Name: Now 50 and Wanting to Bring Sexy Back
Item: Steven Morris, MD
Rating: 2
Author: Sexy4Life

I'll be 50 years old in 5 months and want to feel...

1 Jun 2014
1 month pre

I'll be 50 years old in 5 months and want to feel completely sexy again. I'm tired of buying blouses too large in order for them to fit around my muffin top, and sitting in tub looking at my stomach on my lap (not sexy at all). Everything seems to made with that "hug your gutt" lycra in it. I know it's all doing of a man. Anyway, I've only given birth to one child (but I was almost 40) my oldest is adopted. I don't have hanging skin, but my belly can swell out after eating which causes me to look like I"m expecting, and hang down when I bend over (you know the look).

I live in Midland, MI (don't worry if you haven't heard of it), I'm new to the area, but heard that the PS here is really good. I'm originally from Houston, Texas, which has tons on good PS, but I want to be home for my recovery and follow up visits opposed to having to travel back to Houston. I don't have extended family here, so I will order a hospital bed and walker to help me get around. My husband and children (ages 15 and 11) promise to take care of me during my recovery.

I'm scheduled for my TT with MR and lipo on flanks on July 31. The cost covers procedure, pain ball, and one night overstay in the hospital. I'm afraid of pain and just hope that I don't back out before the surgery date. I'm 5'8, 154 lbs.

30 day countdown to the flat side

2 Jul 2014
28 days pre

My procedure is scheduled for July 31st. I can't believe how fast the time has come. To be honest, I'm excited and scared at the same time. My biggest fears are (1). The Pain and (2). being disappointed in my results.
I've been reluctant to tell many people about my procedure because the ones I've told doesn't see why I need the procedure because I have a slender build. Needless to say, I've learned how to hide my belly well by wearing high waist pants and larger tops. However, I realize that I'm doing the procedure for myself so it doesn't matter what others think.

During my initial consultation the PS said that I would have a pain bulb about the surgery. However, I've since asked him for the Experal injection instead. Research has shown that it's more effective for managing pain which in turn aides to faster recovery.

In preparation for my surgery I've been watching my diet, going to the gym and drinking plenty of water. I'm also doing the 30 day squat challenge and I'm up to 100 squats a day.

I'm glad that I found this forum to help me through this journey.

Pre Op today, waiting to exhale.

16 Jul 2014
14 days pre

I woke up this morning anxious about my pre-op appointment and I got a little emotional. I know most of it contributed to Ms PMS filling my head with lies about how I can get my stomach flat on my own only if I commit to going to the gym more often. Fear almost made me call and cancel my appointment until I decided to take my own pre op pictures. Well, I can tell you that pictures do not lie.

I had even shaved Ms Lady Part in hopes to make things look better, to only having it look like a rat with a Mohawk. However, I took pictures anyway.

I'm a master of sucking in until it's become the norm for my breathing pattern. However, the pictures are accurate of my stomach at full exhale. Not a pretty site. There is nothing sexy about having my stomach on my lap when I sit down. Anyway, after looking at these pictures, I snapped back into reality and went to my Pre Op appointment; which was great. The PS and nurse answered with patience all of the 15 questions I had written down which put me at ease.

My surgery is scheduled for July 31st. I'm no longer getting the Solice pain bulb, I asked for the Deperal shot instead, which I've read have better pain management results. Two more weeks and I'll be over to the "flat" side. I can't wait to exhale.

Outrageous price quote for Exparel njection

19 Jul 2014
11 days pre

I just received a call from the hospital quoting me $900 for the Exparel injection. I had asked my PS for the Exparel injection versus the Solice pain bulb because I read that it provides better pain management. The pain bulb was $280 which now sounds cheap compared to Exparel.

I researched online and everything I've read says that the prices should be compatible to one another. I currently live in a small town and I know that the price grudging is because of the monopoly of the one hospital here.

Let me know if anyone else has been quoted a price for the Exparel injection.

I'm headed to Europe for a week and will deal with this when I return. I've asked my PS if he can negotiate a lower price. Wish me luck.

Cleaner eating after TT

22 Jul 2014
8 days pre

I think it's important for us to remind one another that if we don't make a lifestyle change with exercise and eating cleaner foods that it's unrealistic to think that a TT is a cure all. It's true that we may not ever have stomach fat again, but we could easily develop unwanted fat in other areas. The fat has to go somewhere.

I'm currently in Europe, my kids are attending a basketball camp. I know that sounds like an oxymoron for someone to travel from America to attend a basetball camp in Switzerland of all places. But we use to live here for two years and just returned back to the States last summer. Yes, I know it's also strange to hear that black people lived in Switzerland, but stranger things can happen in life.

Anyway, I've always been conscience about my stomach pooch after having my son 11 yrs ago, but I don't recall feeling as rounded in my middle when I lived here . According to the scale, I've only gained 3 lbs over the last year, but I think my weight has shifted and settled around my middle.

I think the biggest difference is the food is cleaner, fresher and less processed here. Tonight I had pasta for dinner which would normally cause me a lot of gas and bloating , but tonight it didn't. I could taste the difference in the freshness of the food. For me I know I just don't want to come this site a year from now and show off my flat stomach but have to hide my big butt because of unclean eating.

My procedure is next Thursday and I return on Monday, but tomorrow I will start with cleaner eating in preparation for the new me. Wish me luck.

AwwHHH!!! Accidentally took 2 ibuprofens and surgery is in 3 days

28 Jul 2014
2 days pre

After my long trip from Europe on Sunday, I arrived home with a splitting headache. Without thinking I took two Ibuprofens and went to bed. It wasn't until this morning that I remembered that I wasn't suppose to take any medication with aspirin 2 weeks prior to my surgery. My period stated today, so now I understand why I had a headache (what else can go wrong??!@#$% Surgery is scheduled for in 3 days. I hope I do not have to cancel, because this is the only window I had to do the procedure. I have an appointment to talk with the PS tomorrow. Feeling stressed overwhelmed and bloated.

Two more days to go

29 Jul 2014
1 day pre

Just two more days before I cross over to the flat side. I spoke with the nurse today and she said that I did not have to reschedule surgery since I accidentally took two Ibuprofen tablets (that was a close one). Anyway, I got my hospital bed delivered today and before leaving the delivery guy said a prayer for me. It took all I had not to crawl up in the hospital bed and cry my eyes out. God is so good for sending him to assure me that everything would be okay because he is in charge. Thank you Lord.

Again, I'm getting a full TT, with MR and lipo on flanks. The doctor's fee is
$7,800 and the hospital fee is $5,900 for (procedure room, 1 overnight stay, anesthesia and exparel injection) which totals $13,700.

I have a hospital bed, walker, toilet set riser, stool softener, peroxide, and silicone strips. I will run out today to get granny panties, meds, surgical tape and gauze. I hope I'm not forgetting anything. I'm so ready.

One day to show time ;Tomorrow is the big day

30 Jul 2014
1 day pre

I'm so ready to cross over to the flat side. To document my progress to flatness, I took a few pictures today as a baseline so I can compare later. The way I look in these pictures makes me want to head straight to the butcher and get this gut cut out today. Maybe if I weren't on my period I wouldn't look so bloated. Thanks my excuse and sticking with it. Don't worry, I never wore these before with Spanxs and sucking in. I also weighed in today at 155 lbs. Surgery is scheduled for noon and all of my prayers have already been answered. Talk to you soon.

Surgery cancelled, ahhhhhhh

30 Jul 2014
1 day pre

Just received phone call that doctor has to cancel surgery because he hurt his hand. I'm screaming inside because I was emotionally ready. At this time, not sure when it will be rescheduled. Feeling very sad and disappointed, but definitely don't want him cutting on me with a bad hand.

