Removing Black Inked Background W/ Q-Switch
At my first appointment I got the colored...
At my second appointment my artist talked me into a lacy background. I definitely wanted something unique and his other artwork is so cool I trusted him to do what he thought would look the best.
SO here we are. It's not done but I'm in full on regret mode 80% of the time, the other 20% of the time I 'almost' like it. You can see where he started shading the background at the bottom of the piece and it's kind of pretty, he also said he would highlight around the bird to make it stand out.
My third appointment is coming up soon and I'm desperately trying to decide if I want to complete this piece... if I stop now laser treatment would be easier... but if I continue I may end up with a beautiful piece.
Advice? Thoughts? Comments?
My family is saying finish it but I'm terrified lol. I keep looking at laser treatment and I have a consultation tonight for more info.
REASONS I AM UNSURE ABOUT COMPLETING
IT:
-I'm scared that it will be soo much black and it's so big.
-it seems weird to have a hummingbird with this background...
-I'm afraid it looks or will look bad/strange/trashy
-I'm afraid it will overpower my hummingbird I loved so much.
-It will be harder to remove if I let him finish it.
Laser Removal Consultation
He told me the placement was weird, the focal point is basically where that piece is flowing across my chest. He also wondered why the shading that had been done is so dark and was worried the whole piece would look really dark. And he just kept going on.
Something tells me either my tattoo does look that bad (I think it does) or else he's just trying to sell me on laser removal.
He also showed me pictures of total tattoo removal, you couldn't even tell if was there. Is that too good to be true??
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Emotional Rollercoaster! ~Whee! Put your hands up!
My boyfriend's frustration from last night must've subsided because he was able to pull me together with logic. I find that when I get into my "freak-out" mode that I start losing all logic and start panicking (may be a little attributed to my anxiety), and that when confronted with logic and calm, my crazy disperses. My boyfriend seriously looked at my tattoo, and started throwing out ideas that my tattoo artist could possibly do to make my tattoo more appealing to me. Like:
-The shading is dark on the bottom, and it could get lighter as my artist shades up towards the top, like a gradient. That way it wouldn't be so dark.
-Possibly add color in the meshing, like maybe in the mesh flowers? Or maybe have colored petals blowing across the mesh, on the same dimension that the bird is on.
Maybe I could salvage this yet...
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Great list, you have considered lots of important factors. Â If I counted correctly you have 8 pros and 10 cons. The one thing I would like to mention is, if you decide to laser then get a cover up, in my experience the skin texture is different after the laser and the ink doesn't hold as nice, it almost looks muddy. I don't know if this is the case for every fade and cover up...just my experience. My tattoo is on my back where the skin is thin, much like the chest. I love the idea of adding color into the flowers, in fact that was my first thought. Glad you have your boyfriend there to help calm you and put things into perspective.Â

What I can tell you is that you are definitely not crazy. If you're crazy, then I'm crazy, and so is just about every other person I talked to on this site. I've felt physically ill, crazy sad, manic happy, super depressed and anxious...
Yes, I did end up telling my close family (parents & brother) but not right away, and it was difficult. I thought they would be ashamed of me or disappointed, but really they were just shocked and ended up being supportive. The one thing is, my mom likes my tattoo and doesn't understand why I want it removed. That's been hard to swallow, but I've come to the conclusion that how I feel about it is the absolute only thing that matters, it's my body, and I have to keep reminding myself that.
I've also been hiding my tattoo ever since I got it in it's current state last fall, even hiding it from myself. Although I've finally started loosening up, just a very tiny bit. Sometimes I'll actually have it show in public around strangers only, but not often. It's kind of a huge breakthrough for me.
How long have you been hiding your tattoo?
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Welcome to the community, I am thrilled that you found us. The decision to keep or remove your tattoo is a tough one, in which you ultimately have to decide on your own. In my opinion, it's best to wait to laser until you are 100% sure, as once you start  treatment it's unlikely you can stop. Have a look at this review, similar situation:Â
FULL ARM TATTOO, MAJOR REGRET, NOW WHAT TO DO...? - BOX HILL, AUSTRALIA
My experience, I knew that I wanted to start laser immediately and nothing could change my mind. I was sure that I could not grow to love my tattoo, it just was not me, and it was not executed nicely. Your tattoo is pretty, I love the hummingbird. It's smart that you listed your reasons of uncertainty, maybe what you could also do is a "reason to keep it" list...so essentially you are doing a pros and cons list. I did that, and the pro side won, and I started treatment. Tattoos are very personal, it shouldn't matter what others think of them (but I know that it does, we are human and we care what people think of us). As for it being trashy, I don't think a tattoo can make somebody look trashy. For me, it's all about the way somebody carries themselves, and when one exudes confidence that will over power anything you are wearing, your body size, or any tattoo you are showing. I realize that tattoos still carry a stigma with them and regardless of what your tattoo looks like, they do attract attention when they are visible. I was terrified of anyone seeing my tattoo (prior to my cover up) even the very tips I kept out of site with high collars. But now, because I am happy (key word "I") it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. I show it off proudly in my yoga classes, in the gym...people stare, some ask, others don't - but feel I have had only positive reactions to it so far, but that is probably because I am not worrying about the negative people that may judge. Essentially what it comes down to is you really have to be the one that accepts your tattoo. Good luck on whatever you decide. Oh,  you might find this interesting:Â
TATTOO TABOO: SOME PEOPLE LOVE TATTOOS, OTHERS WANT THEM GONE.
Hi, nothing is ever guaranteed when it comes to tattoo removal, everybody responds differently. I have pulled some examples for you from the site that have shown good results:Â
2 YRS POST LATE STAGE TATTOO REMOVAL~GIVE YOURSELF TIME (AND BE REALISTIC)
LEFT WITH A GHOST OF A TATTOO -SAN JOSE, CA
TATTOO REMOVAL SUCCESS - SACRAMENTO, CA
She is very close:Â MY TATTOO REMOVAL - 12 TREATMENTS SO FAR!
Have a read through this:Â
LASER TATTOO REMOVAL: 10 THINGS YOU SHOULD KNOW BEFORE GETTING YOUR TATTOO REMOVED
Tattoo Removal videos from RealSelf doctors
Hope you find this helpful, I know this is an emotionally draining experience to go through. This is a strong community for support, so be sure to keep us posted and feel free to share your thoughts anytime :)
Eva