28 Years Old Mom of Two Girls. Wanting a Better Tummy - Myrtle Beach, SC

Oh the stress! A couple days left till Christmas and a couple days left till my trip to see family and so much to do. I really do hate stress. It makes it harder to lose any weight, my face will break out when it's normally always clear and the best part it make me swell. Like what the hell, I have enough to deal with the last thing I need is to feel uncomfortable. Oh well. Everything else is going good but one night I was actually struggling a little to pull my abs and get up so my husband helped me and not being a big deal when I was ready I just flopped back in my bed ... big mistake ouch! I don't like using my abs a whole lot cause it still feels like I'm going to pop something even though I know I'm not. My husband wants me so work them out more, he thinks the feeling will go away when my abs are stronger but if I don't feel comfortable with doing it then I should tell my doctor at the next follow which isn't till march. I'm going to plan on using them more and if they don't improve by then I'll mention it to my doctor. I'm just worried this feeling mite be the way it is now. My abs were pulled together by permanent stitches and I can feel them under my skin if I rub my tummy. They don't bother me it's just weird. Anyways have a great Christmas ????

Not much really to say this week other than it's completely insane I still deal with swelling. It's not bad and hardly noticeable to anyone but me. Even a small amount and I can fell this weird sensation almost numbing feeling. I hates it and I hate wearing compression garments. I don't wear them all day anymore, I take it off sometime after dinner when I get my comfy cozies on and go to sleep without it. Feels so amazing to get it off. --------------------------------------------------------- Doesn't seem like much its changing a whole lot now even though I am still losing weight. I'm still overjoyed with my results my only problem now is shirts. Long sleeve shirts or jackets, I live in the south and it doesn't get real cold compared to up north. And as I am getting ready for my trip I go shopping for jackets only to disappointed with my body again. I used to wear large to extra large shirts and with my new tummy I'm in a medium to small T's. The crappy part is my arms. I've always had huge upper arms since the first time I became pregnant and they never went down. So I got grumpy when I can wear smaller clothes and show off my body but I can't cause my arms won't fit in a jacket unless it's a large or even extra large. But some good news about sizes. I used to wear a large in Jeggings and I'm proud to say that I'm in a medium and I find myself even pulling these up all day. Lol maybe I'll try a small in a month or two. If you don't know what jeggings are they are basically very very stretchy jeans and are almost as comfortable as yoga pants. They come in XL,L,M,S and also have different leg lengths and cuts. Freaking love theses pants and hate normal jeans. Feel like I can't move in normal jeans yuk. Back to my arms, I do have them on my wish list to get lipo or even a lift but that's money I don't have yet, making goals! So, I guess I did have a little something to say this week haha I'm always a little slow at first but once I start typing I could go on forever:)

The time really does seem to just fly by. I remember back in spring I told myself by Christmas I'll not only have the body I always wanted but I'll have the body I deserve. I gave my body to my husband then my children and then to myself. I worked hard and dropped the weight and still looked huge and flabby. ==============================================================================
Words can not describe how amazing it is to feel sexy to not be ashamed to take my clothes off to walk around with so much confidence and not to mention not having to pick up ,fold or pull around my hanging skin just to shave my girly bits. I hated working out running, jumping or anything that made that awful thing move. I'm just so thankful that it's gone. Even though I had that hang of skin for almost eight years, I'm starting to forget what it looked like to have it on me and it felt like to touch it. I will always remember the struggles of having it with moving my body but the feeling of actually having it is fading away. It's Both a good and bad thing. I always wanted to remember what it was like so I never return to that state but also forget because of the depression it caused. ==============================================================================
Swelling has dropped dramatically. I still do swell but it's not much unless I'm stressed. Stress cause a lot of swelling for some reason. But at least now I almost look just as good in the morning as I do at the end of the day. As long as I don't eat to much. This is not only wonderful for looks but sex is getting so much better too. Yes I went there. There's nothing like you husband feeling you up, down and everywhere while your doing your thang lol and Not stopping him from taking your clothes off, touching you or even leaving a light on. It's an amazing feeling to be so comfortable with your body and your husband. ==============================================================================
With the swelling going down feeling and looking better has some small negative effects. Negative only to my mind and in a way I thought never would bother me but somehow and sadly is dose. People or family reactions seem so change as your body changes. For the ones that know what kind of surgery you've had, your going to deal with a rather large rang of emotions and opinions. And for me before going into this I told myself I don't care what anyone thinks or says. This is my body I'm unhappy and I should do and will do whatever it takes to be happy. What dose all of this mean? Well, your most likely going to get people or family members that will stare at your tummy and you'll be able to see the facial reactions of: wow that looks good ( rare ) or disgust face. How could she go through with that and spend that much money ( common ) or an unsure face. Where you can see that they don't agree but also are thinking they could benefit from this surgery as well but won't admit it ( very common ) with each person you'll quickly learn how they feel about you now. I've had a wide range of things and with only a hand full of people. I've had the disgust looks and the laughing or snickering with someone when ever they hear or see something cosmic related. They will talk or laugh behind your back but loud enough for you to hear. These kind of people I believe truly don't understand what it is like living with all that extra skin or are simply jealous and need to find a negative in it. The ones that stare and have a wow look on there face are interesting for sure. As for you can tell they like the changes but won't tell you. After they closely examine you when you first see each other and then for the rest of the evening will hardly look your way. For the ones that give you the unsure look, they will most likely not look or talk to you about it. Maybe ask how you feel and that's about it. All of these I have experienced. You may not but this is how it is for some who have gone through a tummy tuck. The oddest treatment so far and is completely true was where in the beginning ( during swelling) she sneaked pictures of me ( I saw them ) would tell me to my face how good I looked but actually mocked me behind my back to her stick figure family and send them the pictures, funny thing was after the swelling was mostly gone the sneak pictures stopped, I didn't see anymore giggling over the phone lol she thinks I look good now , just wait until next summer. I'll see you at the pool. All of these things did happen and I've been thinking a lot about them this week because I'll be seeing my side of the family in three weeks. They haven't seen me since I've had this surgery. I told my mother I was doing it just in case and wanted to keep it a secret. So, naturally everyone knows. I hope my family won't be as judgmental but I kinda already know they will be. It's in there nature I guess. Time will tell and hopefully I will learn to care less and not get so offended. I think my problem here is, why can't they just understand the depression I had from it and how uncomfortable I was in my own body and just be happy for me that I took charge of my life and made the change. Of course that will never happen within my family. They are not happy unless you are unhappy. Hopefully the week will fly by. ==============================================================================
Sorry for the long post this week. A lot on my mind and if you have gone through this and are preparing to see family this holiday season, don't expect everyone to be supportive. Most likely they will act it but will say otherwise behind your back. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and trust me you'll get it. Either to your face, behind your back or gossiping with others. Hopefully you won't have a hard time like me. It's why I love this site, at least everyone here understands