Yeahh, Oh nooo, surgery is tomorrow

31 Jul 2014
Day of treatment

I'm back on the roller coaster. My surgery is now scheduled for tomorrow. I just hope Dr. Happy Hands doesn't show up with his hand in a cast, lol. I told them I wasn't in a rush I wanted to make sure he's healed. The office told me that he was out all week and wanted an extra day to rest his hand is why my surgery was cancelled for today. Ya'll please pray that his hand is not shaking or goes numb while he's cutting me. Lord, why you give me something else to worry about. I'm just going to take my "chill pill" he prescribed and call it a night.

I have everything really ready now so I just I did need the extra day. Here is a picture of the hospital bed that I've parked right in the middle of the family room. As you can see, my son is enjoying it. Up and down, up and down. You would think he didn't have a bed. He's going to hate it when I have to return it. I could never understand why kids get excited about hospital beds, wheel chairs, and hotel rooms. Oh well, I guess it's not everyday you get to have an electric bed in your family room.

Forgot to attach photo

31 Jul 2014
Day of treatment

It's that time

1 Aug 2014
1 day post

I'm here in the hospital in my room waiting for them to come get. Everything has gone smooth so far until I heard somebody outside my door saying, oh God and moaning like a wounded animal. It's freaking me out. Now somebody is coughing like they have the whooping cough. What have I gotten myself into.

I made it over !!!!!!!!

2 Aug 2014
2 days post

I spent one day overnight at hospital and now I'm home. No real pain such tightness and soreness. I'm now able to go to bathroom on my own. Thank God for fully electric hospital bed, walker and toilet seat riser.

I had a lot of problems with neasea, which I expected because I have problems with imbalance and motion sickness. I was just spinning but didn't throw up.

I'm dosing off again so I'll update more later. Thanks for all your warm wishes and prayers. Thank God I made it through.

Day 2 at home after overnight in hospital

4 Aug 2014
4 days post

Yesterday, was my day 2 at home from hospital. By day 2 I was able to get out hospital bed and go to bathroom unassisted but with walker.

Not much of an appetite Just eating a lot of fruit and peanut butter for protein. Still no pain just tightness and soreness. I'm not able to take shower until after drains are removed.

Day 3 at home

4 Aug 2014
4 days post

I'm trying to catch up and provide updates on my progress in hopes to help someone with their decision to cross over to the flat side.
Today is day 3 at home and I've been awake almost all day. I hadn't taken any pain pills today except for Tylenol extra strength.

I've popped today, the stool softener and being hydrated from I.V. has helped. I'm walking more upright and I have my follow up with my PS tomorrow . I haven't taken a peek yet but I feel a lot smaller because my binder is now loose and not fitting as tight.

Decisions I'm glad I made

4 Aug 2014
4 days post

I'm glad that I had overnight stay at hospital. I was given Bear Claw heated gown and socks, automatic compression boots that massaged my legs to prevent blood clots, IV to keep me hydrated and IV morphin drip for pains management.
2. Exparel injection: cost was $900 but a life saver and worth every penny. Virtual pain free just tightness and stiffness.
3. Hospital bed, bedside table, walker and toilet seat riser for home. All these has allowed me to be more independent and mobile.
4. Get in shape prior to surgery. I had started lifting weights to strengthen core and build upper arm strength.

Day 4, first look

5 Aug 2014
5 days post

Today is day 4 and my first look at my incision. I had follow up visit today with DR but drains won't come out until next Tuesday. So far, I'm very pleased. I'm sitting down and still look very flat and the nurse told me that I was swollen, but had very little bruising and irregularities in the smoothness. Incision is very low at top of hairline. I can't wait to continue to document my progress. It felt good to get out of today for a short 10 min drive to the doctor's office but I still plan to take it really slow. Don't want to rush the recovery. Husband returned to work today after dr's appointment.

One Week Post Op Celebration and Farewell to Gertrude

8 Aug 2014
8 days post

Today I'm celebrating my week 1 post op TT procedure, the day I said my final good-bye to Gertrude (aka my Gut). Gertrude was mean, stubborn an downright rude. Often times she craved pasta with heavy cream and promised that she would behave once I fed her, but she was also a compulsive liar. As soon as I ate the pasta, she would expand her arms and legs to see how big she could get. She wasn't happy until she forced to me unbutton my pants so that she could be free. Other times she would wait until I got around others to decided to climb out from other my spanx and just sit on top of the waistband of my pants. I told you she was mean. So do I miss her you ask? Absolutely not.

Even though, I'm hunched over like my 80 yr old grandmother, have an aching back pain like my grandfather (God Bless their soles), I know that in time I will be able to show off my stomach like I'm a teenager. Today, she is temporarily replaced by a white itchy binder, but please note come this summer, she will be shown off in a 2 pc bikini. Farewell Gertrude, you control me no more.

Day 8

9 Aug 2014
9 days post

I saw up most of the day alternated sitting in different chairs inside, got sunshine on the patio was awhile and went for a short car ride. That sounds simple but oh boy, I'm paying for it. I'm swollen and feel like I'm going to pop, plus I have a burning sensation at the front of my incision. I just had to use my walker to go to the bathroom. Guess who will be staying in bed most of the day tomorrow. I'm started to feel frustration because I ELECTED to put my body through this. Please remind me that there is a flat stomach at the end of this rainbow journey.

Another Disappointment today

12 Aug 2014
12 days post

I was excited to get my drains out today, the but got a call 1 hr before my appointment advising me that my appointment needed to be rescheduled for tomorrow.

This is one thing I do not like about the PS office, they seem to always have to postpone or reschedule appointments which cause a roller coaster of emotions.

Day 11

12 Aug 2014
12 days post

Today I feel like a new person. I was able to put on a nice sundress which hid my drains. I taped the tubes to the side of my leg so they wouldn't hang below my dress. It felt strange doing this, because I felt like a man trying to hide is PENIS, lol. Oh well the things we have to do.

Anyway, I was able to curl my hair, put on some much needed makeup and cook a basic meal. I'm now resting for the rest of the day, but it feels good to almost look and feel like ME again.

Morning protein Smoothie

13 Aug 2014
13 days post

Pineapple Mango smoothie with coconut water, vanilla protein and flaxseed. Yummy

Day 13 drains still in

14 Aug 2014
14 days post

Went to PS office yesterday to get drains removed but I was still draining too much 35 CC. It needs to be below 30 CC total in 24 hr period before they can be removed. They said maybe by tomorrow but I might just wait until Monday to be on the safe side. I don't want them to be removed prematurely and have to get them drained manually with a needle.

I'm feeling much better today, not as sore and walking more upright. The adjustable hospital bed gives my back the proper support which helps.

FYI, hospital bed rental

14 Aug 2014
14 days post

I'm doing laundry so decided to share a photo of my hospital bed. It came with the greenish mattress which is really thin, so I added the grey twin futon type mattress from IKEA on top which provides the right amount of softness and support.

I lower the bed and raise the back to a compete sitting position to get in and out. Once I'm in, I raise the legs which provides arch at the knee ( relieves pressure off my back) and I lower the head to about 45 degree angle.

The bed rental was $160 for 1
Month which included bed, mattress, side rails , delivery and set up.

Just FYI, in case someone is considering bed vs recliner.

2 weeks Post Op

15 Aug 2014
15 days post

Today is POD14, which cause for a small celebration. I've decided to let my drains stay in until Monday since I've only had one reading that was below the min mark.

I'm not complaining because I'm thankful that I'm not in any pain and things could be a lot worse.

Anyway, here are some POD14 pictures. Glue is stating to peel and I still have stitches in BB. I'm swollen more on the left side and I just figured out why. I'm right handed. So I wrap my binder from right to left which makes the right side tighter. So today, I switched and went from left to right and already feel a difference.

Photo app to hide Sugar Cookies

15 Aug 2014
15 days post

I used a free app called Aviary in my last photo post which has stickers that you can place on your photos to hide your "sugar cookies" in case you don't want to share your goodies with the world.

