because he's worried that as I wanted them for so long, that once I have them taken out I will wish I hadn't had the explant and that I will go back to being self conscious about my lack of boobs. He said that I am more confident now because of the boobs and I guess he is right as I have to acknowledge how I felt before the BA and the reasons I opted for the operation in the first place. He said the BA was my choice and if I want to have an explant, that too is my choice and he will support me 100% and understands why I would want to have it. I feel very lucky to have a husband who helps me have a rounded view of things and who knows I will do what makes me happy and loves me because of it! I need to makes this decision myself though.....
The next few weeks are going to be a time for me to contemplate things and to really look at the impact they have had on my health - physical and emotional - because one thing I am sure of is that I have never had a more troublesome year when it comes to these things, and surely that's not a coincidence ?!
I will try to upload photos soon.

This past week I have been having horrible dizzy episodes and a couple of times I've had a tingling feeling in my right arm - and the pain in my right boob/chest muscle is now almost constant .....so I am wondering if this is yet another reason to explant! I feel certain that when I meet with my ps in 10 days time that I will ask for explant asap as I just want to feel well again. Also, I've noticed that I always check to make sure my boobs don't look to big in the clothes that I wear which in my mind is me subconsciously knowing that these implants aren't really me and don't fit with how I know I should look. A part of me is quite excited to go back to how I was pre-BA.... It'll be easier to run, nicer to hug my kids, and definitely a lot better with regards to sleeping !!!!!
I have looked at so many explant reviews and photos that it has boosted me up a bit to know that whatever happens and whTever my boobs look like after explant I will have been true to myself and will be confident enough in who I am not to need bigger breasts to look good or to be good enough! The thought of just one surgery and then no more worry or expense of further surgeries in years to come is also great. Also it's good to know that I'm not alone and the support from this site is fantastic.
I can't wait to get back to me in 2015 and to be healthy again