26 years old, 5'7", 145 lbs, no kids, 32B + 475cc & 550cc HP submuscular silicone = 32DDD

I'm so glad I found this site. I'm going to use this as a blog of my boob journey! I have been very comforted by the honest, down-to-earth reviews on this website from so many fabulous women and I'm excited to begin my own boob story! =)

All of the women in my family have pretty large breasts so I was kind of the anomaly with my little mini boobs. Oh how I loved the jokes growing up... "Why bother wearing a bra? You just need a couple of bandaids!" It's safe to say that I've wanted breast augmentation for about a decade... yes this would mean since I was 16! Obviously I knew I'd have to wait till I was an adult, but somehow I just knew I was done growing and I was right. In fact, I've been the same size since I was 12. During my teenage years I was obsessed with watching plastic surgery shows... less because I was so fixated on my own plastic surgery desires and more because I had an intense fascination with medicine in general. I spent so many hours watching plastic surgery shows though that I've never considered plastic surgery a big deal like most people seem to. It's a very straight-forward thing with me... I want bigger boobs so why not get them? My mom always said, "Aww honey, they'll get bigger when you have kids." Well... I don't want to wait that long and I don't think that's the case anyway... most women seem to lose volume after having kids and breast-feeding.

At 18 I joined the Army as a practical nurse. The last 8 years has been crazy... I've been around the world and I've been so busy with so many things that breast augmentation just stayed on the list of things I'd do "someday". Most of my nursing experience was post/op which has further desensitized me from considering surgery a big deal. The last few years I've been in college as an ROTC cadet. I'm currently a senior and will commission in May so I'll tell you right now, my BIGGEST concern is how B.A. will affect my physical performance, primarily push-ups and running. I don't just need to pass the Army Physical Fitness Test (APFT), but as a future Army officer I should be maxing it. My cadre are surprisingly supportive. They don't care that I'm getting B.A. as long as I don't need a limited duty profile for longer than 45 days.

So why am I doing this NOW? Well my surgery date is going to be on December 9th and that gives me a month off for winter break to recover which means I only have to miss, at most, a couple weeks of physical training at the start of next semester; I had a realization that it's the longest guaranteed break I'll have and it's important to me that it happens before I commission because I don't want to get to my first unit as an LT, get them, and be "the new LT with fake boobs". If they only know the "after" me then it won't be so obvious.

Today I had my consultation and pre/op appointment (both together so I don't have to make the 4-hr roundtrip again in 2 weeks). I went alone because I honestly couldn't think of anyone I'd want to go with me. My family is 2,800 miles away and my friends are all too opinionated. I've wanted this far too long to want to hear my friends, who know nothing about B.A., try and tell me what would be best. To ensure I will be the happiest with my result, I decided that the only people I want influencing my decisions are myself and the plastic surgeon/ expert.

I felt a little embarrassed explaining the things I don't like about my boobs but my PS immediately put me at ease with his caring attitude, professionalism, and expertise.
1. I want overall more volume!
2. I want to correct my asymmetry... it's not terrible but my left boob has more fullness on the bottom than my right boob.
3. I have a teeny tiny 3rd nipple under my left boob that I want removed. It just looks like a mole but because I know what it is, it makes me feel like a mutant lol.

My PS and I decided that I'll get Natrelle silicone implants below the muscle, which is what I already knew I wanted. The only thing I wasn't sure about is size... I want to look very "blessed" but not like a [RS bleep] star. We decided that my left implant will be 450cc and my right will be 500cc. I tried 350cc and 400cc sizers first and then moved up to the larger ones to compare. I'd probably still be happy with the smaller ones because it'd still be a big difference but I decided on the larger ones for two reasons: 1) supposedly the actual implants will look a little smaller than the sizers, and 2) one of the most common complaints after B.A. is "I wish I'd gone bigger." How much would that suck to FINALLY get B.A. and STILL wish you had bigger boobs? On principle I think it'd bother me more to wish I'd gone bigger than wish I'd gone smaller. I'm so excited for this surgery that I think I'm going to be happy no matter what.

Overall, the consultation and pre/op appointment was awesome. The plastic surgery center had a nice atmosphere, I didn't wait at all, everyone was SO sweet and caring, and my PS understands what I want. The hardest part about all of this is just waiting for my surgery date! I want boobies and I want them now!

I keep going back and forth on the size I chose which I know just about everyone does. A couple of times I wondered if they'd be big enough but more often, I'm wondering if they'll be too big. Whenever I have my doubts, I start googling for before and after pictures of anyone who's had 450-500cc breast implants. Sometimes my mind is put completely to rest when I see others who have my size implant and carry it very well, and other times I'm a little freaked out when I see pics of women who had smaller implants and even a smaller starting size and now look huge! It reinforces how hard it is to get an accurate idea. It seems like the vast majority of before/afters I come across are women who are smaller than me so that doesn't help. Someone who is 5'2" and 100 lbs just won't carry implants the same as me who is 5'7" and 145 lbs. I always considered myself to have a "big frame" and when I said this during my consultation, the nurse laughed and said I do not have a big frame, I'm just tall. But surely, it must still make a difference.

After my consultation I made some rice sizers at home but I don't feel like they're very accurate in determining what the "after" will look like. I used an old pair of nylons to put the rice in and the material makes it very easy to manipulate, but I still feel like they make my boobs awkward, lumpy, and much more saggy looking than the actual implants will be. I haven't worn them for more than like 10 mins because I just feel so silly with them in my bra.

Last night, I was thinking about what I want to wear to this event coming up after my breast augmentation so I tried on a dress I haven't worn to anything yet. At the time I was just wearing a little sports bra and was very flat but I didn't actually mind the look. I looked nice and thin from the side with an overall, youthful and athletic appearance. I saw my sizers sitting on my dresser and out of curiosity, placed them inside my sports bra to see how I looked then. I feel like it increased the "sexy" look. The dress was not that low cut and before would've only showed breast bone instead of any real cleavage, but with the sizers in, it created a lot more cleavage and I started wondering if such a sweet, classy dress would then be "too sexy" for the event, just because my boobs would be bigger. I didn't love the appearance from the side. It made me feel like I looked more matronly. Afterward, I thought about how I might actually miss my small boobs. Sometimes smaller boobs make me look like I have a more "Vogue" appearance in my clothing vs. "Hey everyone, look I have big boobs and it's hard to notice anything else!"

My goal is to have a breast size that looks much better when I'm naked, wearing just a bikini, or going braless occasionally under clothes, but still able to downplay by wearing minimizing bras when I don't want a big boob look... I'm just hoping 450-500cc will still accomplish that and not look enormous all the time. I'm clearly not 100% certain about the size I chose but I think it's impossible to be until I see my own "after". I'm sticking by my deal though that I'm not changing my mind... the nurse told me at my consultation about a woman recently who changed her mind on size the day of surgery (having doubts like I do now) and then really regretted it after. That won't be me! I just want this over with so I can stop obsessing! I am about to start all my Finals at school and I'm working on all my big term projects right now, but all I can think about is BOOBS.

I cannot believe I'm only one day away now. I have waited sooooo long for this and now I am so close. I'm still struggling to finish my term papers and stressed about that which I think is keeping my stress about BA to a minimum. Some days school completely distracts me from thinking about my BA and other days BA has distracted me from wanting to do school stuff, but by tomorrow both will be complete. Still going back and forth on size but I'm just going to trust that the size my PS suggested will be best.