Once in the app, go to edit photo then select stickers and slide it across the cookie you want to hide. You can enlarge or reduce the size. Just FYI.

2 week post update

16 Aug 2014
16 days post

Yesterday evening I drove for the first time since the procedure and even went to the mall. Well, it was just one store but it was still in the mall. My daughter who hates to shop for dying to show me a shirt she liked in the mall. So because I'm such a good mother, I hobbled along and took her to the mall. Thank God, I found a chair as soon as we entered the store. Few hundred dollars later, I walked out looking like a 90 yr old grandmother. Felt like I was carrying the world on my back. My moderate pace had soon shifted to a turtle crawl. It felt so good to sit in the car with the seat against my back. Oh well, she was happy so I had to take one for the team. She has been my servant for the past two weeks, but I now think that we are even.

Incision Inspection Regret

16 Aug 2014
16 days post

For the first time since my procedure, I stood in front of a full length mirror and inspected my body. Oh no is right, why would I ever do something like that. You know the saying, "you get what you'll looking for?" Well, I
Managed to find several imperfections. I have imbalance issues which causes the feeling of motion sickness if I feel off balanced. I'm one of those people who has to straighten pictures and center things and can't read in a car. My poor husband.

Anyway, upon inspection I noticed that my BB seems off centered and my incision is uneven. Upon seeing this I wanted to faint. I knew better than to look, but the devil took over and there I was staring at myself in the mirror. The left side starts off straight then goes upward towards my hip. The right side is nice and low. I'm also more swollen on the left side so I don't know if this makes a difference.

With the room spinning I had to complete the madness, so I decided to try on swimsuit bottoms. Yes it was challenging with drains still in tow, but I had to do it. The scar is barely below the waistband and these weren't even tiny bikini bottoms or sexy panties. I know I will end up with a flat stomach but I don't want an obvious scar. Where is that perfect world that offers perfect bodies?

My very first time; Today I did it and it was awful

17 Aug 2014
17 days post

Everyone remembers their very first time down to the not so glory details of where it happened. I vowed, like so many before me that I would never do it, but It Just Happened. Others had talked about it and shared their experience, but I knew nothing I could do to prepare me for what I feared most, the pain of when it happened.

Well, today was my day, I did it and it was awful. I really tried to avoid it but it kept coming at me like something in the movies. I closed my eyes and greeted my teeth and waited for the unexpected. I felt it creeping through my body until it reached to point of no return, my nose. Kachewww, there was the dead awful sneeze. OMG, the pain ricocheted through my stomach like a ping pong machine. The pain started at the top of my abdominal and bounced from left to right, hitting every muscle and nerve ending that stood in it's way until it completed its way through my core.

I've been blessed not to have had any pain associated with my TT procedure, so the only thing I can imagine that this would compare to is labor pains. But please note, I said compare because I hate pain and avoid it all cost. I had 4 epidurals just to have one 5 lb baby, so I never really experienced labor pains.

Well, at least it's over with and I've gotten it out of the way. However, I hope to never experience this again. So I vow again, not to ever sneeze, cough, laugh, or blow until my 1 yr recovery anniversary. Wish me luck.

2 wks/3 dys- Devil Drains Removed

18 Aug 2014
18 days post

I got my drains removed, I got my drains removed and yes, I'm doing the Holy Ghost dance. No more devil drains sucking the life out of me. I feel like a new woman, a sense of freedom like I've just been paroled or something. It's crazy but I even feel healthier.
It does something to your self esteem when you have to walk around with tubes swinging from your sugar cookies oozing out foreign liquids in balloons that are attached to your hip. The thing we have to do.

The difficult part when the nurse had to cut the sutures from around the drains. Brace yourself; Hair had grown into the sutures in addition to crust from fluid build up. The nurse had to remove this hot mess prior to removing the drains. Some people may say that it's uncomfortable but to me it was painful. Not painful, that would make me want to cry, but painful like, damn I just stumped my toe kind of painful. Plus Since I had my drains in for over two weeks, I was no longer numb in the sugar cookie area. It was also a weird feeling to feel the drains snake through your insides to come out. It was quick. Thank God for small favors. Anyway, I came right home after my dr's appointment and colored my hair. Can't have a flat stomach and grey hair; doesn't make sense and I took a long much needed shower.

My shower has a built in seat and removable shower head, so I leaned my head to the side and washed out the color so it so wouldn't run down into my incision. I'm a happy new woman.

Week 3 Update

22 Aug 2014
22 days post

Yes, that's me progressing and improving each week. I still have swelling and more on the left side with rounded bottom. The nice glow on my skin is not from the lighting , oils or lotions. My skin is pulled so tight until it illuminates a shine.

Incision is still higher in left side than right but hey, I rather the incision than belly bulge or loose skin. Here are a few pictures .

New CG is so tight I have to switch to binder for later part of the day. Next Follow up visit is Tuesday.

I'm a big girl, I slept in my own bed.

24 Aug 2014
24 days post

Last night I was a big girl and slept in my own bed. Well, at least part of the night, that is before my
Husband came to bed. He started snoring and wheezing that wind blowing through a broken widow until I had to get up and leave. He's been so good to me I would feel bad if I kicked him out and made him sleep on the sofa or in guest room. Anyway, for the few short hours it was comfortable. I three pillows under my head and a wedge pillow under my knees. I still slept on my back and in my binder.

I've noticed that I'm improving each day. Today, I was able to go to church and lunch afterwards. Sitting in a booth feels better on my back than in a chair.

I switch between my binder, high waist (breast area) control panties and control garment. I also started massaging my incision with vitamin E oil. I will ask PS when I can start using silicone strips or Mepitac tape.

I still have scabs and some glue along my incision and scabs and dissolvable sutures around my bb.

Good idea gone bad

25 Aug 2014
25 days post

Well today I woke up with the bright idea that I should take a nice warm bath. My garden tub lied to me and told me that it only looked deeper than it actually was. After I ran my warm bath, I was excited to emerge myself slowly into the tub. As I started my descend, the tub seemed to get deeper and deeper. After I finically reached the bottom of the seemed like 6 ft tub, I knew that it was no longer a good idea.

The sides seemed to get wider and I was unable to hold on to the edge. My body is like a plastic baby doll, you know the plastic ones like Barbie that has movable arms and legs but the middle doesn't bend. Yeap, that's me. So I couldn't actually sit in the tub, but instead recline backwards with my head resting against the back. Well that worked until my head began to slide. I felt myself slowly beginning to slide into the water. I didn't want to panic, and my cell phone was feet away on the bathroom counter. I kept staring at it as if I would all of a sudden gain special powers and make it come to me.

Yelling wouldn't have helped either, because my bedroom and bathroom doors were closed, Plus since surgery, I hadn't been able to yell because I now become winded. A new benefit my kids are enjoying.

Anyway, I prayed that I wouldn't die before I had a chance to enjoy my flat stomach, plus I didn't want anyone to discover my body floating upside down and be shocked when they saw my half shaven swollen sugar cookie that now resembles a fat rat with a Mohawk. I willed myself to live and decided to let out all the water. Then I was able to brace myself with one hand as I rocked my body sideways, until I was able to reach the sides. I still do not know how my Barbie Doll body was able to bend so I could stand up, but I did. My relaxing bath almost turned into the latest episode on 1,000 ways to die. I'm just thankful that I'm alive to tell you about it. Guess who's taking a shower tomorrow?

After TT look different than I imagined

28 Aug 2014
28 days post

Okay tomorrow will be 4 weeks post and it doesn't seem that I will have the results that I desired. My stomach still bows out but now just at lower abdominal. I know what they say about recovery time, swelling, and being patient, blah blah blah. I paid my money and I want to be flat NOW. Is this too much to ask? Drains, off centered belly button, swelling, healing, more swelling ; where does the fine print stop? When I thought I done my research and knew all about the TT procedure and recovery, it seems like I discover something new each day. Oh well, I had to vent. I'm just afraid that I'm going to be disappointed in my final results. I'm second guessing everything from having the procedure to choosing my PS. Everyone else seems to flatter with definition. I feel so boxy.

