I'm 23, 5'6", and 115 lbs. - Breast Implant Removal

I'm 23, 5'6", and 115 lbs. I was a small B before my surgery two weeks ago. I have 300cc silicone gel implants in my R breast and 275cc in my L. My results look fine, I am not botched. I chose a fantastic amazing surgeon to do my procedure. However, I am devastated and felt like I have made the worst mistake of my life.

My fiancé, who has been with me since I was 17, always knew my insecurity with my "small" boobs. He was always very against me wanting to undergo breast augmentation bc he loved my boobs the way they were- natural! He also didnt want me spending all that money to get them done! But did I listen?

No.

I'm a dog with a bone and when I get an idea in my head, I stick to it. Finally after many arguments, he caved. "Do what you want but I don't support it" he said. So I did. And boy do I regret it!

I feel terrible that I have done this to my body and to my fiancé. I should have been happy and loved myself the way he did.

I feel fake. Like I've poisoned the body that God and my parents gave me. I feel so vain, superficial, uncomfortable. Not like me.

At my 1 week post op I questions my surgeon about a removal. He was very sincere and wanted to get to the root of my feelings so we had a long discussion about why I was feeling the way I was. He was so sweet, and advised me that if a removal is what I want then he will do it for free- but he wants me to wait 3 months before I make a decision. :-(

He has been out of town this week but I have called the office every day and spoke to nurses about how I was feeling. They prescribed me Xanax for my severe anxiety, and reassured me that I could come in and rediscuss things with my surgeon first thing Monday morning. The wait has been killing me!

I hope I can convince him to go ahead and let me explant while its still early so I can bounce back to my original self minus the scars... I'm moving 3 hours west of here next week, and ill be starting a new job and life with my loving fiancé. It would be such a hassle to make time to travel back to have this done three months from now while suffering from anxiety and regret in the meantime. I'd rather get them out now, before I move, and be done with it. I tried implants, they're not for me.

Nothing was wrong with me before. I don't know why I thought there was. Implants do not fix your self esteem, that has to come from within. I hate that it took a major surgery to realize it but its nothing that cannot be undone minus the scars.

I don't even care about the money lost, all I care about is getting back to normal ASAP and loving my God given body that I should have never altered.

Please, if you or someone you know is considering breast augmentation, please make sure you think it through. Maybe even go through counseling to be sure you're ready for it. It's not for everyone. Love yourself how you are.

I went from a fun, outgoing, silly, smart, kind person whose obsession with bigger breasts as knocked me down to my lowest low. I cannot get off the couch, I'm taking Xanax twice a day, ridden with panic, and want nothing more than to be my normal self again.

Hopefully I can relay this to my surgeon in a way that convinces him to go forward with the explant.

I just want to add that my feelings have no reflection on my surgeon what so ever. He did a fantastic job with my augmentation. All of his work is amazing, and I've passed his name along to many of my friends.

I just think that undergoing such a change was too much for me, even if my results are perfect, which so far they are. I just want myself back.