Finally Doing This for Me! - Monterey, CA

Well I'm a 28 (almost 29) year old mother of two. I was HUGE with both of my kids - mostly because I'm barely 5'1" so my body did not stretch very well. After I had my boys, I managed to become very depressed and just didn't care about my body at all and gained a lot of weight getting my self up around 200 pounds. My husband is in the military and with him coming and going I never found time for myself - it was all about him and the kids. After his second deployment started I nearly fell down the stairs when I got dizzy carrying my son to bed and ended up at the doctors. I was told that if I didn't do something about my weight I was going to be diabetic since I was borderline at that point. So that was it for me - I didn't want to end up like my parents. My father is overweight (nearly 300 pounds), has high blood pressure, diabetes and is probably the most un healthy person that I know. My mother passed away at the age of 41 of a heart attack pretty much from her weight fluctuating so much and all of the diet pills she took over the years. I looked at my little ones and knew that wasn't a future I wanted for them - or myself. So I busted my butt (literally!) and got myself down to 150 pounds. I'm a crossfitter and I actually weigh more than I look due to all the muscle. But you can't see nearly half of it because of all of the excess skin in my stomach. I don't even remember the last time I was able to wear a normal pair of low rise jeans instead of old lady high (belly button height) jeans. I'm young I shouldn't feel so old in my clothes! And I want my confidence back! I worked so hard to get where I am and I'd love to see the body that goes with the hard work and the weight loss finally! So I went to Dr. Zewert - here in Monterey, CA and his passion and honesty sealed the deal for me. I have no intention of being Barbie or perfect- I'm just so ready to be me again! I have 2 more days until my surgery and I'm nervous and scared and excited all at the same time. I feel guilty that I'm doing this for myself instead of doing something more for my family, but I keep reminding myself that in the end this is for them too! AHHH!! YAY!

Well I barely slept and I'm sitting on my couch about to shower and get ready to head to the surgery center in about an hour or so. I'm freaking out and want to just stay home and be a chicken! Haha. I know I'll be ok but it's all hitting me now that I'm finally doing this. I'm so excited but the fear is topping it all right now. I hope the healing process after is smooth and that my husband and kids can handle this too. I hate that I'm panicking day of!! I'm going to assume this is normal tho.

I did say goodbye to my old lady jeans this morning tho! I won't have to tuck my skin in high waisted jeans after this and that thrills me beyond belief! No more feeling like a frumpy old lady at 28 years old! I'm so ready for this but I just wish there was an easy button for recovery. It's the fear of the unknown. Well time to shower and get ready - see you guys on the flat side!