And on top of it all, I found this picture on the internet. Just why can't I look like this? Maybe I'm just PMSing and need nap.

4 weeks celebration some things I didn't know

29 Aug 2014
29 days post

I made it to the 4 weeks mark. It was long on one hand but seem short on another. I've had a couple of down days where I threw myself a couple of pity parties, but thanks to all of my RS sisters for bringing me back to reality and keep me sane. Love you guys.

Now that I"m 4 weeks, I'm now recalling 4 important things that I didn't know or just not fully understand. I call this the fine print. So here it goes.

1. Didn't really understand, Drains. I knew that I would have drains, but didn't really understand what that really meant. Didn't realize that I would have to walk around with balloons filled with fluids safety pinned to my waist, with tubes coming out of my Sugar Cookie. One of the most uncomfortable places to put them. I had to sit with my legs open like I was trying to cool off after a bad yeast infection. Plus, no one mentioned that I would have to empty them. I have a weak stomach, but I made it through. Fine Print.

2. No where is it mentioned that after SX, I would have problems REACHING MY OWN BUTT?? You don't want to know the details. Fine print.

3. Back Pain. Yes, I was told that I would be hunched over for a few days, blah blah blah, but no where was it mentioned that I would feel like I was carrying a small village on my back. Fine Print.

4. Sleeping position. Sleeping on my back made the missionary position seem exotic. My sleeping position resembled more of a dead body in a casket, except my legs were gapped open like I was swimming the breast stroke. This position helped my back but killed my butt which now resembles a pancake. Fine Print.

Anyway, I'm still celebrating my 4 weeks because I'm thankful that I made it. I will attach a few before and after pictures to show my progress.

Constipation War Zone

6 Sep 2014
2 months post

The other night I wanted to feel normal again, so I attempted to sleep on my side. To get situated, I had to place a small pillow under my side and one at my back in an attempt to feel comfortable. But I had forgotten that I had taken a laxative because I hadn't pooped in three days because I had stopped taking my stool softeners.

First of all, I've never been a good pooper. But since my SX and taking stool softeners I had started pooping everyday and it felt good. Anyway, by laying on my side I must have pushed on a gas pocket. Sharp gas pains started shooting through me like I was being shot at in a war zone. I moaned and rocked like a cow in labor. I was sleeping in the guest room because of my husbands' snoring, toss and turning. This is another story at another time. So I decided to try to walk it out. As soon as I put a foot on the floor, my legs buckled. The gas pains were firing through my sugar cookie and if they couldn't find the right hole to exit. Okay, don't act like I'm the only who has had gas pains in the "sugar cookie" area before. Okay, maybe not.

I tried to rub my stomach to relieve the pain but since it was numb, I didn't make a difference if I had rubbed my stomach or the bedpost for that matter. It took me about 10 minutes to walk to my bedroom to look for some gas X, as I took bent over breaks along the way. I prayed to Baby Jesus in the Golden Diaper, "Lord help relieve me in the midnight hour." He was the only one who could deliver me from this excruciating pain. And when I walked into my room, there he was, my husband snoring like a grizzly bear oblivious to my pain and my final walk towards Glory.

The pistol pains kept firing even after I took 4 Gas X tablets, so I decided to put a suppository up my butt to help me poop. Have you ever had a suppository to stay up your butt and not come out? I didn't think this was normal. But just between my RS sisters, I have no idea where mine went. Hope it was up the right hole (enough said.)

After facing death, I decided to use an enema. Not sure if it were safe to use after losing a suppository, but I was desperate. Finally relief. I expelled gas and had so much fireworks to come out of my butt, one would have thought it was a fourth of July celebration.

Well, to make a long story short my RS sisters, even if you are feeling better and look 90% healed on the outside, no not stop taking your stool softeners. By the way, I'm still sleeping on my back. Happy Day!!

6 weeks milestone

15 Sep 2014
2 months post

Last Friday way my six weeks anniversary. I'm not where I want to be but I thank God I'm a lot better from where I started.

I've been crazy busy so I don't have time to write much. I'll write a proper post in a couple of days. I just wanted to make sure that I documented my 6 weeks.

I hate the way my bb is forming, I go back to the PS for him to check it out next week. Also, still have swelling in lower abdomen and flanks. The best part is on the six week date exactly, I'm
Now able to sleep on my sides.

Photos outside of collage

16 Sep 2014
2 months post

The pictures in the collage are hard to see so I'm posting them separately.

6 weeks recap

16 Sep 2014
2 months post

Before sx I remember focusing my goal on 6 weeks, because after all the PS said that by the 6th week I would be able to resume all normal activity. Well, that's a lie and some more small print for you. Yes, I'm way better than I was on week one but far from being 100% on week six. I play tennis, I'm no Serena Williams but I can't even imagine trying to run after a little yellow ball.

Last week I opened a window and had to get my 11 yr old son to close it for me. However, on week six I was able to take a 5 hr road trip to Ohio for a football game. What's even better, just minutes before we left my husband informed me that his parents would be there. Oh what joy. I suddenly felt like someone had jumped on my shoulders. Just the thought of their judgmental eyes were enough to weigh me down. Anyway, I survived and it felt good to get out of Michigan for the weekend.

Okay, here's the recap

Week One:
Hunched over like I was looking for something on the ground
Shortness of breath (like I had been running)
Aches and soreness ( like I had been beaten with a stick)
Slept on back in hospital bed
Challenges wiping my own butt (no comment).

Week Two:
Hunched over but a little more upright
Able to drive short distances ( although stomach felt like it was going to fly out the door during turns)
Able to go upstairs
Still slept on back in hospital bed

Week 3
Walking upright but tilted forward
Still soreness and back pain
Slept on back in hospital bed

Week 4
Walked tilted
Occasional back aches
Sore flanks
Started scar treatment ( pure cocoa butter and mepitac silicone/paper tape)
Slept of back with pillows in my own bed
Had sex, nothing fancy ( I was scared like a nun in a nightclub)

Week 5
Slept on back
Still soreness on flanks
Noticed changes in BB
Noticed side rolls ( prayed for swelling and not fat)

Week 6
Able to take long car ride
Still soreness and stiffness after sitting for long periods
Able to sleep on sides with knees raised (in fetal position)

7 week update

19 Sep 2014
2 months post

The past couple of days I've been experiencing a little more soreness and pain in my upper abs (middle, below breast). I think it's because I've been sleeping on my sides and experience the feeling of pulling when my legs are not in the fetal position. So, I started wearing my binder to bed and that seems to help. Other than that, not much else has changed.

I've been using Mepitac silicone strips. It's a combination of tape (similar to 3m Micropore tape) and silicone, which gives me best of both products. I like the Mepitac stips because it comes in a roll and I can cut it as needed, plus the best part is that it stays on in the shower.

I put on a new strip every Monday, yes it can stay on for one full week without pulling your skin off once it's removed. After removal, I massage my incision with pure cocoa butter. After 30 min or so once the cocoa butter is absorbed, I put on new strip. Also, to help soothe the tightness of my lower abdomen I either rub the cocoa butter on it or organic coconut oil (sometimes both).

No new issues with BB. I cover it with the mephitic tape ( out of site, out of mind). Things I have to do to remain sane.
I normally cut the roll of tape down the middle which makes it thin enough to cover incision. Also, you get more on the roll for your money by cutting.

