24yo, 120 Pounds, Anywhere from 200-250cc. The Road to Boobies!!

Back story
Hi!! First I just wanted to say that I am grateful for an outlet. To be able to work through some of the emotions that come with this and be around so many other women is amazing. I am 24, closer to 25. I have been extremely small for the majority of my life. I remember stuffing my bras with tissue, socks or even wearing two bras at once just to feel a bit more womanly. I have taken every supplement, rubbed on every creme and have done every massage regimen available( im talking to like the 20th page on google.) Last September I decided to finally take it into my own hands. As of now I can fit into a 32 b. Im sure it has more to do with the width of my body and breasts than the size. I cant fill the cups but if I go down to an A, its uncomfortable. I have never gone outside without a padded bra on and im just over living like that.

Choosing a plastic surgeon
I met with 4 surgeons a minimum of three times each before deciding on the one im going with. I chose him because every time he saw me, he asked follow up questions about the last time we spoke( hows school, work, did you pass that test you told me about..). Made me feel like I was talking to a friend. Also that he gave me recommendations for what he thought i should go with so that i could ultimately choose, not the other way around.

Sizing
I do not want to have large breasts in the traditional sense. I want more volume than anything.I still want to look extremely natural but be confident enough to go out without a bra. I am a smaller women and I do not want to look like im going to topple over, chest first. After scouring the internet for months ( literally, if you have small implants and have put them anywhere on the internet, I have seen them. They are nice :) ) I have decided on staying below 250 cc. I would much rather be too small than too big. I have heard a lot about getting boob greed but having breasts too big would probably make me sadder than having none. I just want to continue to feel and look like myself with boobs that fill a bra. I know for sure im going with sub muscular, smooth and round. I keep going back and forth between 200 cc, 225 cc or 250cc. As i said Im scared of going to big but Im also scared of not having a difference once I wake up. My PS told me that based on the width of my breasts 250 may be my best bet, but after seeing lots of reviews, it may be too big. ANY and ALL advice, I would appreciate so much.
Thanks for reading
xo

Ill be on vacation for the next few weeks before my BA. Its giving me a lot of time to think. I put my deposit down earlier this week and BAM, the doubt kicks in. Ive wanted to do this for years and now im doubting myself. Am i just being vain? What if they look worse than they do now? Do i really want something foreign in my body permanently? It is too much money to be disappointed afterwards. At least I know how to deal with the disappointment of my natural breasts already.Im still a month out and already extremely anxious. I know some of you have gone through this phase. How do you get past it and still get the procedure done

I know its hard to find good pictures of smaller implants. Here, have some of mine!! :)