I am 5'2 with a very hourglass but athletic build - 4 weeks post op

Hello Everyone! I have been stalking people on this website for a few weeks now, so I thought I would join in. I am 5'2 with a very hourglass but athletic build I usually weigh between 128-132, although right now I am 136 (holiday/finals season!) I was recently resized for a 32G (although one of the ones I ended up buying was a 30...F I think). FML. I had put off being resized for YEARS. When I found out how big they were I cried in the dressing room. Teh girls there did not get it, they told me people pay thousands of dollars for that. I just felt embarrassed.

I have been considering BR for maybe 5-6 yerars now on and off. I had all the reasons in the world to put it off, but I am now finally ready and getting excited! I cannot believe my surgery date is 2.5 weeks from now! I am getting so excited. Even though my dad has known the doctor (and entire practice) for a long time, I am still somewhat nervous about a 'bad' outcome: such as wound separation, lopsided breasts infection ext. I also feel unsure about how small I want to go. I think a large B or small C would be good. I definitely have a little booty on me so I want to be semi-balanced. I am also worried about just the recovery time, I only have 2.5 weeks or so before I have to fly back to school... YIKES.

Another issue is that I have not told the guy I have been dating now for about 3 months. I know, it is bad, but I just have not gotten up the nerve. I am 90% sure that after the initial weirdness he will be totally supportive.... but ... I don't know. I know I have to tell him I am going to do this and explain it.... but a part of me just doesn't want to... I am freaked out by the awkwardness/weirdness. GAH

Anyway. I have it set up so I fly home for break the day after my last final on 15th, go in for my preop/consultation on the 17th and surgery on the 19th. EEK.

Gah, I really am not sure if I understand how to post things on here, but man I am still really nervous. I just keep thinking about having tell this guy I am seeing. Blah. I know it will be fine, I just kinda don't want to. I am addicted to this site! Thanks to all the girls out there who have posted their stories and pictures. Knowing what to expect makes it way less scary. I will hopefully man up and put some pictures up soon!

Gah, I cannot believe I am now less than a week away from surgery. I have my last final tomorrow afternoon and then I go home saturday... I am SO excited. But all of a sudden I got super nervous today for the first time really... just really nervous about getting my boobs split open and stitched back together.... I know it is not like they are cracking your chest but still --- getting cut is SCARY. I have had a few prior knee surgeries ... but something about it being away from your core made me feel better...Gah

But on the up side I finally told my boyfriend about the surgery today and he could not have reacted better.... he was SO supportive and was kind of mad I was sooooooo nervous!! He was just like why would I be against something that is going to be good for you :) awww and he talked about being able to buy me cute bras and such now :)... so sweet. I havent been in a relationship like this before but he is the best. I am lucky.

Good night :) Gotta rest up for my final tomorrow.