Week 7
Able to take a bath
Still wear control brief during the day/night
Occasionally wear binder to bed at night
Walk hunched over when I first wake up in the morning or after sitting for long period of time
Still soreness in flanks
Still experience swelling in lower abdomen
Enjoying wearing smaller fitted shirts

Belly button looks like Mr. Bill

19 Sep 2014
2 months post

Okay, call me crazy, but I hate looking at my belly button. Each time I look at it, it looks like it's saying "Oh noooo" which makes my stomach look like Mr. Bill from Saturday Night Live.

Don't act like I'm the only one who remembers that show. So to shut up Mr. Bill, I cover him up with tape. I can't believe I got rid of "Gertrude" my gut to have Mr. Bill come in her replacement. I tried to smother Gertrude in girdles, only for her to climb out in front of company and say "surprise." I have to stop this, no way I'm going to let Mr. Bill run my life.

And how does he expect my husband to get in the mood when he's looking up at him yelling "ohh nooo?" It's bad enough, I have to removed my binder, arrange my pillows and position myself just right, just to have sex. This can't be happening too, I need to take control. So for the time being, I have to shut the mouth of Mr. Bill with mepitac tape. "Ohoo Nooo," he screams.

First Day Back in Gym

24 Sep 2014
2 months post

I'm 7 1/2 weeks and today was my first day back in the gym. I took it slow by starting off 10 min on stationary bike before weights. I used machines and did no more than 25 lbs on arms and 30 on legs. I quickly realized that I couldn't do any that required reaching over my head or pulling both arms together. Sorry
Not gym savvy so I don't know the proper names. I did best with leg machines and rowing type machines for my arms.

I completed about a 45 min workout without any problems. I noticed the normal end of day swelling, but real issues. I also wore my control garment during my workout.

At almost 8 weeks/2 months, this is my first attempt at any form
of exercise. I think I'm pain free because I didn't rush back into the gym.

Perfect Panties

25 Sep 2014
2 months post

The panties I've been wearing since PO are hipsters No Muffin Too by Warner's. I like that they don't come up really high, but covers my incision perfectly.

They can be purchased at Target 6 for $20 or Kohl's for $11.50 each. Kohl's has more colors but I only buy them from there when they are on sale for but one/get one free and with a coupon.

They stay in place all day and don't roll down at waist or ride up at the butt.

Just an FYI

Constant Incision Massages

25 Sep 2014
2 months post

I massage my incision all the time until it has become second nature even without thinking about it. With or without clothes on, I'll massage my incision. At home or in the car, I'll massage my incision.

Well, this has all been all fine and dandy until I forgot where I was and started massaging my incision in church on Sunday. I had on pants and a tunic type of top that came down past my waist.

I was oblivious to my actions as I had my hand under my blouse and was massaging my incision in small circular motions. Have you ever been in a position when you felt an entire crowd staring at you? Well, this is what I experienced when I looked to my left and saw what seemed like a thousand evil devil eyes staring and frowning at me. At first, I didn't see what warranted their attention, but quickly realized that it was my massages which look more like an act of public masturbation.

Here's the picture. My hand was hidden underneath my shirt, low far past my BB, moving in small circular motions. Yeap, now I can see how it appeared to be a case of public masturbation to them.

I was horrified and frozen in the moment of "what should I do now." I tried to ease my hand upward towards my belly button in an attempt to rub my belly to fake a stomach ache. Well, since my stomach is still numb, I couldn't tell if I was rubbing my stomach or the church pew for that matter.

Most people stopped staring when I eased my hand out from under my shirt, with the exception of one old lady who kept looking at me with eyes saying, "nasty ass." What was the sermon about you ask? I have no idea, the only thing I could concentrate on was leaving immediately right after church. I knew that I wouldn't have a problem with anyone wanting to talk to me or shake my hand after church anyways.

I tried to earn "extra heaven points" by attending a new church in the first place. Did I mention that I was a visitor and live in a city which lacks diversity, so I already looked like a raisin in milk? Oh well, I don't have to worry about them asking me to join and at least I completed my incision massages for the day.

8 weeks update

27 Sep 2014
2 months post

I finally made 8 weeks/2 months on yesterday. Went to PS earlier this week for him to look at my BB, AKA Mr. Bill. He only advised that I massage it several times a day. No Shit Sherlock, I already massage it but I don't think that will change the fact that it looks like a bullet hole, like I've been shot in the stomach.

I also asked him to look at butter rolls on my lower back which should have been included under the description of "lipo flanks." I called him out on it and told him that I don't think that area was lipo'd at all. He says, that he couldn't lipo in that area because it was too close to nerve endings, Bull Crap*%^#@. I'm disappointed that I didn't get what I paid for $1,900 for lipo of flanks. I can also pinch some skin on my right side. Again, he will not consider in office revision until my 3 month visit. Don't worry, I'm making a list of things I need to discuss on my next visit. Lord knows he doesn't know that I'm not the type of person who will easily go away. Pray for him. He also said that stomach isn't completely flat because I could be bloated, instead of fat or swollen. Will start poop remedy to see if that helps.

Incision is not flat in some areas. PS is from internal sutures and will flatten once they dissolve.

Good News. These are so things that I was able to do this week. Again, I'm at 8 weeks but things listed are accomplishments after week 7, if that makes sense.

1. Return to gym: stationary bike, weight machines. Still unable to lift over head of do lap pull. Able to do 25 lbs on arms and 30 on legs.
2. Flanks are no longer sore. I massage them with Arnica gel apprx 2/day.
3. Able to bend forward.
4. Walking completely upright.
5. Still wearing CG during day and binder at night
6. Still notice swelling, not completely flat as I would like to be.
7. Still have butter rolls on lower back
8. Massaging BB with pure cocoa butter, no changes noticed.
9. FEEL 95% healed on outside and 90% on the inside. (yeah!!)
10. Start taking Magnesium to increase pooping to see if it'll help flatten stomach.
11. Still using Mepetic tape; like the way my incision is looking.

Happy Monday

29 Sep 2014
2 months post

Just a little Monday Morning humor. Have a great day RS sisters and iMath.

Squats to recovery lost booty after TT

1 Oct 2014
3 months post

30 day squat challenge

3:28

I've seen ads on the internet and pictures on milk cartons for those looking for their lost booty after having undergone the TT procedure. Well, you are not alone. I am also looking to find by booty and in hopes making it firmer and better once I do.

Today is the first of the month so I ask you to join me in the 30 day squat challenge. Squats benefits the overall lower body but especially help firm up the buttocks.

I'm glad that I did squats pre SX because I was able to use my legs to squat down and get thing post SX because I couldn't bend my middle.

I've posted the chart and a video.

30 day Squat Challenge Calendar

1 Oct 2014
3 months post

You do not have to do all your daily squats at once. I do them in sets of 10 or 25. I do 25, wait 1 min then do 25 more, and repeat. You can break it up however you like just get'em done. Also, if you miss a day, you can make it up on your "Rest" day.

Day 1 50
Day 2 55
Day 3 60
Day 4 Rest
Day 5 70
Day 6 75
Day 7 80
Day 8 Rest
Day 9 100
Day 10 105
Day 11 110
Day 12 Rest
Day 13 130
Day 14 135
Day 15 140
Day 16 Rest
Day 17 150
Day 18 155
Day 19 160
Day 20 Rest
Day 21 180
Day 22 185
Day 23 190
Day 24 Rest
Day 25 220
Day 26 225
Day 27 230
Day 28 Rest
Day 29 240
Day 30 250

Protect Hair from Breakage and Shedding after Surgery

6 Oct 2014
3 months post

After surgery you may notice shedding, breakage and dryness in your hair. Anesthesia has a profound effect on the body. It puts the body into a state of unconsciousness and relaxes muscles and affects hair follicles. Hair follicles contain cells that are some of the fastest dividing and developing cells of the body. They have to divide fast to maintain the growth of hair fiber. Anesthesia blocks this rapid cell division. While the application of anesthesia to an individual may only be for a few hours, the hair follicles may be affected to such a degree that they shut down hair fiber production and enter a telogen resting state. A telogen effluvium type of hair loss is the result.”

The relationship between major surgery and anesthesia is the cause of hair loss. Major surgery such as a TT procedure is an extreme physical shock to the body. Therefore, after surgery your body is struggling to repair itself. Most nutrients are diverted to repairing essential organs and reorganizing the structural integrity of the body. Hair follicles are not vitally important for survival so they often lose out as nutrients are diverted elsewhere. Without a good supply of nutrients the hair follicles slow down or even stop activity completely. This may lead to a progressive hair loss noticeable up to three months after the surgery has taken place.” {Source: Desai SP, Roaf ER. Telogen effluvium after anesthesia and surgery. Anesth Analg. 1984 Jan;63(1):83-4.}

Therefore, to help protect your hair from excessive dryness, shedding and breakage you should start by washing it with a hydrating (sulfate free) shampoo and applying a deep conditioner two to four weeks before surgery, in addition to taking hair and nail vitamins.

Post surgery, you should continue with washing with a hydrating (sulfate free) shampoo and apply a deep or reconstructive conditioner after each washing.

Coloring hair can cause additional dryness. So if possible, color your hair prior to sx. I made the mistake and colored mine as soon as I was able to take my first shower and my hair started shedding and breaking like an shagging dog. If I combed my hair 1,000 times a/day, it would shed 1,000 times a/day. The vitamins and deep conditioners has helped my hair recover.

Below are two types of hair and nail vitamins. Nature's Bounty are gummies with Biotin and vitamin C & E. Nature Made are meltaway tablets with Biotin and Vitiman C. Both include the same 2,500 mcg of Biotin with serving size of 2.

However, the Nature Bounty gummies, does not include artificial flavor, milk, lactose, soy, gluten, wheat, yeast, fish or sodium

Wow 10 weeks already

13 Oct 2014
3 months post

My ten weeks post op was on Friday, 3 days ago. On Sunday, I got dressed and didn't realize until I was at church that I didn't have on my CG. I almost freaked out like a crack addict looking for his missing crack pipe but calmed myself down when I noticed that I felt okay without having it on. So, Sunday night I tried sleeping without having it on and again, felt okay without wearing it. I was afraid that I would need or want it in the middle of the night so I slept with it in my bed. No one ever told me that I would have an addiction to a binder or control garment after my procedure, but I'm glad that I'm finally going through the rehabilitation stage without much withdrawals. I haven't worn my binder or control garment since Saturday night and it actually feels kind of liberating and free. It's good to feel that I'm a step closer to normalcy; whatever that is anyway.

Here's my update from the past few weeks.

Had first lymph drainage massage; scheduled to have one, once a month
Increased Magnesium supplements to help me poop regularly.
Returned to weekly Zumba class; not fully but modified as low impact
Stopped wearing control garment; still waking up flat in the morning but will wear it as needed.

Progress
Still have swelling in the evenings, but wake up flat in the mornings
Can sit for long periods of time without being hunched over or stiff when I get up
Incision is still improving; smooth and flat-still wearing tape
BB is still ugly and dark; continue to keep his mouth covered for my sanity
Occasional itching on flanks where lipo was performed, but not bad
Evening swelling is still better than it was prior to TT procedure
Stopped examining myself everyday and looking for flaws. Thankful for my progress and other blessings.

10 weeks photo update

14 Oct 2014
3 months post

Here are a few pictures to document my progress at 10 weeks. There's not much change in the shape of my abdomen or flanks. I'm still hoping for more contour and definition in my abs. I keep waving the magic wand but nothing is happening.

Elective Procedures; How to handle being criticized or judged

15 Oct 2014
3 months post

I only told a few people besides my husband and kids that I was having my TT procedure. I told my kids ages 15 and 11, because I always want to be honest with them. I thought that it would be horrible if something happened to me during surgery and they learned later that I had lied. We had different age and gender appropriate conversations. I had to make sure that my teenage daughter knew that I was not having this procedure as a weight loss option or an excuse to over eat and not exercise even though I was not overweight to start with.

I told my husband (since he had to pay for it) but I left out a lot of the ugly details like getting a new belly button. He hates to see me hurt, so he would have discouraged the procedure if he knew about the BB. He also has a weak stomach so I knew he wouldn't ask about the incision and he still hadn't seen it.

We do not live around family so I told two neighbors just in case I needed help because my husband often travels out of town.

I told my mom very little because I didn't want her to worry, over react or cause me unnecessary added stress. I also did not allow her to come to town for my surgery or during my early recovery period. Needless to say, she was here in town for the past week. She just left today, (Thank God for small blessings). She asked to see my incision and like a fool I showed her. Keep in mind that it's still covered with tape, but that didn't stop her for saying, "Oh Lord Have Mercy" and acting like she was going to pass out. "How could you let someone cut you up like that?" she said, as if I was standing there in multiple pieces. She preceded to ask how much it cost but I refused to answer her. Then she concluded that I could have fed starving children with the money instead of my tummy tuck ( trying to create guilt). Her comments gave me complete validation that I had made the right decision about prohibiting her visit ahead of time.

I'm saying all this to say that we have to realized that unfortunately, everyone will not be happy with the decisions we make to have these "elective procedures." It's also important to realize that we give people POWER to judge or criticize us because of what "we" tell them. They can't judge or criticize about something they don't know about.

These procedures require that we are physically prepared as well as mentally prepared. In doing so, we need to surround ourselves with people who will support us and cheer for us when we are down. Furthermore, this means that we have to limit ourselves from people who are negative, cause additional stress or try to create guilt; limit visitors.

I've read on many profiles where people are disappointed that they hadn't gotten to response or support that they thought they would get. I'm thankful this forum provides support and a safe haven for so many of us to be open and honest with judgement or criticism. Thank You!!

11 weeks; slept on my stomach and returned to playing tennis

20 Oct 2014
3 months post

I'm excited to share that last night was the first night I was able to sleep on my stomach since SX. I don't know how it happened, I flipped over in my sleep and laid on my stomach. My brain woke me up immediately, as it did not want me to miss out on savoring the moment. I felt really good and relaxing; no pulling and no pain. I didn't stay in the position all night, but it brought great comfort to know that each week I'm getting closer to normalcy.

Today, was another treat for my body as I returned to tennis and playing a game of singles. Although I didn't win, my body enjoyed to being back on the court. Again, no pulling nor pain. I worked at the gym lifting weights or 45 mins prior to going to tennis. I'm trying to add definition to my abs since my PS failed to create them for me. I have to admit that I do have a lot of swelling from all of today's activities.

30 day squat challenge update

20 Oct 2014
3 months post

Squat Challenge Update

2:49

I've been challenged by Freedom to modify my squats to make them more challenging.

Wearing CG with seams inside out (Nightmare)

24 Oct 2014
3 months post

Two weeks ago, I packed away all of my control garments and thought that I would never see them again. However, with my increased activity level of daily squats, tennis, zumba, and weight lifting 2-3 times a week, I began to swell again; Really Really Swell.

I had read on another RS Sista's page, that it was recommend to wear your CG inside out if it has seams. Well, since I have extra time on my hands since the "master mind" who changed this site, has made it difficult to post and follow journeys, I decided to give it a try. Unfortunately, I didn't take into consideration that since I'm approaching to age 50 club, that my mind no longer gives my body a 30 minute warning when it's time to go pee. So, when I felt the urge to go pee, it meant, I need to pee right now.

I quickly rushed to the rest room and found myself doing the happy dance which involved shifting from leg to leg with legs closed in an attempt to close off the opening to my sugar cookie. The urge was really bad and I really needed to go, but I couldn't unhook the hooks between the legs of my garment because it was ''INSIDE OUT." I took deep breaths so I wouldn't work myself up into a panic. Did I mention that I was at Wal-mart? I know, I know it wouldn't be the first time somebody pee'd in Wal-Mart, but remember I live in a small company town with not much diversity, so I stand out anyway. I didn't need cause any additional attention to myself. Plus, I didn't want the headlines to read, "An African American, presumably the wife of a Dow Chemical employee pissed a stream of urine on the floor while in the bathroom stall. It's still not determined why she just didn't use the facility appropriately. Investigators are still trying to determine if alcohol or drugs were the cause." I didn't want to embarrass my husband or the other 15 black people that lives here as well.

I started to get overheated because I kept fumbling unsuccessfully with the hooks. I was doing more pinching and pulling my sugar cookie lips than unhooking my garment. "Baby Jesus, please don't let me pee on myself," was my only prayer. I also had my cell phone in my hand, just in case I would need to call the fire department to come cut me out of it. Suddenly, I had a bright idea. I could just pull the garment down from the top. My bladder was fully expelled and in pain as I tried to concentrate on not pee'ing on myself. However, two stalls over I heard this lady pissing like a race horse. She must have saved up all her piss to bring it to the Wal-Mart to get rid of. I've never heard someone piss that long before in my life. She pissed so long, I was getting really irritated. It's like she was taunting me because she knew I really had to go but I was trapped in my garment. And on top of that, I lady entered with this little bad *** child named Bailey. "Stop Bailey, come here Bailey, don't open the door Bailey is all I heard. I wanted to scream because anxiety, fear and panic were beginning to take over. So anyway, I took off my shift so I could remove the garment from the top. I forcibly had to roll the garment down over my swollen belly. I felt like I was wet and trying to take off a too small swim suit. Yes, I've had this experience before. But as soon as the garment was rolling pass my hips, I saw little finger and two small brown eyes on the floor looking into my stall. Yes, it was Bailey. Is it wrong to kick at a child? Not that I did, I'm just asking.

Bailey's mom pulled her back, but I didn't care if the President was watching, nothing was going to stop me for releasing my pain. Finally, I was whizzing like the race horse in the stall two doors down. Thank the Lord, I felt free at last.

So, I guess you shouldn't try to wear your seamed CG inside out if it has hooks or snaps between the legs. I wouldn't want to wish my nightmare on anyone.

Happy Friday

Trick or Treat, what my PS didn't tell me

31 Oct 2014
3 months post

Maybe it's just me, but I had no idea that after a tummy tuck with MR, that my stomach would still be able to inflate like a hot air balloon during PMS, after eating and after a full day of shopping.
That's some trickery for sure. Well, at least I'm enjoying my one week of being completely flat, which is truly a treat. Happy Halloween!!

Here is a picture that I was able to capture before we went out to a Halloween party. My husband and I still like to have fun together even after 21 years of marriage. I call him my plus size model. Everyone loved our costumes.

Squat Challenge Results

3 Nov 2014
4 months post

I've completed the October 30 day squat challenge in attempt to rebuild my butt after my TT SX. My buttocks seem to look a little firmer in jeans but about the same in undies. , However, I will continue doing daily squats in an attempt to build stronger legs and a firmer butt.

30 day squat challenge photos

4 Nov 2014
4 months post

I tried to create side by side photos to show the results from my 30 day squat challenge, but it was difficult to show two booties, side by side. Again, not much noticeable difference.

3 month PO visit

4 Nov 2014
4 months post

I just left the PS office for my 3 month PO follow up. Today, I had my PO photo shoot. The nurse took one set of pictures then asked me to come back for another. I'm assuming that the PS was looking for something particular because when he came into the office he said that he would like to try to improve my flanks, remove small dog ears and improve belly button. I was surprised that he suggested it because I had my list of things I wanted to discuss for possible retouches.

He said that he wanted to remove the scar from around my BB (which he created) but it may make my BB larger. Hmm, my BB already resemble Mr. Bill or a bullet hole from a shot gun, so I'm not sure if I'm in agreement with him on this. Then he explained that it would be done as an outpatient at the local hospital under general anesthesia. Now, all of a sudden I feel frustrated and sad because although he's waving his cost, that would still leaving with me having to pay for the hospital cost. His fee for my sx was $7,000 and the hospital fee including anesthesia was another $7,000. His fee for Lipo was $1,900, so I'm not sure why he didn't do it right the first time (mad face) After I've already spent $14,000, I can't dream of spending more and risk getting a worse BB. I'm feeling really sad, because it's had to just accept the results that I have now knowing that I need some touch ups.

My PS doesn't do anything under local anesthesia, everything has to be done under general. I should hear from the finance person later this week for the estimated amount of the cost. She wasn't in the office today. I need to weigh the cost, because the PS I would like to go to in Houston charges $4,800 for lipo.

Here are some pictures I took this morning. I've lost 8 lbs, current weight is 148. I need to increase my calorie intake, I would like to maintain my weight at 153.

Celebrating Fabulous 50

10 Nov 2014
4 months post

Today, I joined the Fabulous 50 club. I woke up to a surprise of 50 pink Flamingos in my yard from my dear friends in Switzerland. As you can imagine, I was overwhelmed and balled my eyes out. Had a lovely birthday lunch with hubby (it's also his birthday), and will have dinner later with the kids. I'm so blessed and thankful that I've lived to see another year. Pictures below shows me "Representing" 50 as the new 30.

It's Scary when you no longer trust your PS

11 Nov 2014
4 months post

Hey Guys, remember last week when I told you that my PS said that he could do my revisions, but it would have to be done at the hospital? Well, I got a call today from the PS office with a quote of $3,180 for the hospital. I confirm Again, that the PS does not offer any services under local anesthesia, which is totally absurd. Even a veterinarian can offer in house, local services.

I hate to say it, but I believe that my PS must be getting some type of kickbacks from the hospital. I can't see how after I just paid $14,000, 3 months ago that he would expect me to pay another $3,000. I told them that I wish that I would have known that prior to selecting him as my PS. (This is an important question to ask when selecting a PS) Yes, he's waving his fee (according to him) but it's unfortunate that I'm still expected to pay more money.

Second, I find it strange that he is even considering doing a revision when I'm only 3 months PO. Everything I've read says that a revision should be done until at least 6 months but most recommend a year.

Third, I asked if he could offer me any non surgical procedures and I was told no. HIs website advertises Coolsculpting, I think at the least I should have been offered this as a option to reduce my flanks.

When they told me that he couldn't even fix my small dog ear in the office, I knew he was a joke. The economy is bad in this town and instead of him treating his patients who can afford his service well, he tries to milk them dry.

Lastly, I'm convinced because I got a itemized copy of the invoice from the hospital after my surgery ( I also got a copy of his operative notes, never know when you will need this stuff) and the total charges for my SX was $25,000. Again, the hospital charged me $7,000. When I called and asked about the big discrepancy, I was told that the $25,000 was their standard charge but they offered a big discount to the PS patients. Hmmm, I've never known a hospital to be that generous.

Just some things to make you wonder. However, he will never see another dime of my money. It's not a good feeling when you no longer trust your PS.

For now I will wait and see if my body continue to change. After a year, if I still feel that my flanks are too full, I'll consider lipo by another PS in Houston.

50th Birthday Party Dinner ( 3 months 2 weeks post)

18 Nov 2014
4 months post

I celebrated my 50th birthday with a dinner party with friends. My husband planned a lovely evening. Everyone commented on how good I looked. Only a few people at the party knew that I have TT sx. I loved my dress, purchased from Venus. It really showed my shape well. The wait staff couldn't believe that I was celebrating my 50th birthday.

Process: I actually feel 100%, 99% of the time. I still get occasional swelling and often still wear my binder or control garment as needed.
1. I notice that constipation can cause my stomach to swell and become bloated. I take magnesium to manage my constipation.
2. I still massage my stomach regularly, clockwise with cocoa butter.
3. I keep incision covered with Mepitac silicone tape 24/7. My incision is nice and flat but still dark because of my pigmentation.
4.I have resumed all activities, including cardio, and weight lifting.
5. I've noticed that my body is still undergoing small changes but at 3 months, I can finally see the body I wanted.
6. My TT results aren't perfect, but I'm happy and feel sexy.

Close up of dress

19 Nov 2014
4 months post

Here is a closer picture of my birthday party dress from Venus. It is a knit stretchy material and very comfortable.

Dress

19 Nov 2014
4 months post

Keeping it real; Beer Gut look 9 months after Tummy Tuck

11 May 2015
10 months post

Since 4 months post, I was dealing with the dreaded beer gut, 9 months pregnant, I can’t believe I had a tummy tuck and still look like this- look. At first, I thought it was swell hell, but how in the hell could I still be swollen everyday was puzzling to me. I had resulted back to wearing my control garment in order to help suck me in and hold me tight, so I could look like I had a tummy tuck. I wanted to have a burial ceremony for those garments and vow to never see them again, however I found myself pulling them out and even worse wrapping myself in that sexy white post operative binder.

The lack of final gratification I sought as each month passed had begun to take a toll on me. For sure, at the magical 6 month post mark, I thought I would get it, but it too past as well as months 7th and 8th. In order to maintain some since of sanity, I had to take time away from the RS site. I was like a crack addict running around from place to place trying to find that high and wanting, No needing my Whaola moment. I research more PS after my SX than I have done previous. I felt like I had traded one obsession for another. I had become consumed with how others looked, until it blinded me from my own results, so I put myself in RS rehab. I felt cheated and robbed because I didn’t look like that “bad bitch” at the beach with a small waist and tight abs, I know you have seen her.

It seemed like no matter what I ate or how much I ate, my stomach would bloat and swell lasting weeks at a time. I would be lucky if I had 3 days out of the month with a flat stomach, well at least semi-flat one anyway. I had convinced myself that my MR had come undone or wasn’t done at all, so I went for a second opinion to a PS in Houston. To my surprise, it was confirmed that my TT was not only done well, but also my MR was still intact. Relieved, but this was definitely not what I wanted to hear. So, the new PS suggested that I commit to doing hard-core exercises. Say, what? Didn’t he realize that I had paid $14,000 so I would NEVER-EVER have to do another sit up again? But hey, I have nothing but respect for him because he could have easily lied to me and taken my money. So, that weekend I ate like a pig. Since I was in Texas it didn’t make sense to leave without having fajitas, fried seafood and barbeque. Anyway, when I returned home I joined a fitness class that offered body sculpting and it’s no joke. I also started eating clean; no dairy, no wheat, gluten free, no sodas.

After all of this, I’m now 9 months post and finally starting to see the results I always wanted. I’m still going to my fitness classes 3 times a week, I’m now on a beginner’s tennis league and play at least 2 times a week and I ate clean religiously for 4 weeks, which really controlled my bloating. I’m still clean eating conscience, but I had a breakdown last weekend, so I have to repent and get back focused.

So, today I decided to go back and look at my own pictures and only compare myself. I am astonished and grateful for my results. I didn’t realize that I actually had a beer gut before. So you ask is everything now happily ever after? Hell no, in September, I’m having more lipo on my posterior flanks ( just certain places working out can’t help) and dog ear repaired. I’ve decided to leave my “oh no Mr. Bill belly button alone. I’ve gotten use to seeing him plus I don’t want to take a chance on making things worse. So, the bottom line is that TT surgery is not a fix all. Sometimes, we may find that we have to fix ourselves in the inside in order to see the results we want on the outside.

1 yr Anniversity, NOW WHAT?

2 Aug 2015
1 year post

Fifty-two weeks, 365 days, 1 year post is finally here, so now what? This day signifies the finale of results, but honestly I hadnt seen much change with my results since 4 months post.
Am I glad that I had my TT, hell yeah. Would I do it again, hell yeah.
Still not happy with my belly button (size and dark color), but I have consulted with several doctors who advised me to leave it alone which I agree. I would have to jump off a small building if I were to have a belly button revision and end up with it looking worse.

I wish that my stomach was flatter but I do not have loose skin for it to be pulled tighter. My diet and pooping contributes to the fluctuation of its fulleness/flatness. Plus, if I were 10-20 years younger I'm sure my results would be different. However, I still think I am a pretty hot chick for a 50 yr old.

Now what? No more milestone future dates to look towards. Maybe I would schedule appointment for more lipo on flanks. Just not ready to kick the plastic surgery addiction yet.

2 yr update ( Chick fila and Chipotle are the devil)

8 Sep 2016
2 years post

Hey my RS sista's and Imath, Sorry I have been MIA for a while, but I'm finally back to give my 2 yr update, one month late. After reading one of my older post, I can tell you that I'm no longer eating clean and healthy. I've moved back to Texas, the land of food, food, heat and food. I'm convinced that Chick fila and Chipotle are evil workers of the devil. It's not normal that anyone can eat there every day and never get tired of it. Just evil.

Anyway, to make a long story short, I'm blaming the devil foods on my persistent bloated stomach, constipation and back fat. I've always said that if I were to ever move back to Texas that I would have sx again. Well, I've decided against it. Not only because my husband told me hell no, but I saw a post sx victim walking around in Kohl's looking like a star in The Walking Dead. No, I didn't ask her if she had sx, but you know you know the walk when you see it. She was hunched over leaning on the basket for support, slides her feet as if she was practicing for the ice skating event in the olympics and through her baggy pants, I saw her drains dangling between her legs like a mans 80 yr old balls. Poor thing, just awful. That memory was enough for me.

I figured that she much have had a 30 % off coupon or something that made her come out in that condition. But hey, I'm not the one to judge, I know how it is to be stir crazy after sx and to miss a sale on top of that would be just devastating.

Okay, enough about the ice skater Zombie in Kohl's with the hanging balls, back to my update.

I'm still glad that I had my TT, and yes, I would do it all over again. Not with the same PS, but I must agree, he made improvements. I got 80% of what I was mentally expecting. Yes, I realize that I will never be that bad bitch on the beach. But then again, I will be 52 soon and I guess I shouldn't be that bad bitch with a ironing board stomach and flabby arms and legs. Don't act like you haven't seen her. You know she's one the over confident one on a cruise ship walking around with big tight boobs, flat stomach and saggy arms, knees, neck and ass. But hey, you know me, I'm not the one to judge.

Anyway, I still suffer with constipation, can I tell you it's the devil's food. How can waffle fries taste that good, anyway? I have found that magnesium tablets are the only thing that keeps my pipes open. I don't take them everyday, but only when I really need a good poop. You know that really good poop you need so bad that you have to get out of your clothes and turn off all the lights in the bathroom? Yes, that's the one. Well, the magnesium tablets does the trick. Warning, they are not for everybody, but it will help with bloating and constipation. I warn you because some of you may have a loose booty. That's the kind of booty that can't hold in a fart. If that's you, don't take magnesium. I don't want you sending me hate mail because you passed gas at work and they had to evaluate the building. Yes, the smell of the farts can be really bad. I think the magnesium tablets must reach all the way up your colon or something to pull down all the old stale poop first. Anyway, I don't understand how it works, but it works for me.

No real changes in my body since 8 months. My belly button still looks like a bullet hole, but the color has gotten lighter around the edges. Never got that six pack and flanks still fat.

Although, I have not been eating healthy, I really hadn't gained weight (thanks mom and dad for good genes) but managed to maintain that dreaded fat on my flanks that Mr.- Dr.- Certified PS didn't suck all out in the first place. However, I do stay pretty active playing tennis and going to U-Jam dance classes once a week.

Well, that wraps up my 2 yr and 1 month update. If you are debating if you should have a TT, do it if it will make you happy, just make sure that you do your research first and choose your PS carefully. Or if you are like the Zombie ice skating humped over at home post sx, don't worry, it will be better.